I'm going through the motions as though this is all real, but I'm fairly certain I'm either dead, or in a coma, likely as a result of that creature. It would make a lot more sense that it had hurt or killed me, than everything that has happened since and I'm not sure if I even want to wake up. Everything I've ever wanted is here. Cain has practically told me we're soulmates and is holding my hand as we walk through his home to meet a loving family that I've always wanted but never had, and my friends are here too. It's like I've got everything I need all under one roof. Even his father, who clearly didn't want me near his son, has apologised and accepted me. Life doesn't work like this, so it can't be real. The only thing making me question myself is that I've never had a dream before where I know I'm dreaming, but then I've never been in a coma before, so maybe that feels different? Cain and his father seem to communicate silently with angry facial expressions and despite their po

Waking up in Cain's arms feels right, he's like the calm amongst the crazy. I've accepted that something is going on and I don't know if I'll ever understand it, but this is the new normal I guess.Cain pretends to still be asleep when I turn to look at him, I can tell he's pretending because his eyes are forced shut and his mouth keeps twitching like he's trying not to smile."Morning, stay asleep. I'm just going to get some uni work done before Calista does that self defence class with us." I whisper in his ear, throwing the blanket off of myself and then, with a little burst of confidence, I lean down and kiss him on the lips.I'd anticipated just a quick peck, but as soon as our lips touch, his arms wrap around me, pulling me against him and rolling so he's got me pinned me beneath his body. "Morning." He grins down at me and while there's nothing especially erotic about his smile, there seems to be another part of him that seems very awake, separated only by the material of his

Yesterday was bizarre to say the least, I'm not sure how to digest all the information so, for lack of a better option, I'm not. I'm walking around, talking to people, trying to keep myself as busy as I can and pretending all this crazy shit isn't happening, because if I really stop to think about what I saw and heard yesterday, then I'm not sure how I'll come back from that level of insanity. I was only just getting to grips with the idea that I might possibly have lost my memory and created new and fake ones to replace them, that's unlikely but possible, isn't it? It's like something amazing you'd watch on TV, but this… werewolves? They aren't real, everyone knows that, but Cain transformed… shifted… right before my eyes. He's told me I can't tell my friends about it, says it needs to be kept a closely guarded secret or the humans would panic. He says it goes back to a time when humans knew about us… us, because he says I'm one of them, which I can't even begin to comprehend… anyw

I wake up feeling like I've done some sort of marathon. My whole body aches, I feel weak and like part of myself is missing. Guilt fills me, knowing I'm feeling like this because of that pill and that probably means I was pregnant and my body is working on getting rid of the baby. I didn't think I'd feel like this, I certainly wasn't ready for a baby, but now I wish I could take it back.I whisper apologies to my stomach, as if the baby might somehow be able to hear me, praying to whoever is out there to somehow save my baby, regardless of what it might mean for me.Getting up proves difficult, but I drag myself into the shower, then back into my room to focus on the notes of dreams. I'm so thankful Gale wrote them down now, but it's still weird knowing these are memories of a life I don't remember.Darius brings me food and sits with me for a while, asking if I'm ok because I look pale, but I just pretend I didn't sleep well and eventually he leaves when Merida makes an appearance.

"Run, run as fast as you can, you can't catch me, I'm faster than you." I cackle, sprinting ahead and aiming for the dense woodland, knowing that Cain will struggle to get through them as quickly as I can.I dive into a hole in a tree, backing up as far as possible and holding my hand over my face to cover the sound of my breathing.His heavy footsteps get closer and I have to resist the urge to giggle as he stomps past my hideout."Come out, come out wherever you are." He taunts, stopping to listen for any noise. Suddenly, I feel two hands grab me under the arms and lift me through the roots above me."I found you, little red." He grins, his eyes twinkling with amusement."Oh, Mr big bad wolf, what sharp teeth you have." The ring on my left hand sparkles in the fading light as I use my thumb to expose his beautiful white teeth."Mmmm, all the better to eat you." He smirks, tugging me close and whispering in my ear. "Let me demonstrate before the woodsmen ruins our fun."His lips mee