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15 The Beginning of the LONG End
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Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 16 New Year's in Scotland 2003
December 2003 Ashton POV Over the last few months, I have been struggling a lot. Iโm not sure what's worse, the, almost, 100 times between October and November that they were together or the number of moments that she was miserable. I counted 85 times that it came through the bond. Iโm positive there were several entire days where I felt nothing but despair! I talk to Austin about it, and there is absolutely no sympathy or empathy there. All I get is various forms of โyouโre a dumbarse and serves you rightโ. I am starting to really question my choices, I didnโt walk away for her to be miserable. I hope that itโs not because of the bond, well I wish it wasnโt at all, but my two biggest hopes are that itโs not because of me, and that it's not because of Fin. What worried me even more was the number of times she was genuinely terrified. How? Why? When I talk to Cal each week I ask him and he always says the same thing. โSorry Ash, I have no idea.โ Callum has been calli
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-22Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 17 Auld Lang Syne... and Fin?
December 2003 Alaina POV I havenโt really been feeling myself since getting back from Spain. Itโs nothing specific, but I just feel off, that feeling that something isnโt right but you canโt pinpoint it. Itโs been a major source of anxiety and sleep loss so my friends, mainly Siobhan and Wesley, have been doing everything they can to get me out of my head and back into socializing with people. Fin and my best friend, Lochlynn, have been MIA for a while. They disappear for hours at a time, presumably together otherwise its quite the coincidence, and a couple entire weekends. I donโt know if that might be part of my odd feeling, or if itโs something else, I DO, know that its no making it any better! New Yearโs Siobhan decided that she was going to surprise me with going out to karaoke, which was a lot of funโฆ for a while at least. Sisi and I decided that we would do a song together, and thatโs when things started to go downhill. We decided to take turns singing each bit as it come ont
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-23Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 18 Saboteur... and Gray
February 2004 Ashton POV *Rogues, north east border line.* Shiiiiit, not something I want to deal with today. 'Jan, buddy, I need you right now.' I have to push on the block harder than I ever have before, but I can feel the block coming down, but it's like it only goes down part ways. 'Yeah man, let's get going then.' 'At the risk of sounding sappy, Iโve kinda missed you!' 'Shut up and let's get the rogues dealt with, then you can go back to your feelings corner.' 'Whoa, Janus, I know things have been rough but come on!' And we shift, IN MY OFFICE, 'Not cool man, you just destroyed my desk! We need to have a talk about this!' But he stops talking to me all together. The rogues have been attacking more frequently the last little bit. We get a good heads up, thanks to how our security is set up but they are still attacking more routinely than normal. Once the rogues are dealt with, I go back to my office and start making calls
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-24Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 19 Fin's Colours
February 2004Alaina POVI keep getting these random, very fleeting, emotions, as of late its anger, self-loathing, and the feeling of not being in control. Near the beginning of the month, I had a couple seconds of intense inexplicable pain. Had I not known better I would have thought I was in the middle of a battle! When I tried to talk to Cal about it, he pretty much just shrugged and walked away. I’m pretty sure he mumbled something along the lines of ‘that’s what you get for facking with the Moon Goddess’. Cal has been getting increasingly more agitated with me, very little patience when it comes to anything to do with me!With that said I have to admit, I have been getting into more and more trouble. Some of it my idea, but in reality, most of it is Fins suggestions, so I guess I can sort of see a reason for him to be short with me. The well last fall was Fin, I just took the fall for it. I was able to play it off as a safety issue,
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-25Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 20 Not Her Father?
May 2004 Ashton POV She turns 19 this year. She is always on my mind. I dream of her at night, and sometimes I donโt think they are dreams! They are too vivid, almost lucid, and occasionally it's like she really looking at me. Wishful thinking, I know. Cal still calls weekly, but things have been shifting over the past few months, like he is getting more and more angry with her. When I try to talk to Cal about it, he shuts me down. Nothing that he has told me would make me think that he would have an issue over, and above, the mate thing. I know heโs PISSED about that but at the same time he has never talked about her the way he is now. It seems as though maybe her behaviour has become erratic and he doesnโt know how to deal with her, Iโm not sure I would do any betterโฆ actuallyโฆ thinking about it, I would probably have lost my ever loving shat on her by now so I guess I have to give him credit there. I do worry about why, as in what is she doing to cause Cal, quiet, polite, respectf
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-26Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 21 Close Call
Alaina POV Iโm pretty sure Iโm losing my mind! Every couple of days I see Ash. It's usually when I am extremely sad, and seeing him, for the brief moments, has started to bring me some comfort and solace. I have been thinking about my life, how did I end up here? When I left for Spain Fin was amazing, he was THE perfect guy, when I got back, I told him about Ash. I told him we rejected each other, and he seemed so happy. He said that he wanted to give me a little time before we mated and marked each other, and he wanted to give his mate a little extra time, to find him, before he rejected her too. I thought he was being sweet and respectful... but now we can go an entire day, or longer, and he won't call me back, won't come see me, avoids me like the plague. When he is around, or calls, all he wants to know is if I am ready for him to mark and mate me, UM NO! Especially not with how he has been behaving, he still wonโt even let me talk about leaving him. Unless I have somewhere else t
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-27Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 22 Black Moon NSW Australia
August 2004 Ashton POV Well Aric has fixed our coding issue. We also figured out that it was none other thaaaaan.... GRAY! I swear I will never be able to get rid of her at this point! So, Aric fixed it, put in security measures, and he has been retained by me to troubleshoot as needed. Helmut still hasnโt asked for his favour, not sure if that bodes well for me or not! I called Scott and filled him into what we found. โWild Rose, Savannah speaking, how may I help you?โ โHi Savannah, itโs Alpha Lupinโ โYes, Alpha, I will send you right through,โ โThank you, Savannah, I appreciate it!โ โASHTON!!! How goes?โ โNot as good as you sound.โ โUh oh... please tell me itโs not Gray.โ โUnfortunately...โ โOK, what happened now?โ I explained everything that we have, all the proof that would be needed for Scott to make an informed decision on what to do with her now.
