Ashton POV Pups. She wanted to get away from me so badly that she was willing to give up her ability to have pups! I had to use the Alpha tone, I couldn’t have anyone coming back and trying to talk to me about it. I couldn't have HER try and talk to me about it in the future. I worded it very carefully, and I hope no one figures out the very obvious loophole! They couldn’t talk about what went on in that particular room, with anyone who did not already know what was going on, or themselves. Since they don’t really know who all knows, it will be difficult to talk about it with anyone. But that means that Alaina could talk to Cal, since he wasn’t in the library and, already knows most of what has gone on. As the council rules over prophecies, they can still talk about any other part of it, I just hope they take what I said at face value, and don’t go investigating. Last thing I really want is for them to call Sade’s and start questioning her. I know that she will say whatever she needs

September 2003Ashton POVI am flying into Montreal, so that I can head to Blue River pack and start setting up their security. This trip has been weighing on my mind since I made the agreement with Alpha Johnson. It’s always nerve wracking going to another Alpha’s territory, at least for me it is, but to go there to do a job, means that I have to really mind my P’s and Q’s and make sure nothing goes sideways. When I land there’s, a car waiting to take me up to the pack house. It should take about an hour and a half to two hours, give or take, which isn’t too bad. It seems like most of the packs stay about that far from humans. While this is the ‘St. Bruno’ pack they are actually closer to Mont-Tremblant Park. They run the hotel and casino in the area, and to get to their pack house you have to go up one of the hiking trails. I watch as we drive past fields, an apple orchard, and several shopping malls. The area in genera

December 2003 Ashton POV Over the last few months, I have been struggling a lot. I’m not sure what's worse, the, almost, 100 times between October and November that they were together or the number of moments that she was miserable. I counted 85 times that it came through the bond. I’m positive there were several entire days where I felt nothing but despair! I talk to Austin about it, and there is absolutely no sympathy or empathy there. All I get is various forms of ‘you’re a dumbarse and serves you right’. I am starting to really question my choices, I didn’t walk away for her to be miserable. I hope that it’s not because of the bond, well I wish it wasn’t at all, but my two biggest hopes are that it’s not because of me, and that it's not because of Fin. What worried me even more was the number of times she was genuinely terrified. How? Why? When I talk to Cal each week I ask him and he always says the same thing. “Sorry Ash, I have no idea.” Callum has been calli

February 2004 Ashton POV *Rogues, north east border line.* Shiiiiit, not something I want to deal with today. 'Jan, buddy, I need you right now.' I have to push on the block harder than I ever have before, but I can feel the block coming down, but it's like it only goes down part ways. 'Yeah man, let's get going then.' 'At the risk of sounding sappy, I’ve kinda missed you!' 'Shut up and let's get the rogues dealt with, then you can go back to your feelings corner.' 'Whoa, Janus, I know things have been rough but come on!' And we shift, IN MY OFFICE, 'Not cool man, you just destroyed my desk! We need to have a talk about this!' But he stops talking to me all together. The rogues have been attacking more frequently the last little bit. We get a good heads up, thanks to how our security is set up but they are still attacking more routinely than normal. Once the rogues are dealt with, I go back to my office and start making calls

May 2004 Ashton POV She turns 19 this year. She is always on my mind. I dream of her at night, and sometimes I don’t think they are dreams! They are too vivid, almost lucid, and occasionally it's like she really looking at me. Wishful thinking, I know. Cal still calls weekly, but things have been shifting over the past few months, like he is getting more and more angry with her. When I try to talk to Cal about it, he shuts me down. Nothing that he has told me would make me think that he would have an issue over, and above, the mate thing. I know he’s PISSED about that but at the same time he has never talked about her the way he is now. It seems as though maybe her behaviour has become erratic and he doesn’t know how to deal with her, I’m not sure I would do any better… actually… thinking about it, I would probably have lost my ever loving shat on her by now so I guess I have to give him credit there. I do worry about why, as in what is she doing to cause Cal, quiet, polite, respectf