I was worried that Kevin would see through my cunning ruse, but I was equally worried that he wouldn't.I hope that in his mind, I will always be a good person, deserving of understanding and affection. I also hope that he recognizes my nasty character and continues to treat me as such.For a long time, I was conflicted, but I decided to keep the lie hidden for the time being.I didn't feel sorry for Alvin. Sometimes too much love can lead to severe hatred, but mine didn't.I simply lost interest in him. I don't care what happens to Alvin. I simply want to be happy.I wasn't sure Kevin would accept me for who I was.It's only that I went too far this time, and I exact my vengeance.Stopping my medicine abruptly resulted in the destruction of Kevin's months of hard work, and I became far more shattered than before. I might have died if Alvin had kept me in his custody for a few more days.The weather was pleasant. Kevin hung a chair in the courtyard that was large enough for two indivi

Facing the tombstone, I instantly realized that my entire life's pain and happiness were unimportant.In the face of death, everything is a particle of dust.Those who have achieved peace should no longer be troubled by worldly occurrences."Thank you," I said to Kevin after a lengthy period of silence."Jill. Love and family may have let you down, but remember that you were born out of love in the beginning," he murmured quietly.Love... Will someone care about me?Mother may have temporarily loved me, or perhaps he loved that man and his child. It didn't matter who the child was.Alvin had never loved me before. He may think he loves me now, but his love is based on custom and jealousy.Kevin...I was aware of it. He didn't have any reason to love me.When I think about it, I've spent my entire life as a failure.Looking downcast, I inquired, "The graveyard next to it appears to be vacant. Can I get it?"For a little while, Kevin was distracted and inquired, "Would you would like to

I was uncomfortable delving into other people's family matters, and I had so many questions in my head that I didn't know where to begin."Sorry for having you experience this kind of stuff again," Kevin muttered seriously as we sat in the Japanese restaurant and locked the door to our room."No, I'm sorry as well."I'm not sure what Alvin and Kevin did to enrage an elderly man, but based on what they were saying, it had something to do with it."Do you...have anything you'd like to ask?" He inquired.I shook my head and nodded. I had so many questions I wanted to ask, but by the time they were on the tip of my tongue, none of them seemed particularly significant."Will you be in trouble for what occurred today?" I finally inquired.Kevin did not say yes or no, but rather, "I can handle it."That would be a yes. I was downcast.I'm always causing him problems.But I couldn't keep my emotions from him."Don't hold it against yourself," he said. "Even without you, it would happen sooner

It took a few days for me to figure out what he meant by "okay."As usual, we went for a walk after dinner. Kevin had specifically requested that a coat be brought. I assumed it was to avoid the cold, but I didn't anticipate him to accompany me to the summit of the mountain, which took more than an hour due to our frequent breaks.I walked for less than 30 minutes on my own before he lifted me up behind his back.There was an unoccupied balcony at the top of the mountain where a telescope and tent had been set up ahead of time, and I had a notion of what he was up to.The tent was large, carpeted for comfort, and stocked with basic essentials.Kevin requested that I take a break. He built a fire outside and torched a saucepan of boiling water.I assumed he was well-cared for and never touched dirt or creek water. I wasn't expecting him to be so swift at his work and have such a calm and leisurely demeanour that simply watching him construct a fire was a pleasure.It was already gettin

On the phone screen, I noticed Alvin's number.I hesitated before getting up, going to the window, and picking up the phone.I'm not going to run away any longer."Hello."There was no immediate response, and all that could be heard were rapid breaths as if he didn't trust the call would be answered.Finally, I heard Alvin's voice. "Happy Birthday, Jill."If I recall correctly, that was the first time he wished me a happy birthday. It was hilarious because he never said it in all the years I had known him.But now that I'm gone, he said it.On the same day last year, I arranged a feast at home. He invited me to the workplace before I finished, where he slammed me against the window and did me several times after signing the contract.I wasn't an exhibitionist, and I was nervous taking it there, but he couldn't care less. He simply behaved out and spewed on me, as if I were a hole.The alcohol's effect was enormously enhanced in the dark. It would be a lie to suggest that I was uninter