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-28Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 23 Creepy Old Guy
Alaina POV โWhy can't I go this year?โ โAre you seriously asking me that Alaina? After last year? You STILL want to ask me that?! I will never be able to repair the damage that you caused with your little stunt!โ โWhat damage? And what โstuntโ? The whole me fighting for a little equality and wanting to show those misogynistic pricks that a woman is MORE than capable of taking on a man any day? Is THAT the stunt to which you are referring?โ โYes, Alaina, THAT is ONE of the stunts, and what damage? The council now has a personal vendetta against us. If they even THINK there is a reason to look at as they will, and they will turn over EVERY rock, leaf, and piece of dust to find anything they can charge us with! Did you think about that when you did all this? OR, how about when you attempted to fight Alpha Yu it could have caused a pack war?! How about the fact that now the council knows who you are, WHAT you are? You think that the
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2022-04-29
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Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 114 Here
Ash POV โIโm not sure that the use of the cameras, in the direction of where the actual tribe lives, is a good idea, what can we do to prevent that?โ I ask Dan as the phone rings. โHello?โ โAsh, โol buddy, โol pal.โ โUhhhโฆ yes?โ โShane, from Winslow pack in Dundurn.โ โOh, hey! I didnโt recognize your voice!โ โI need to know when everyone is being sent to Tsuut'ina pack so I can get some produce and meat shipped over.โ โOH!!! I still need to talk to the tribal chief, but I am working with my head of security to come up with a system that wont be overly invasive, and will be easily removed, before I call her.โ โOk, give me a call when youโve figured that out and we will get a couple truck sent out there.โ โThanks Shane!โ I barely hang up the phone before it rings again. โHello?โ โAshton, I have been waiting f
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 113 Can't Focus
Ash POV โWell, I guess we have some work to get done.โ Scott nods at me. I can see the repugnance on his face. Iโm not sure if itโs with himself, me, or the situation in general, but I have a feeling our friendship will never be the same. My relationship with all of the Alphas will have changed by the end of this. I donโt know if we should take up the kingship after dad steps down. I donโt know if I should be an Alpha anymore. โI know whatโs going through your head Ash,โ Scott says as he places his hand on my shoulder. โWe are still good. This is not your fault; youโve just been dealt a REALLY shit.ty hand!โ I nod, not fully believing him. I mean, yeah, the entire situation is completely, and totally, fu.cked up. Itโs been reiterated, I donโt know how many times now but, no one could have predicted this. Even if everyone took the โbedtime storyโ of Seleneโs reincarnation as truthโฆ no one could have thought that there would be someone this
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 112 The Alphas
Ash POV Within 25 hours of my call with dad we are all on Skype with the various Alphas, and royal families. There are a handful that had to do a phone call, due to fight issues, or their location not allowing them to get places fast enough, but the bulk of them have made it to this call. The Canadians have all amassed at Blue River, St. Bruno, as that was the best place for flights, with the exception of Scott and I, since that as.shole Kushim is currently in our vicinity and actively attacking. Scott did make his way down to my office, to try to eliminate the number of open windows in the chat as much as possible, but we both know he may need to leave in a rush. The pictures are small, but it will work. I notice that as each location speaks their picture lights up with a little ring around it. Well, that makes things a lot easier! โI have called you all to this meeting to talk about the rogue problem and the prophecy of a mad man.โ I watch a closely and everyone see
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 111 Broken to Plans
Ash POV I make a slow walk back to the pack house, with Clara draped in my arms, holding her tight. By the time I get back to town she has no colour left in her face, as hard as I try to keep her head to my chest it flops around as I walkAs I pass by pack members I can hear the gasps, see them cover their mouths in shock, and hear the murmurs about what could have happened. The tears fall down my face, and I donโt even try to hide them. The time of being โthe big tough Alphaโ is over. I canโt pretend like it didnโt happen, I canโt pretend like these things no longer affect me, the truthโฆ the truth is that this is breaking me. It started out slowly, and I donโt even know when it got to this point, but, if I am being honest with myself, I am becoming a broken man. I will always do everything I can to protect Alaina, I will do everything I can to protect my packโฆ all of the packsโฆ but I donโt know how much longer I can keep it together enough to do it effectively. I have made so many mi
