I have a lot of secrets that no one knowsEveryone sees me as bad boy and that's probably what I am.I use a lot of things to hide my insecurities and block out the darkness that I constantly live in.  I use girls for pleasure, I use money for fame and popularity and I use my arrogance to block people from seeing my hurt.  Then she walked into my gym one day and it all changed, all of it. For the first time in a long time, I had light.  I am Tony Caraballo and this is the story of how I moved from darkness to light because of one special person.   

"I am telling you, being in a relationship is better than just playing girls." Derek said. It was the same argument with him everytime. And right now it started because I was checking out the new girl that started at my gym. I made him a bet that I would have her in my bed before the week ends.  "Nope. Why should I stick to just one girl when I have plenty of girls that want me? In a way I am only being fair." I said. "How is what your doing fair?" He asked with confusion.  "If I stay with just one girl, I am depriving other girls of me so I have to be fair by being with all of them."  Derek just looked at me and rolled his eyes. "You're a sick man."  "Hey, I'm a sick sexy man. You always forget the sexy."  "I don't forget it." He said with a smirk.  I smacked him on the arm and turned my attenti

Sometimes I wish I could break my alarm in the morning. I woke up with a terrible headache. I told myself I would never go clubbing on a work day but anger had driven me straight to the bar.    I had to sober up before going to work because if Derek found out that I had been drinking because I was angry, he would freak. He was only a couple of months older than me but he treats me like his child.    I rolled out of bed and when I was standing up straight, I felt as though someone had dropped a huge stone on my head. I dragged my feet to the bathroom where my medicine cabinet was. I took an Ibuprofen from it and waited for it to work in my system.    Ten minutes later after the headache had lessened, I was about to take my bath when my phone started to ring. No surprise that is was Derek.    "Hey baby." I said after I answered the call.    He made a gag no

It was another boring day of work, work, work. Derek had decided to keep me busy so I wouldn't even have the time to go to a club or even thinking of having a drink.Yes, in the past I might have had some issues with alcohol but I was totally fine now and Derek needed to understand that.I was in bed all huddled in my duvet and ready for bed when a phone call came in, interrupting my peace. This is why you should always put your phone on airplane mode in the night.I looked at the caller ID to see that it was Brian again. I grinded my teeth in frustration. Of all the fucked up people in this world to call me, it had to be the fu****."What do you want?" I asked with anger in my voice. I had zero tolerance for the bag of shit."Chill, would you? You don't want to end up in another court ordered anger management class again, do you?" He asked with mischief. I could tell by the sound of his v

I walked up the hill, the bright afternoon sun hitting me hard, sweat dripping down my back and my chest. I was soaked. But I couldn’t stop, I never stopped till I got to the top.  It was just a few more kilometers to the top so I dragged myself up. I liked the feeling of the sun burning on my back. I was so glad that I had put on some sun block and I was wearing a tank top and shorts, I would have had a heat stroke and the worst case of sun burn.  Twenty minutes later, I had finally reached the top.  I sat on a rock and took a big gulp of water from my water bottle. The water was cold and I felt it flow through me.  I was hiked every time I had something on my mind. It helped me clear the cob webs from my head.  I had just had another of my realistic dreams about my parents that I fucking hate. Every time I had that dream, it made me feel angry and