Never Be the Same のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 81 - チャプター 90

Everything was the same. How the teachers were still strict, how the cafeteria was still noisy and how both me and Amelia treated each other. It was as if we were back to strangers, now that we were back in our school. I knew that we had to act like this, but I never knew it would be this hard. All I want to do right now is go to her and give her a hug. We’ve been ignoring each other since morning, and if this keeps up, I would have no choice but to make her notice me the hard way.  “Why do you look like you’re about to kill someone? Did I do something bad?” my seatmate, who was just innocently sitting beside me, decided to ask me that, making me smile just so I wouldn’t scare her away. I almost forgot how scary I really look when I have this serious face on. I guess it was also because of the shape of my eyes, making my face look sharper. 

I closed my eyes as I tried to memorize the list of terms that will be in our test next week. I wanted to make sure that I’ll pass and ace all of my tests next week. But what irritates me is the fact that school has just started, and yet here we are getting bombarded by tests again.  I was inside the library, away from the other students who also decided to become early birds when it comes to their studies. I don’t look like it, but I’m actually very grade conscious and would love to be praised because of my high grades. There was something about academic validation that made me want it, especially from my parents.  I was only interrupted when I felt someone tapping my back. I looked around— irritated because my review session was interrupted, but then a small smile escaped my lips when I saw it was

Just when I thought things were going smoothly, well, turns out it wasn’t. As soon as I  entered dreamland, I was greeted by none other than my mum— her younger self of course. She was looking at me, no glaring. She was glaring at me, and despite knowing that this was only a dream, I could still feel chills. My mum has always been scary when she’s angry, and the fact that she’s rarely angered scares me more.  “Stop hiding Sea from me!” She screamed at me, and all I could do was look at her in confusion, not knowing why she was even thinking that I was hiding Sea from her. Damn, my mum really does love Sea, huh? To the point she already lost her composure, and even screamed at my face, when she was clearly known to be the type of girl who was always well-mannered and had always had her poise with her wherever she goes.  

As soon as I saw those pair of blue eyes, the raging storm inside me stopped. I breathe in and out just to calm myself as I was still busy looking at her, knowing that she helps in calming me down. Amelia has this worried look on her face, and without even saying anything more, she enveloped me in a tight hug. I hugged her back as I buried my face on the crook of her neck, feeling guilty that I disturbed her sleep because of my nightmare.  “I’m sorry,” I whispered, before letting go of the hug, Amelia looked at me, this time she was confused, and I couldn’t help but pinch her cheeks since she looked so cute.  “Why are you sorry, love?” I wanted to melt as soon as she asked me that, and her endearment for me was just the cherry on top. I just want to go back to sleep and hug her all night

I kept on replaying what happened earlier between me and Amelia inside my head. Tongue lapping, hair tugging and our bodies almost becoming one because of how close we were. I closed my thighs and gently rubbed them together, not liking the fact that I can sense my wetness down there, and the cause of it is ignoring me. I’m going insane after she left me hanging. What was wrong with doing it anyway? We were both adults and we wouldn’t be doing it in public, it would be inside the privacy of our own room. So what is it that’s stopping her from doing me?  My phone suddenly vibrated, so I checked to see who messaged me, and to my surprise, it was her. A smirk made its way to my lips before finally getting into my feet to go and have fun.