KABANATA 9 His hugs are my tranquility. Ang rupok mo talaga Clea at ngayon lunod na lunod ka na naman sa yakap ng asawa mo. How can I possibly stop liking and loving the warmth of him? The pain that I nurtured eventually vanish like a bubble into air at ngayon gustong-gusto ko na muli ang yakap at mumunting halik niyang binibigay sa buhok ko. "Let's eat. Hmm?" Bumalik ang tingin niya sa mga mata ko at ngumiti. His blue mesmerizing eyes, pointed nose, thick brows and his shaped face with his chiseled jaw are one of the many reasons why I can't seem to swim back because everytime I stare at his hues eyes made me drown even more. His ocean like eyes are my greatest weakness. Isang titig niya lang nakikita ko na naman ang sarili kung mas minamahal ang asul na karagatan kahit gaano kalakas ang mga alon at hindi ko alam kung saan ako tatangayin nito. Hinalikan niya muli ako at ngumiti. "Let's eat at ng maka-alis na tayo sa ospital na ito." We eat in silence but by how calm our bre

Kabanata 9.2 Naiinis ako kay Cleo. Ang dami-dami niyang alam! Hindi ko naman siya tinatanong! I hate it when he knew things, the truth and sometimes I really hate how the truth affect me. Iniwan ko siya sa labas at mabilis na naglakad papasok ng hotel. Nawala tuloy ako sa mood. I walk through our room frustrated and hurt. My brother just ruined my night! He's really capable of ruining things! Gad. Pumasok ako sa kwarto, bewildered as to why it is not locked inside. Miguel doesn't want our door open, it might be in the house or any other rooms we are staying in. Someone could have entered without any of us knowing kaya nagtataka akong pumasok sa loob. I'm sure Miguel is inside because I see his sleeper on the side of the doorway. Naiiling kung pinuntahan ang kwartong tinutulugan namin pero ni ano ng asawa ko ay wala naman. The bed doesn't even ruffled, someone hasn't mess it up with yet. Hindi pa nagulo ang mga unan and I know hindi pa napunta si Miguel rito. My heart is palpitati

KABANATA 11 Days passed like a blur, but my heart.. it is still breaking day by day, slowly. The happiness has long gone, forgotten as loneliness visit me again. I look at the sultry ocean as the strokes of the waves touch my feet soothingly. The ocean is still blue, just like my feelings, I'm in a deep shit blue. Funny as how my favorite color and feelings differ. I hug my shoulder firmly as the sun burn my entire body, a brand new day to get hurt. Again and again. I'm Cleopatra Montaverde a graduate in law, beautiful but broke at isang asawa na paulit-ulit lang namang niloloko at ginagawang tanga harap-harapan. I don't want to pity for the things that already happened at kahit lumuhod at umiyak pa ako ng dugo sa harapan ni Miguel ay kailanman hindi niya ako mamahalin katulad ng dati. If only I saw how things would go in our marriage life I hope I'm ready to face traversity in our lives, masakit iyong ikaw ang pinangakuan ng habang-buhay na pagmamahal ngunit sakit lang naman ang

Kabanata 13/revised I moaned as he continue to devour my lips. Gumalaw ang kanyang mga kamay papunta sa aking dibdib. Mabilis niyang hinawakan ang dalawa kung bundok kaya napaliyad ako sa sensasyong dulot n'yon. "A-ahh" His kisses went down in my neck as he get an easy access when I tilted my head. He massaged my breast firmly making me gasp as pain and pleasure take control in my whole body. Pinakawalan niya ang aking dibdib as he draw circles in my tummy making me gasp in so much sensation. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagpintig ng aking kaibuturan. Ang aking halinghing ay kumakawala sa'king bibig na parang musika sa kan'yang pandinig at mas lalo pang inilakbay ang kanyang labi papunta sa'king dibdib. His mouth take control in my breast as he suck them like an ice cream, a hungry child for his mother's milk. "Mi-guel" I moaned when his hands traveled beneath my undergarments. Ang kaninang kamay na nasa sa'king puson at naglalaro ngayon ay dumapo na sa'king perlas. He cupped my w

KABANATA 14—REVISED "Ma'am Clea. Ma'am Clea!" Habol sa'kin ni mang Lucio pero hindi ko siya ni lingon. My heart is aching with my action. "Ma'am Clea… bakit po gano'n, bakit po kung kailan nakalimutan na namin ang sakit 'tsaka naman namin malalaman ang lahat ng ito? Buong buhay ni tatay nasa bukid lang umiikot tapos mawawala nalang 'yun dahil sakanya—nawalan kami ng kabuhayan dahil sa kanya! Hindi ako nakapag-aral kasi wala na kaming hanapbuhay! Tapos ngayon makakalabas siya, para ano pa! Putang ina niyo!" Sigaw ni Millicent sa likuran ko pero kitang-kita ko kung paano sila hatakin ng mga bodyguard ni Miguel palayo sa'min. My heart is crying for them but I still don't know what to do— I know what to do but I choose to be mum because I love him. Kilala ko sila isa-isa dahil kasama ko sila sa loob ng maraming taon. They were our workers in the hacienda and at that time my heart fell for them with utmost respect. "You don't need to feel sad about them, love. The important thing is w