บททั้งหมดของ MY CRUSH, MY NEIGHBOR: บทที่ 181 - บทที่ 190

YOO-MI's POVThere was a room full of eyes on us as Jeonghan looked down at his feet. I could see guilt and regret weighing down on him.'You get to be the asshole and coward who leaves," Josh continued. 'and I stayed here for Yoo-Mi, took care of her, loved her. And she's the only fucking I want but you took her away from me... Again!"Jeonghan clenched his fists, his jaw twitched, ready to attack Josh but I stopped him. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it, telling him to calm down. 'How about you, Josh?" he asked sternly. 'Weren't you the asshole here who hide everything? Didn't you keep to yourself everything you did to Yoo-Mi?"'Jeonghan....' I tried to stop him but he ignored me.'You made us believe that Honey was mine. Weren't you the coward here who was scared to tell us the truth? Huh, Josh!" he yelled. 'You have all the time to fucking tell us the truth! You ruined everything! You destroyed our relationship! You were telling us that you were the hero here when in fact, you're

YOO-MI's POVI stared in the bathroom mirror, my eyes were swollen and puffy. The tip of my nose was bright red and there were pink splotches around my temples, splayed across my cheeks from the long cry I had in the stall. On the cold, hard floor.My hand dove into my purse, searching for something to cover up the agony and hurt and pain that was plastered all over my face.The pain of hurting Josh. Of hurting myself.‘Choose me, Yoo-Mi. Just this fucking once... choose me.'Those words nearly broke me into two. Those words made me want to tell him that I would choose him. That I would do anything to keep his heart from breaking.But, if I did that, I would just end up hurting him more than I already am.I always thought love was supposed to be simple. That falling in love was rainbows and butterflies and magic. But it was not. It was complicated and chaotic. No matter how many times you attempt it.I love Josh. Not the best friend who took care of me. I love who he was now. The fath

YOO-MI's POVI bit my lip while I mulled over whether or not it's a good idea to talk to Josh. We used to be best of friends. We're still, right? But I doubt we'll ever be friends like we were, but there's history and memories, a bond that's never been easily shaken. And Honey, connecting us.'Josh, can we talk?"His head lifted and he looked surprise to see me approaching him. 'About what?"'Are you okay?" I asked, his eyes were bloodshot as he looked at me expectantly.He laughed bitterly. 'You're unbelievable, Yoo-Mi." I took a step back, wounded. 'I lost my home, my life, and you. It's all gone and I'm rooming here, with you and your mom. I can't believe you have the fucking audacity to ask me if I'm alright. How the fuck do you think I'm doing?"I swallowed hard. He never talked to me like this before.'Don't worry, I'm leaving tomorrow." He continued.'No please…and I'm sorry. But I thought we're okay now?? You can stay here as long as you want. We're best friends, Josh."‘How a

YOO-MI's POV'I'm sorry about last night."I ignored Josh as I continued to pour over spreadsheets and reports and numbers, my eyes still focused on my laptop. Honey was now in the living room, watching her favorite Peppa Pig show.'Yoo-Mi," he tried again. 'I shouldn't have drink last night. I shouldn't have brought anyone here. I don't know why I did that."I stopped my fingers from typing on the keyboard and rubbed a hand over my face, exhausted from lack of sleep.'Yoo-Mi," he said again. This time, I could hear the pleading in his voice. 'I'm sorry. I fucked up. I..I just thought about staying with you and having Jeonghan coming back. I don't know if I can..if I can handle it while he's here. With you."'I wouldn't do that." I started as I looked over at him. 'I would never make you feel as uncomfortable as you made me feel last night."He nodded his head and licked his lips. 'I'm just…"'An asswipe?"'No."'Then what are you?" I crossed my arms over my chest and leaned back in m

JOSH's POVThe ball hit the ground before bouncing back up at me. I gripped it in my hands, bent my knees and shoot it towards the basket.It soared through the air and hit the rim, fell to the ground without ever touching the net.I missed.I always miss.I've been trying to learn how to play this fucking game but I didn't know why I couldn't master it.I dribbled the ball a few more times and took another shot.Another miss.I brought a girl back to Yoo-Mi's place and fucked her. Probably the lowest point of my life. Everything was just too much. But that girl couldn't get off my mind. I didn't even get her name. And she didn't tell me that she was a fucking virgin.It sounded insane to me but I realized it wasn't just sex with her. There was a level of intimacy I never experienced with any other woman, even with Yoo-Mi.I couldn't forget how the way she arched her back whenever she was near, the way she always tried to clamp her legs together if it weren't for me holding them down.