All Chapters of Afraid to Love Again: Chapter 61 - Chapter 70
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CHAPTER SIXTY
SophiaBy the time I look up from my notebook, it’s almost six at night. I sit up in bed and worry my lower lip with my teeth as I look down at what I wrote to Jeremy. When dad brought me and Kel home from the hospital, my mom had already left for some grande photoshoot in Milan and I was still reeling from the sense of emptiness I’d felt when my world bottomed out. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t even sleep because every time I closed my eyes I saw Jeremy’s face. His aqua blue eyes that used to always soften when I needed a hug or smiled when he told me a joke. His face when he mouthed I love you, Squirt just before he was wheeled into surgery. Dad was at his lowest point, seeing both his daughters hurting and having no way of stopping the pain we were feeling. But then, he gave me this journal.“I know it’s not the same but if you write to him, tell him how you’re feeling and share with him, it might take some of this away. Just try, pumpkin. Please.”In that moment, sitting next to m
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CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
The sand warms my feet as Gavin leads me toward a small cliff just south of the lake below. I recognize the set in the land as where we had a picnic only weeks ago.“I love that you brought me here, Gavin. It feels like this is our beach, our spot away from everything and everyone,” I say, catching his hand in mine as we walk.Gavin looks down at me and he smiles gently.“Just ours, Sophia. I brought some food and that wine you love. I thought we could have a picnic before the sun sets.”I wrap my hands around the back of his neck and draw his mouth to mine for a light kiss.“I think that sounds wonderful.”I watch as Gavin sets a sky-blue blanket across the flattest spot along the ridged cliff and sets a basket down by his feet. Then, he reaches for my hand.“When did you prepare all this? We left so quickly,” I ask, sitting beside him and leaning back on my hands. He sets two plates of fettuccine Alfredo with basil and I gasp in surprise.“Oh, Gavin. You remembered.”I can still sme
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CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
His deep, concerned eyes are all I focus on as he tells me to breathe. In and out, one… two… three. By the third, I feel the panic ebb away from my mind and I close my eyes.“Would it make you feel better if we go somewhere tonight, baby? I don’t want you to ever be reminded of that man when you’re with me. Just tell me what you want to do and I’ll make it happen. Your safety and peace of mind is all I care about.”His voice is filled with concern and his own fear. I can’t stand to think that our time together will be haunted with the pain and loss I’ve endured at the hands of that man.Somewhere deep inside, one word comes to my mind. No. For so long I was afraid and unable to move on, to move forward in fear that I couldn’t overcome the abuse I’d suffered. But I am stronger. I am strong. Through dancing and my sister, my friends and the love Gavin has freely given me, I’ve built a life for myself and I won’t allow Bryce to take that away from me.“No. Gavin, take me inside. I know
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CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
Somehow, I wake easily from an untroubled sleep that feels as if I’ve slept a full twelve hours since the last time I woke last night. Out of habit and need, I reach out for Gavin’s warmth, but instead I hear his voice out on the terrace overlooking downtown Chicago. It has been one of my favorite parts of Gavin’s home. I never would have dreamed that I would feel so comforted here, but I do. My pleasant thoughts are interrupted when I hear the aggravation in my man’s voice.“I know the contract is huge, Carly. I know. But this is of priority. Cancel all of my meetings today and that is final.”He pauses, bracing both his hands on the banister in front of him. He flexes his neck side to side and I can tell he’s been on this call for longer than he’d like.“Thank you. I’m sorry to snap at you, I just need this done. OK, I will see you tomorrow.”As he lowers the phone from his ear, I wrap the sheets around my torso and shuffle my feet towards the open door of the terrace. Gavin lets
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CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
“Farah, you should have seen the girls there! All skinny blondes and no curves- made me even more nervous than I already was.”“You’ve got the talent. You just have to believe in yourself.”Well if that doesn’t sound familiar…“I know. I have to go, I’m meeting Kel in a bit.”She’s quiet for a moment and I’m not sure why.“OK, see you later.”I click off and open the glass doors to a small bakery and pastry shop called Hidden Sweets. There are several wooden tables set in the front when I walk in and I don’t see Kel or Lucas right away. The white marble counter top draws me deeper into the bakery and then I see Kel, her blonde hair wound up in a messy bun and Lucas pressing his nose in her neck as they stand with another girl behind the counter.“Hey.” I walk over and feel a surge of warmth seeing such love and affection between these two.I’m so happy for their happiness.“Hey! This is Jenna, she owns the bakery!” Kel practically bursts in excitement.I laugh and outreach my hand to
