Gianni Summers Waking up to Elijah cooing and EJ making baby sounds I smile and turn over to face my boys. Elijah is leaning over EJ making faces and talking to our son. They just looked so adorable, my heart beat races watching this side of Elijah that he shows only to me and our son. I truly do love this man. And our son? He is the most adorable baby I've ever seen. He is now two months old. I get really emotional thinking about how quick he's growing and how time flies.It is now Christmas season and I'm so happy to have a family to now celebrate and share this joyous month with. Snapping a picture of the two as discreetly as I can, just as Elijah makes EJ smile. I smile at the perfect picture of my two favorite boys. Clearing my throat making Elijah's head snap to mine and smile. "Good morning bambina, how did you sleep love?" Biting my lip, "Good morning my adorable duo, mommy slept very well, thank you" I smile at them.Getting up from bed, I go to them and peck them quic

Gianni Summers Christmas has come and gone, and so has new years. Half of both those days my son was with his father's family and the other half with Sophs family and I. Honestly it was the hardest thing to do. Shit just reminded me of why I first wanted to meet the right guy, get married and then have his babies for this exact reason. My children having to spend their special days with their parents separately. I'm living with Soph and Jacob while I look for an apartment. I need to hurry up though because my crying and depressing state just dampened their holiday cheer and everytime they mention his name I burst into tears. God why does this shit hurt like this. I keep replaying the scene over and over in my head and cry. Keep replaying our favorite memories of us, reading our old text messages, looking at our pictures together. It all just hurts so bad. Elijah doesn't make it any easier when he bangs on my door and begs for me to hear him out every second day when he picks EJ u

Warning!!!Graphic scenes, mature content, abuse and sexual harrassment. Gianni Summers It's Saturday and guess what I'm doing? Lying in bed staring at my ceiling once again. It's safe to say I look like the actual dead. Eyes dark and sunken in, lost weight too.I haven't been eating, unless Soph forces it down my throat, I haven't been sleeping either. The only time I'm not a complete zombie is when EJ is in my arms. Elijahs parents are in town so EJ is spending the day with them. Sophia got mad when I stubbornly refused to eat this morning.It's not like I want to be this way, the mere sight of food has my stomach turning and not in a good way. She also forced me to take sleeping pills to help me sleep. I tried it I really did but it made me feel like absolute shit and the next day I couldn't properly care for my son so it's a absolute no no.Why can't she just understand that I can't? She acts as if I want to be this way, feel like this as if I want to intentionally starve and d

Gianni Summers Things have gone back to normal, well as normal as things can get with Elijah now living in my apartment with no intention of leaving.Jo drives me to and from work and Elijah cooks every night. It's only been a week but it feels like Elijah and I never took time apart like this living situation has always been like this. Im scared at how quickly I'm trusting him and letting him in again. Stupid heart I know. Thing is he helped me in just one week back to my normal self. Something Soph nor me could do in two weeks. I have to admit he has skills, atleast when it comes to controlling me and my emotions. He also has some shady family and lets just say after I heard Elijah making some calls to his uncles and throwing Jason's name in the call there was breaking news about Jason Collins sole heir to the Collins empire was in a fatal car accident leaving him fighting for his life, whether he survives or dies he is definitely paralyzed from the waist down for life. Caught E

Gianni Summers "Gianni darling, you have a guest" Mrs Riley shouts from somewhere in the house. My heart races at the thought of Elijah being down there."A guest mother ? Really in my own home?" Soph shouts back nearing the room I'm staying in. My heart settles but at the same time I feel slightly disappointed that it isn't him. Stupid heart. "You don't stay here honey, you are a guest. Your home is wherever Jacob is and I assure you it's not here" Mr Riley shouts from somewhere making me giggle.Soph steps into the room rolling her eyes and holding my baby boy. "There's your momma you little bugger, Gigi I'm just dropping him. I'm going to stop at your place and grab a few things alright , I'll be back later" she says handing my son over to me then disappearing quickly. Wait. That was so suspicious. She didn't even want to talk about it and thats awfully suspicious since she is absolutely nosey. I have a feeling she's going to go kick some Italian tattooed guy's ass. Ohh well. "