I planned a surprise visit to Ariella's apartment today. Over the last few weeks, I've been extremely occupied with a range of tasks. And my business does not revolve solely around black markets and lawful ventures. A significant portion of my attention was devoted to strategizing and ensuring Marga's capacity to execute her job accurately. To say that I was startled by Matt's ability to switch off his desires is an understatement. If it weren't for the fact that he's Ari's fiancé, I'm positive I'd be impressed with him. He was able to disregard all of Marga's advances, forcing me to contemplate alternative options. I figured he must genuinely care about Ari, huh? This merely suggests that I'd have to improve my game. I can't seem to find a way to remove him from the picture. It's as if every time I come up with a brilliant scheme, it either backfires on me or the asshole comes up with a bigger and better strategy to derail my plans. And I'm a tad irritated. How much luckier can he g

I'm not sure what happened to me. I'm not sure why I suddenly felt compelled to kiss Elliot. But I just did and I gave it my all. I attempted to restrain myself, but the moment I looked into his blue eyes and saw those lips, I knew I was doomed. I was too engrossed in the sensation to notice that I had lost my sense of cognition. I've experienced it. And it's impossible for me to deny it. I've sensed the connection. It was even better than the connection I have with Matt when we kiss. The emotions I felt during those kisses were unreal. Something that can only be described in books by writers. However, it was all true. Does this imply that he has feelings for me as well? Is it reasonable to presume that his feelings for me extend beyond friendship? I am so confused that I'm not sure how to deal with him right now. How could I when I acted like a slut? My goodness, Ari! You were the one who initiated the kiss with Elliot. And to even think that you're engaged already! What the hell is

Recently, I've been depressed quite a bit. Matt's phone calls and messages have been dwindling with each passing day. I can't stop thinking about what I heard that night during our last conversation. I am sure that I heard a woman's voice, but I don't want to cast any doubt on Matt. I know I shouldn't. After all, it's me who's been enjoying Elliot's frequent kisses these past several days. Since that day, Elliot and I have been sneaking kisses at each other whenever we get the chance. And I can't stop thinking about Ethan's words from the night we ate supper together. What transpired during that conversation is still fresh in my mind. "So, Elliot, your best friend has spent the entire day with you? Is Matt aware of this?" he inquired, inquisitively. Elliot had already departed before Ethan arrived for our supper, which I appreciated. I don't want Ethan to see him and say things he shouldn't say to him. "It's not a huge issue, Ethan." I answered. "As I've already stated, Elliot and I

I have no idea what occurred or how it happened, but the next thing I knew, I was driving myself to Ari's place. I got the chills when I heard her declare she actually hates Matt. That's it! This is the exact moment I've been looking forward to. The moment she realizes her fiancé is nothing more than a douche. This is also the ideal time for me to feature Elliot Allister, the adoring, devoted, and passionate lover she could ever have. I could sense my victory as soon as I hung up the phone and told her I'd meet her at her apartment. Kyle is irritated at me once again for leaving him with the majority of the day's work, but what can he do? Nothing! I'm the fucking boss, after all! I didn't even wait for my fucking driver because I was so desperate to see Ari that I drove myself. As I headed to Ari, a few of my men were following me. I can't go anywhere without my bodyguards, especially taking into account how perilous the life I'm leading is. One of the men approached me as soon as

I'm not sure if I made the right decision. I'm not sure if I acted unreasonably again by not bothering to listen to Matt's explanation. I'm just completely messed up because he keeps lying to me. He says he loves me all the time, but does he truly mean every word of it? My phone notified me of an impending message. And it was Matt, as I had predicted, who had sent me a message. "I love you, Ari. Let's have a conversation about all of this. I have no idea what has happened and I'm not sure what you're getting at when you call me out like that. You know, I'd never do anything to purposely hurt you. Please talk to me if you have any issues with something I did. Let me understand all of this because I am completely lost. Ariella, let's figure this out together. You're aware of how much I love you and the fact that you're breaking up with me is killing me." When I read the message, a tear welled up in my eye. I'm befuddled and aching. Should I have given him an opportunity to explain him