I woke up another day as the rays of the scorching sun came into view.  "Summer na pala," I told myself as I got up from the bed. Days turned weeks. Weeks turned to years.  A year has already passed. Asher was consistently communicating with us right after he flew back to the Philippines. He never missed a day to talk to us even through phone. It was difficult being apart from him again but I have to deal with it. It's his personal issue he wanted to overcome on his own. How brave of him to get therapy after everything that happened. We were all wrecked. I remember the time that I also had to endure PTSD after I gave birth to Aiofhe and the anxiety attacks I had after Terrence abducted me. Those were the darkest moments.  I suffered from severe anxiety. The episodes of constant fear and worry that I always felt whenever I thought of Terrence. Na baka pagmulat ko ng mata ay nasa harapan

"Bilib din ako sa inyo no," she told me as her eyes were flaring.Asher came back and stood frozen beside me when he saw Terrence's mother."I did everything I could do to destroy you but you're still happy while we are suffering terribly!""Ma'am, how many times do I have to apologize for what I did?" I looked at Asher who moved forward and stared at her with the same intensity. "Hindi po ba't pinagbayaran ko na ang nagawa ko?""Maibabalik niyo ba ang anak ko?! He could've lived and stayed with us!" She was loudly crying. Nasa labas kami at nagsimula ng mapunta sa amin ang atensyon ng mga tao."Your son did something to us, too! He sexually harassed her and abused her. We never even

"What am I going to do with you?" tanong ni Asher saka tumayo. Nakakunot ang noo ko nang hinarap ko siya. Kakalabas ko lamang sa kwarto. Nilapitan ko siya."Why?"Kakatapos ko pa lang mag-ayos para sa binyag ng anak ni Dwight. I was honestly hesitating whether I would go or not. Aattend ako sa binyag ng ex ko, sounds weird right? But Asher told me Dwight was expecting me to come so I had no choice."You're so pretty," he said which made me blushed."Bolero." Natawa ako. I wore the blue maxim dress I bought the last time. Kasama namin dapat si Aiofhe pero masakit ang tiyan kaninang umaga kaya hindi makakapunta. Pinainom ko na ng gamot at nagpapahinga na ngayon. Buti na lang nandito si Mommy para bantayan siya.

"Nahanap mo na?" tanong ni Dwight sa tabi ko. Ibinuga ko ang usok ko sa bibig at itinapon ang sigarilyo sa sahig. I puffed cigarettes every time I was frustrated. Hindi ko na mabilang kung pang-ilan ko na ngayong araw.    Umiling ako. "Hindi pa rin."    "Don't lose hope. You'll soon find her." Dwight encouraged. Would I still be able to find her? What if it was really her choice to leave me alone? If she was suffering, I wanted to be with her but how could I when she chose to leave me? I didn't want know what to do anymore. Everything just piles up. I couldn't even breathe properly!   Mabigat pa rin ang aking dibdib dahil sa mga nangyari. Ang hirap tanggapin ng puso ko na tuluyan ng umalis si Jezrel at iniwan ako.   "Tita, just please tell me..." I begged her mother when I came to their house.    I even tried to beg the stars and the moon to tell me where the hell

When you're cheated, what should be the first thing to do? To blame yourself over and over again, asking yourself what have gotten wrong? Or to hate those who cheated behind your back? To tell you honestly, I didn't know what to feel. My mind went blank and the first thing that popped out was to get my gun. When Jezrel told me she was pregnant. My body was numb. Asher, my best friend, my brother whom I trusted the most betrayed me. Gusto ko siyang saktan nang saktan! Pinaulanan ko siya ng suntok. Because the fuck, what did I even do to deserve this? Alam ko naman may kasalanan ako. Pero tangina bakit sa lahat ng tao kaibigan ko pa? I kept on punching him. I was livid! Paano nila