บททั้งหมดของ Lost Soul: บทที่ 11 - บทที่ 20

I woke up the next morning with a smile on my face. I hurriedly got out of bed and went to the vanity mirror. I caressed my face and put on a smile. This is perfect, needs a bit of work but hey, I'm back and that's all that matters. Poor Cassidy, she's gone and now I'm here. I am her. I went straight to the bathroom and opened the faucet to fill the tub with water and went for Cassidy's collection of bath bombs. Amber, my favorite scent. I hesitated for a bit, the last time I was in a tub I ended my life and it's but fitting that the moment I come back I start my day in the bathtub again. Touche'. I hum as I lather my body with the bubbles and leaned back. Ahhh... this is perfect. I never knew it would work and I'm happy it did. In a snap, I'm the captain of the cheerleading squad, the overachiever, the good daughter plus a hot boyfriend to display. I smile. "Devon...hahaha, I told you you're mine, now it's official, nobody can tear us apart anymore." In my mind I have

After the emotionally charged afternoon with Cassidy, I never felt closer to her than today. It was as if something has changed in her, I felt a deep connection with her than I have ever had. Cassidy was always like a best friend to me, she is a great listener, caring, and open unlike Hannah that to her death has kept so many secrets from me, not that I can blame her. With Hannah, though I have felt forever in her, but I walked out on her because it was too much for me. We were too close too soon. We don't need words but the deep, profound feelings I felt for her are always there. Somehow, today, it seemed like what I felt with Cassidy has transcended to something much more. My feelings for both her and Hannah combined, that's what I felt in my heart right now. We are walking down the hall towards the parking lot, holding hands and I felt like I needed to clear the air with her as to what happened the last night. "Hey Cass, I'm so sorry about last night, I must admit, Hannah

I sat down feeling shaken by my confrontation with Matthew. Hands shaking I poured myself a new drink. I know I fucked up but I cannot let Hannah win, the moment she came into my life everything went down in flames. I was so in love with Garret, I never knew that he will become my downfall. I thought he will be my saving grace out of my unhappy marriage and bring my family to a better life. Then Hannah happened. I thought for a moment carrying his child would mean the turn of my luck, yes my luck did turn but for the worse.  I remember that night we were at The Rembrandt, we were dining in our suite and as we were just talking while drinking wine, I gently hugged him from behind where he was seated and showed him the pregnancy test and whispered "Surprise darling..." I felt him stiffen to my touch and I knew right then and there it was the end. He stood up and faced me. "Lucy, I can't do this." Tears brimming in my eyes, "Garrett please, I thought you said you love me a

I woke up with a massive headache and my whole body felt battered. I looked around and I see Devon his head on my hand sleeping at the chair beside my hospital bed. I moved my hands and he stirred from his slumber. He looked at me and sat upright and held my hands.  "Cassidy, baby, you're awake..." I looked around and asked, "Where am I?"  "You're at the hospital, you were in an accident", Devon said to me solemnly. "I don't understand...I remember lying down on my bed and...and there was Hannah." I said, my voice quivering.  "No baby, you hit your head pretty bad, you were banged up, you must have been dreaming. Hannah is gone...just take a rest." He said as he went up and pushed the button to call the nurse. As the nurse went in, I saw my parents come into the room, they were all talking, discussing what to do with me next. My mom and dad were hugging me, but I can't get myself to listen. I know that what happened

As I went down, I saw Matthew in the living room. He looked up and his expression is grim. "Where are you going mom?" he said."Well, I figured I needed some fresh air. I've been cooped up in my room for so long, I cannot let myself waste away you know..." I retorted imitating Lucy as best as I could."Wearing that?" he looked at me up and down. He smirked."Well, I have a date." I blurted back."Mom, seriously? It has not even been a month since your daughter died and you are going on a date?!" Matt said."I'm wearing black aren't I?" my God I sounded just like her, I thought to myself."Just another normal day for Lucy Johnson eh? You never change..." Matt snapped.I smiled and went near him, "You should try going out, it looks like you need it more than I do." I said to him, trying to hide the tug in my heart that I feel whenever I see how heartbroken Matthew is with my death.I hurriedly went out and drove to Car