Semua Bab My Always, My Forever: Bab 211 - Bab 220

I felt my body growing cold and beginning to hyperventilate, but I tried to keep myself calm, not wanting anyone, especially Damian to know. I couldn't let Damian encounter him here, he will most definitely make a scene, which I didn't want to happen. I didn't want to embarrass Rai’s parents and Damian. “Baby girl, are you okay? You haven't touched your food yet, and you look pale,” suddenly I heard Damian’s voice asking me. “I’m..” My voice came out croaked, so I had to clear my throat before continuing, “I’m fine, Damian. Maybe there are just too many people here, I feel stuffy.” “Do you want to go out to get some fresh air now? I’ll accompany you,” he said as he looked at me with concern. “I think I need a little bit of fresh air, but you don't have to accompany me,” I told him. “Baby girl, I won't allow you to go out alone,” he said with a resolution in his voice. “Damian, you are one of the important person

The one word that I had always said to myself that I wasn't, the one word that made me insecure, and the one man I thought wouldn't ever think and feel that way about me actually said it: disgusting. I felt a funny feeling inside me, and instead of feeling angered or saddened, I felt ridiculous that I ended up laughing out loud. How ridiculous was it for me to pretend and think that I wasn't dirty and disgusting after being gang-raped? It was better for me just to own it. Yeah.. I’m a disgusting woman. I kept laughing until my stomach hurt and tears streamed down my face. “What the fuck are you laughing at?” Damian asked me as he narrowed his eyes. I stopped laughing and wiped my tears with the back of my hands. “I’m sorry. You are right. I’m disgusting,” I told him with a huge grin on my face. “Your story of being raped by your ex is fake, isn't it? You actually were the girl in Jeremiah’s story. His ex who lik

I can't breathe.. His hand is choking me. I can't breathe.. I opened my mouth to take a breath, but his sweat dripped into it. I wanted to throw up. It was disgusting.. My eyes flew open, and I bolted from the bed, running toward the bathroom. I lifted the toilet seat up and threw up in it. Disgusting.. It tastes disgusting.. I kept throwing up until there was nothing left, and my tears ran down my cheeks. I quickly got up and brushed my teeth. Taking off Damian’s shirt that I was wearing, I stepped under the shower and kept scrubbing myself. I didn't stop even when my skin burned and turned red from the scrubbing. Disgusting! Disgusting! Disgusting! I kept having nightmares about my time with Jeremiah, I felt disgusted by him and myself. Suddenly I saw a hand taking my loofah away, and a deep voice saying, “That’s enough, Baby girl. You are clean.”Clean? He was the one telling me that I’m di

The gate of Jeremiah’s house wasn't locked, so we went straight to the front door; with Damian knocking on the door.After some time had passed, the door was opened, and I cowered behind Damian. The person who opened it was none other than the devil in disguise. He had a gentle appearance, but only I knew his other face, the vicious one.“Well, hello, Damian,” my demon said as if he had done nothing wrong.“Oh, hello, Uncle,” he greeted Rai’s dad with a gentle smile when he noticed Rai’s dad's presence.“And hello, Leah,” he greeted me last.“Come on in,” he opened the door wider and ushered us in.I kept myself close to Damian. That gentle face was still able to make my body tremble from fear. We all took a seat in the living room.“Are you all here to witness the transfer of Castilles’ shares to me?” he asked, still with that fake gentleness.I kept my gaze on the floor, afraid to look at the demon in front of me.“She’s not going back to you,” Damian said calmly, and Jeremiah laugh

When I woke up, I knew it was nighttime. Damian was nowhere to be seen; he must be downstairs. I quickly wore his shirt and took a small black box containing the black diamond ring I had pretended to throw last time and a necklace with a black diamond pendant for little Rai. He always wanted to wear similar things as Damian, but since a diamond ring is too risky for a little boy, I opted for a pendant instead. I took both the ring and the necklace out of the box and held them in my hand.When I went out of the bedroom, I heard the sound of the piano and little Rai and Damian’s laughter.I went to the staircase and realized that all the lights had been dimmed. As I walked down and to where the piano was situated, I was surprised to see so many red rose petals scattered on the floor and so many candles of all sizes being lit up.Damian and little Rai were playing the piano, wearing black suits with white shirts underneath. “Umm.. Is there a special occasion?” I asked them and tried to r