Lahat ng Kabanata ng Falling for my dad's surrogate : Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

***ESTHER***“Friends, you say?” I raise my brows in stress. He wants me to be his friend. But what advantages are there for us to being friends? Friendship has never been a beneficial strategy in my all life but with Caden friendship is different. I cannot be a friend to a guy with whom I have already slept once. It… feels kind of strange to me.He nods his head.“No! We can’t be. We are better as a stranger,” I say as I leave his hand and make my way back to the ward.“Where are you going, Esther? I need help,” he shouts all of a sudden and I have to halt in the same spot. Yeah! I am here to help him. Natalie has asked me a favor for that.But honestly, I don’t know but I feel good being able to help him. Maybe, because he helped me last time to get treated properly, perhaps because he lied to his dad about my absence from home, or maybe because he got a slap for me, or maybe because of these all, I feel indebted to him.So, to say the truth, helping him is giving me such a huge el

Chapter 32***ESTHER***“Why are the youngsters nowadays so reckless?” The bus driver scolds me while stopping at the next bus stop.Yeah! We are reckless. Maybe because we are always in a hurry. Hurried to do everything and was busy like hell. Maybe the previous generation could never understand what we are going through.“I’m really sorry,” I say as I get down from the bus and run back towards the spot I have seen her.What the hell is she doing over here? As per, I know her school isn’t located over here. It’s located in another direction.Where did she go? Where could she possibly go?I saw her walking towards that alley. Did she go to that alley? Why would she be over there? She isn’t over there right?But it’s not wrong to check out on her. So, I follow that alley path. I haven’t been here before but I am sure she might be here.The alley is crowded. I never knew there is such an alley where people are so crowded. I don’t see her around. Where is she in the middle of these peopl

***ESTHER***“Freckles Lodge?” Caisey stands in front of that bright two storied building with bright lights.“Isn’t it beautiful?” I say.“Yes, it is but isn’t the name so weird? Why would someone keep their lodge’s name after Freckles?” she asks.“I wonder why did he do that?” I talk to myself in a very low voice. Honestly, I had always been curious about it too. Dad never had freckles in his face and my mom never had the ones in her too. And he never talked about freckles all his life. I just don’t get why he name it.“Let’s get inside. I think the owner had his reasons,” I say. We climb up the brown-colored stairs before reaching a medium patio. There is a long wooden chair on the patio with a beautiful collection of plants. They were all dried up during winter but these little beautiful creatures are now, getting their life back accompanied by a huge monstera plant at the corner of the patio.“How did you know about this place? How do you even know this place?” she asks me.“I ju

***CADEN***“So, we are friends now?” I say with such a huge joy. I can’t stop hugging her. Her body feels so much warm and soothing. Just hugging her body makes me relive a lot of moments and fix all the broken parts of my heart and pains.“Yeah!” she answers as she breaks the hug and walks away with an awkward smile from me. I cannot help but smile like a child who has had his first crush in his life. This feels amazing, just so much amazing.Walking back to the room, I jump twice in joy. Finally, we are friends.“You look so much happy,?” I hear Caisey’s voice behind me. I get shocked after hearing her voice.“What are you doing over here?” I ask in astonishment.“I came to call you for breakfast. Should I bring it to your room? I don’t think you will be able to walk downstairs,” she twists her lips.“I can. I surely can get down and have my breakfast,” I say. I don’t want to leave any chances to meet her even if it means meeting her at the dining table. I don’t care even if I have

***ESTHER***Almost after two hours of cleaning, I complete the cleaning session. It’s been long that I haven’t cleaned like this. Its kind of making me tired while at the same time making me refreshed.I walk towards my study desk and sit on the chair for rest. I pull out the drawer from my study desk and see colorful diaries of mine which I started to write since my high school, every year with every new colors.They are of brown, lavender, purple, pink, sky blue and black color. Altogether, there are six diaries which I had written in last six years. I had filled them with all the emotions at that time. My fear, my anxiety, my excitement, motivation, my frustration, my madness, my anger and the love I always had been yearning for. All of them were mentioned over there.All of the five diaries were complete but I had never been able to complete the last diary. It’s because I had never been able to write and explain the things that had happened to me after that day.It was hard, too