I have never known what happiness was until now. Phoenix has wanted me to shift to go for a run. I just don't know how, as she tries to help but nothing works. Phoenix says that I won't shift on my own until I want it. I feel that I want it, but I guess it's not enough.Axel has been so wonderful, he makes me go crazy. I try so hard to resist him, but it is so hard to stay away. He doesn't want to leave this place. The fear of him losing me is too great. Especially when I'm unable to shift just yet. But I can't help but think about my father and wonder if he is ok. I know things have been odd between my father and me. But a part of me still wants to get to know more about him. The mate bond is strong, but I can't let it control the choices I make. I need to make sure that my father is okay. So, I need to tell Axel that it is time to go find him.I don't want to upset Axel, but I need to be honest with him. He needs to know how I'm feeling. I don't ever want to blame him for anything.

I barely got any rest, I was too nervous to fall into a deep sleep, scared that something would happen to Axel while I was asleep. I know that I need the rest, but it's impossible. Last night things were so quiet, and it made me more nervous than ever.Usually, the nights are full of screams and cries. I'm not sure what is happening, it's just too quiet, but I know that we need to get moving. Just in case something bad is about to take place. My entire body is hurting, but there is no time to rest any longer. I need to get out of this tree. I go to crawl down the tree, but my foot slips. My body slams against the tree as the bark tears through my flesh. I try to catch myself, but all the branches I grab a hold of break. Knowing I'm not going to be able to stop myself from falling out of the tree. I just hope that I don't break anything. I just close my eyes at this point and wait for the ground.I try not to tense and prepare for pain, but instead of feeling pain I feel strong arms w

I have been running for days and I couldn't feel any better than what I do right now. I am so full of energy, not understanding why Because I have not rested. I have passed people but have not stopped trying to get as far away as I possibly can. I move so fast that they don't even notice that I am around. Which I find amusing.As I got further away, my surroundings became nicer. Where Zealand ruled, there was so much suffering, all you felt was dread. That is why I can understand why the humans attacked the wolves, they were so cruel to the humans. I want to find a place where everyone is equal.Phoenix has been quiet since we left our mates. I can feel her heartbreak. I just hope she forgives me, but it was what needed to be done. I would do it again. I have no regrets about leaving. This is what we needed to do to be free. I know that she knows we did what we had to do.I start to slow down as I see something so beautiful. I shift back to my human and I walk to the glimpse of light