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 110 The Confrontation
Ash POV Scott agreed to help call some of the Alphas, Cal and Alex have split a bunch amongst themselves and I got Yu andโฆ Kendrick. I sit at my desk, head in my hands, wondering just how I am going to do this. After Alaina took Kendrick down at the Alpha meeting a few years ago Iโm not sure he will be willing to help, at least not if its to help her, and Yuโฆ I never did get a read on how he took Alaina yelling at him. I DO know that if they are in the same room together she will likely want to beat the ever-loving sh.it out of him. Fu.ck, having a strong minded, out spoken, and full ofโฆ having Alaina as a mate is definitely challenging at the moment! Not many Alphas appreciate Lunas being like Alaina. They want a quiet, subservient, Luna that has no real mind of her own. Alaina caused a lot of waves in Spain and I donโt think anyone has forgotten. โThat being saidโฆ they do still want to be on the royal families good side!โ โGood pointโฆ I donโt know if t
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 109 Haoyu Yu
Ash POV Walking back into my office Alex, and Austin, are waiting, looking at a map sprawled out across my desk. โWhatโs going on?โ Alex looks up at me, then back to the map, before pointing to the eastern border. โThey came in from the East this time. Our patrols were able to get to them before they really got into the territory, but we werenโt expecting it.โ โWhatโs with the one that was caught?โ Alex gives a little chuckle, turning and, half sitting on my desk. โYeahโฆ โcaughtโโ He air quotes, chortling a little harder, with Cal and Austin quickly joining him. I raise an eyebrow and look at each of them waiting for someone to explain. โShe never shifted, the second she saw our warriors she kneeled, hands on top of her head, and didnโt move, or say anything, until after the fight was over. Whe-โ โHow was she not brought into the fight?โ โShe stayed back, a good thirty feet, whi
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 108 Sent
Ash POV I hold Alaina as she sleeps, and my mind wanders to her reaction to all of this. 'I donโt get it, why would she think we would be mad at her?' I can hear his pain, the same pain that I am feeling. 'I have no answer, man, no answer at all.' The door opens and the doctor sneaks in, giving me a slight nod before grabbing Alainaโs chart from the wall. He nods his head to the hallway, wanting to talk to me, but when I look at Alaina, seeing how peaceful she finally looks, I shake my head. He peers over my body to see her curled around me and nods in understanding. โIโm glad to see sheโs finally sleeping, without medication.โ I nod, in agreement, as he checks her vitals. โI have a question.โ I say, trying to keep my chest from vibrating against her head. He nods, and places her chart back on the wall, before coming next to the bed. โShe is beating herself up about losing the pups. Fuck she thought I would
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 107 He Will Leave
***TW Pregnancy loss and thoughts of self-harm. This one was hard for me to write, as I have had a miscarriage. That being saidโฆ Alainaโs side needs to be told. While everyoneโs thoughts, and experiences, are different, in tumultuous times, I pulled on parts of my own thoughts, and experiences, for this.*** Alaina POV โIโm sorry Luna, we are limited on optionsโฆโ โWe need to make a decisionโฆโ โWe donโt have much timeโฆโ โDo you want us to call Alpha lupin?...โ โLuna?...โ โDoctor sheโs not respondingโฆโ Thereโs a light flashed in my eyes, I can feel hands on my shoulders, laying me down, pretty sure thereโs an IV being placed. โAlaina, Iโm so sorry, I called Ash and heโs on his way here.โ I look up at him, and I can see the pity written across his face. โI understand how you feel Al-โ Bul.lshit he understands! I havenโt heard from Ty since the doctor gave us the news. That being said, I donโt know what either one of us would say to the other.
Selene's Chosen Queenย ย ย 106 4 to None?
As the stapler flies apart my phone starts ringing again and Dan quickly glances at the number on the screen then tosses it to me. Looking I see the number for Wild Rose flit across the screen. โScott?โ โIโm sorry Ash, I need you to get out here like yesterday.โ I start running out the door towards the garage. โWhat happened?โ โAlaina had an ultrasoundโฆโ His pause stops my heart, and my feet. โSCOTT!โ โIโm sorry Ashโฆ itโs the pups.โ I start running full tilt. โI donโt know much just that there is an issue and she might loose oneโฆ someโฆ I donโt know.โ โIโm going to run.โ I say as I toss my phone and shift mid step. 'We never should have left her there! She should have been with us!' 'Arguing about it now isnโt going to change anything, but we both know that, with what we knew it was the safest place.' 'And now?'
