Semua Bab Teach Me : Bab 31 - Bab 40

"John, I can't..." I whispered after John started kissing my neck so sexy and passionately I almost fell down. My knees were like jelly and my heart was beating very loud."You want this..." He whispered back, making me even weaker. There's something hot and irresistible when a man has that deep, husky and sexy voice when they whisper. No one could stay cold to that!"John..." I moaned and pressed his head stronger on my chest. I didn't want this to stop, but I know I had to!"I want you Jessica." John stopped kissing me as he looked me straight into my eyes. I moaned as I closed my eyes. I sighed deeply and opened them. He was still looking at me with desire, with a fire in his eyes, so bright I never saw this before.Mike.I am with Mike, I can't do this, no!I am not that kind of girl!"I want you too..." I said barely audible as I closed my eyes again."Mike." John said backing off. My whole body was ea

"I missed you..." I said to myself as I was driving the streets of Detroit. Mike was right. Detroit is empty, City of ghosts. Only ruins remained. My memories started going up when I was driving by 12th street, where my favorite bookstore was, but now? There's nothing. Now there's some Rosa Park Boulevard. After that, my eyes started filling up as I turned for 8 mile road. My home.I was thinking... Will people there know me? Will they remember that small blonde who was always playing outside her house with a soccer ball? Or they remember me as a little hooligan who was running the streets with a few black friends and some punks from Salem's lot? Maybe they don't remember me at all. Who knows?"Hell-o?" My voice trembled as I answered my phone. I cough and repeated again. "Hello?""Jess? Are you ok?" Hannah sounded worried."I'm fine just... You know... I haven't been here for so long... Everything is different..." I said with tears in my eye

"Hello?" I said weakly as my phone rang.Just to make things clear, John said he loves me. He wants me to admit I love him back.But what should I say?On the one side, John was my first love, my first everything. I gave him all I had. He was my entire life. But he ruined all that with his cheating. Above all that, I had a best time with him. We were perfect together. From kinder garden, throughout high school, until college, we had just one fight. And that was because of that waitress he hooked up with. I couldn't convince myself to move on, to stop loving him.Mike on the other hand, in this year since we are together, he lied to me so many times! Those lies were huge! If I knew he was married, I wouldn't start with him, not in a million years! I can't lie, Mike is the type of a guy every girl would kill to have. Classy, macho, gentleman, smart, sexy, you would be taken care of for the rest of your life, and he has everything. I love t

“John?” I said weakly as I woke up.I can't remember anything. How did I get here? Where the hell is Mike and why is John here? Does Hannah know I am here? “I am here baby.” John said weakly, hugging me tightly. I got dizzy and weak, but I didn't want to break this hug. I hate to admit this, but I do have feelings for him.“John…” I wanted to ask him something.“I don't know where Mike is and I already called Hannah.” John said getting a little upset in mention of Mike. We broke our hug and I lay down again, sadly.“I wanted to ask you something else.” I said nervously. He looked at me and my body froze. His face looks so wounded, all covered up in bandages and strapping.“You know you can ask me everything.” John said calmly.“Why are you here?” I asked nervously. “You know…” He said looking away. I tried to catch his eyes but he kept looking away. I sighed deeply and I closed my eyes.“You love me.” I said barely audible after few moment

Two weeks passed since Mike and I broke up. It's been hard but I made through few Latin classes without crying inside.John and I didn't talk since that day he drove me home from Detroit. Maybe he don't miss me at all…It is Sunday morning and I am laying on my bed, thinking about my daddy's offer. Thinking about how will Hannah accept it and react.Oh, I will miss her...                       *Flashback*“Baby girl?” I heard a familiar voice calling me from the hall.“I'm in the room, daddy!” I yelled back, lifting myself from the bed. I was still recovering from Mike's words. After he left, I was still crying until I realized it is meant to be this way. We would never work out; we were from too different world.I know, if this is some movie, we would live happily ever after, regardless of our age difference, his ex wife, child and his behavior. But this is real world. Were you can experience real conseq