Lahat ng Kabanata ng Winter's Idolatry: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

DallasTwo weeks later and I still hadn't moved on. I didn't think I would be the one to stay hung over some girl but then, Eliza wasn't just some girl. I had never felt this way about anyone before I met Eliza.Every time I saw her down the hall or sitting in the cafeteria with Orion, I just wanted to go up and tell her she was with the wrong guy. Part of me knew it was better than she was Orion but no part of me was able to let it go and move on. I was doing a pretty good job of pretending, though.I'll give a rundown of the past 2 weeks.River and I have hooked up a few times and yes, that's wrong though its really not. Whenever I'm with River it feels like I'm doing something illegal only because I know that it would bother Eliza - but Eliza and I aren't together so it does't matter. Yet for some reason I still feel guilty.At first it was a just drunken mistake.I was sitting with the guys talking about cars and football to pass time at lunch. My eyes darted across the cafeteria

The next morning I woke up to my head hurting like hell. I sat up in bed and squinted as I looked around to figure out where I was. The night was a big blur expect for some random moments that would flash into mind.I was highly confused but it didn't take long for me to realize I was in Dallas's room, in his bed. He was nowhere in sight though.I pulled out my phone but with my luck it happened to be dead. I groaned as I threw it down on the bed frustrated. I sat there staring at my hands for a few minutes, trying to figure out what I was suppose to do.My few minutes in silence by myself were interrupted when one of the doors connected to Dallas's room opened. Out came Dallas with nothing but a towel wrapped around his torso. A second towel was in his hand as he ruffled it around on his head, getting his hair dry. His hair was dripping beads of water that travelled down his toned torso."Did I wake you?" he mustered when he looked at me and realized I was awake. From behind him, ste

Orion and I pulled into Dallas's driveway. There were a few other cars already there. "Ready?" Orion asked, unbuckling his seatbelt before turning to look at me with his eyebrows raised.I blew out air in my cheeks and nodded, "Ready as ever, sure.""Let's go." Orion looked at me and smiled, then paused, then kissed me softly before getting out of the car.I walked into Dallas's house to see Dallas and Penny sitting on the couch, a movie on. Penny was practically on top of him, whispering in his ear. Dallas had one arm around Penny's waist and the other arm was resting on the arm of the couch, a bottle of Corona in his hand.Jago was sitting on the ground with a bag of chips, also watching whatever movie was playing on the large flat screen that was mounted on the wall.Sean, Ocean, Hazel, and two other guys I was friends with, Mike and Liam were also here. Everybody was just sitting around and chilling, in conversations with light music playing in the background, not loud enough to b

I spent an hour or two crying until eventually the tears were all drained and I laid in my bed for hours and more hours just staring at my ceiling.The next morning I had a burst of energy and confidence. Staying up late all night had me thinking about everything that Orion had said along with running through all my past moments with Dallas - the good and the bad.Somewhere along the late hours and deep thoughts, I realized that maybe Orion was right. This thing between Dallas and I had been going on for months now and we both knew it.I wasn't gaining anything from sitting in my room and stressing about what could've been. I haven't stopped thinking about Dallas since- we already know all that. Dallas isn't an idiot nor is he naive so he has to know that I still think about him hence why he still makes comments and brings up past moments.Anyways, the point is, I decided that I may as well take a long shot and go see Dallas to confess to him this could be more, should be more. I was

I slammed Dallas's locker shut in anger causing Dallas to step back. "Eliza, what the he-""You can't just do that!" I snapped, easily showing I was angry.Dallas looked at me in confusion, also a bit of shock on his face. He obviously wasn't expecting an outburst."What are you talking about?" He exasperated, baffled. "I'm just trying to get my books from my locker. I'm late to class."The hallways were empty, the only two people standing in them being Dallas and I.I crossed my arms over my chest, "you can't just walk in and act like you're going to kiss me and then walk out." I felt like a child arguing with their mother about wanting dessert before dinner. "You can't just keep saying emotional things to mess with my feelings and then go coddle other girls.""Eliza," Dallas's eyes went a bit wider than usual. "Are you- hold on. Are you mad I didn't kiss you?" He narrowed his eyes, the slightest bit of amusement seeping from his tone.I groaned, "this isn't funny!""I don't think it