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CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
I lean against the door jam and listen while Gavin talks on the phone with his sister. Not that I’m eavesdropping, but the sweet affection in his voice melts my heart.“You sure about him, Cal? First he stands you up and now he’s moving? Is this boy even worth it?” He pauses to listen and in that moment I see the concern in his eyes that I hadn’t heard in his voice. He’s truly worried about Callie and this boy she’s seeing. I can’t say I blame him, but if he’s worth it to her, that’s what counts.“Yeah, I know he’s had a rough life. I promise, Cal.”His eyes flick up to mine then and the blue grays immediately fill with softness.I can tell his sister says something else and it makes him smile.“You too.”“You look beautiful.” Gavin murmurs when he reaches me, grabbing my waist to pull me into hisbody.“Thank you, I got it,” I whisper into his chest as he holds me. I feel his smile against my hair and before I know what he’s doing, I’m being spun around in a circle.“I knew you woul
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CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
“So?” Jenna asks as I just about devour the sampling of red velvet cheesecake she gave me. Kel sits next to me nibbling away at the lemon topped cupcake she had her sights on the very moment we set foot in here. I take another bite and fail at hiding my groan of satisfaction.“This is a definite yes. What about you Kel?” My sister bites her bottom lip and nods between bites of her second cupcake.“Um, I’m not sure…”I throw Jenna a wink and finish off the cheesecake frosting on my favorite treat yet.“Awesome! Two down, three to go.”She pushes a tray of assorted cupcakes in front of us and I see Vanilla- Oreo, Apple- Crust, and Boston Creme topped cakes that are begging for me to devour them. God, give me strength. Any more sweets in my body will not be a good thing. We’ve only been here an hour and my belly is already full.I throw my torso down on the love seat we are sitting on in the closed bakery and hide my face in one hand. Giggling, I shake my head when Kel nudges my hand w
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CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
He hangs up and I take a deep breath, not being able to look away from the seemingly new arrangement sitting three feet away from me. They couldn't have left them more than an hour or so ago.While I wait, I try to wrangle all my inner strength by keeping all my thoughts on Gavin. His eyes, which are always so expressive. His mouth, oh, he's made me feel so good with his mouth, his lips, and his tongue. Then his hands, I've never been touched the way Gavin touches me. Whether it's the way he cups my cheeks, holds my hands in his or makes such tender love to me. With just one touch, I'm breathless. He's conveyed his desire, his need and more than anything, his love for me through his touch. I thought I'd loved a man before, but now, as I curl my fingers across my legs and close my eyes, I know that these feelings are completely new and oh so amazing with Gavin.After a few more minutes, I suck in a breath and get up off the banister and lean against it. I gasp in shock when I see a p
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CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
He almost broke me before and as I lean against Gavin's shoulder and let him lead me into the penthouse, I pray that I'm strong enough to handle the idea of seeing that man again."Baby, are you hungry? I can make us some lunch and you can go lay down for a while."His hands settle on the sides of my face as he tilts my eyes up to his with one finger under my chin. I lean into his warmth, needing the support in my frazzled state. My legs feel like jelly and the fear is still dully shaking within my body."Will you lay down with me? We can eat in a few hours." My voice is shaky and I know he can hear it. His eyes are soft and loving as he takes my hand, lifts it to his lips and wraps his arm around my waist."Of course”Once Gavin lays me down on the bed, my head is rested on two pillows and the comforter beneath me, he wraps both his arms around me and pulls me into his warm body. His warmth is welcome and calming. I close my eyes and focus on breathing in and out as my body succumb
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CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
I lean forward, seeking and finding his lips with my own and immediately, slip my tongue along his. The minty flavor of his mouth and the scent of him drive me to him. I kiss him deeply then catch his lower lip between my teeth and tug gently. He groans against my mouth, tasting me eagerly. I feel the pads of his thumbs open my center to him just before the exquisite feeling of Gavin pushing full inside me. I moan in relief at the full feeling, my head falling back in complete awe as pleasure rocks through me."Oh, God!”Before I know it, he flips us and hovers over me, pulling out of me and pushing into me deeper than ever. Gavin moves, really moves creating a rhythm as I clutch onto his biceps and meet him in time, rocking into his warmth and strength to center me as my mouth opens to his. When he sucks my bottom lip into his mouth and tugs teasingly, hitting that perfect spot inside me, I scream out his name in need. I'm climbing, waves of such intense pleasure coursing throug
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