"Nagugutom ka, Jez?" I nodded. The next few days were difficult for us. Although, Asher's been here, supporting me and taking care of me. Dwight kept on messaging me and I never bothered replying to him. We decided to talk to him today. Dwight was now recovering as what Marco said. Si Johnson inuulan din ako ng text at tawag kung bakit hindi ko raw dinadalaw si Dwight. Si Marco na lang nag-e-xplain na may sakit ako kaya hindi puwede. Hindi pa naman obvious ang tiyan ko. Magtwo-two months pa lang. Dwight went to a lot of therapies, dahil nga sa injuries na natamo niya noong aksidente. I wanted to take care of him but not now when my body's not cooperating. Parati akong nagkakaroon ng morning sickness. Ang hina ng katawan ko. Imagine how mothers went through the same pain as me. Mommy went to me yesterday. He saw Asher and I in an intimate position. She was mad... really mad that she hated me to the core. I remembered her last words before she went out.&nb

Asher was seating on the couch, holding an ice pack on his hand when I came inside."Ako na," saad ko sa kanya saka niya inabot sa akin ang hawak niya. I took a step closer to him and gently patted on the corner of his eyes. "Si Johnson ba may gawa nito?" Tumango siya."I deserve this," he said. Kita pa rin ang putok sa gilid ng labi niya. My heart clenched painfully seeing him in this state. "How was your talk with Dwight?"  he asked while he was gently caressing my belly. I liked how Asher always asked me like what happened through out the day to me; he's always interested to me."Okay na kanina. Kumalma na siya. I explained, Asher. We were all hurt. I loved Dwight. He was the first man I've ever let in my life because I really hated men after my father cheated on my mother. You know that. But there's no saving when relationship couldn't be saved anymore. If there's something I've learned from our relationship is to never decide for your own. Dalawa kayo

"Kasalanan ko 'to, Dwight," paulit-ulit kong sinabi. Fuck! This was my fault! I should've taken care of them! I should've not let them alone there. I frustratedly raked my hair with my fingers.  "P're, we can't do anything about it." he said, trying to calm me. I tightened the grip of the bottled water I was holding.   I was lucky enough that Dwight helped me. It took me a lot of beating from him for his forgiveness. Alam kong mali ako dahil minahal ko rin ang mahal niya. He also had to go to the psychiatrist. What happened last time was his last blow. I was glad that finally we're back to square but the bond that we had was not the same as how it used to be before.   Fuck! I'm scared... I've never been this scared not until when their lives were on the line.   Mahal na mahal ko sila, e.   Itinukod ko ang kamay ko sa ulo ko at sinabunt

If there was anything I learned was to hold yourself together. Hold it. Keep it firm. No matter happens. For as long as you can. Because you only have yourself."Mama! Look! Ninang Kiana made me a new dress!" Joella was happily running around wearing the yellow dress. My heart melted seeing my now grown daughter.Ngumiti ako nang malawak sa kanya. "You look pretty, Joella.""Of course, Mommy! It's because you look so beautiful!" I laughed at her remark. "I'm just going to show this to Cholo, Mommy. He kept on teasing me, telling me I'm ugly!""Go lang anak."Everytime I look at my daughter, all I see her was myself back then who was happy, innocent and care-free."Jez, sigurado ka na ba talaga sa desisyon mo?" Diskumpyadong tumingin sa akin si Kiana."Oo naman. Pinag-isipan ko na ito nang matagal. Besides, tama na rin 'yung ilang taon naming pagtatago. It's time to go back."Sumisimsim ako sa iniimon na tsaa. Within the six yea

"Mommy, are we going to Philippines?" kuryosong tanong ni Aiofhe habang nakaupo sa gilid at pinapasadaan ng tingin ang mga magazines. Pansin kong bata pa lamang ay sobrang mahilig na siya sa mga magazines, lalo na kapag tungkol sa mga damit. She's so interested on it.Tumango ako. "Yes nak. Remember Lola Andrea?""Yup. She's your mommy."I chuckled. "She's so pretty and kind like you, anak."Nangingiti siya habang binalik ang atensyon sa pagbabasa.Asher told me he would visit today again. We are also used to his presence. He was wearing a black basic statement shirt and black pants when he arrived. Napansin ko pa ang nakasukbit na gitara sa kanyang likuran. My heart hammered instant