Lahat ng Kabanata ng Falling for my dad's surrogate : Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

***CADEN***Did I just hear it right? Or did I just hear it wrong? I heard her telling me it is her boyfriend and her son. That doesn’t make sense at all.She is… She is just in the first year of college and the man in the picture seems like he is a cop. And that child… It seems he is almost 7-8 months baby and if that’s her baby then he would be with her, right?“You’re joking, right? I know you regard me as foolish in front of you but I am not. You should try to fool someone else,” I smile as pick up the picture from the table and shake it in front of her eyes.She… isn’t smiling. She looks absolutely serious. Her hands are motionless with the blue cup in her hands. It seems as if she is shouting out inside her hard and trying to tell a lot of things as I visualize the way she is looking at me. But she isn’t being able to tell anything.“Something’s wrong?” I bellow. My voice turns low as I comprehend their situation of hers and without even her answer I realize that everything… ev

***CADEN***"Are you out of your mind Caden? What the hell did you just do now?" she stands like a scarecrow whose hands are wide stretched and her face disoriented into something, not exactly like her but her.I giggle loudly as I drench her whole clothes with water. She needs this.She can't just hear some shitty thing that the stranger just said about her and get concerned with it. She should just wash that off her mind."I think you need a wash. That lady just threw a bunch of shitty talk in you and you need to shake it off," I say as I laugh out loud."God damn Caden, I'm gonna kill you," she says and turns her body left and right searching for something. I know she is searching for something to hit me. But I'm lucky there is nothing except those foamed clothes.Wait! Foamed clothes!Don't tell me she is going to hit me with that.God damn!I did a huge mistake for god's sake."No! Don't tell me you're going to do it?" I slowly pace my steps backwards."Nothing had ever stopped m

***ESTHER***None of us enunciated a single word in our whole journey. Maybe it was wrong of me to ask her that question. Maybe, I was never supposed to ask to her.God damn! Caden! Why can’t you stop yourself before yo talk shit?“Caden! Caden!” I hear her voice calling me. I turned around to her and see that she is looking at me.“What?” I ask.“We need to get down now,” she turns away and is going to get out of the taxi. I suddenly grab her arm and she faces me.Her eyes are questioning me with my abrupt behaviour but she doesn’t say a word.“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked that question to you,” I apologize. She lets out a small before she speaks anything to me.“Caden! I think I should say this. You look extremely awful when you are apologizing. Today and before too but you know what I’m glad to see you being considerate of others,” she says and gets out of the taxi.It’s not for others Esther. It’s just for you. I can’t do this to others as others aren’t you.“Es…ther…,” I hea

***ESTHER***It was just foolish of me to speak something so recklessly. How can I talk about the thing that I don’t want to talk myself. You are still such a reckless person Esther.I clutch my duvet and cover my whole body trying to repent on my mistake from before. I clearly heard him closing the door. By now, he must be already in his room and I am feeling damn suffocating inside this duvet.I slowly let the duvet get away from my face and peep over it. He isn’t there. Why would he be? I just made myself and him awkward out of nowhere when everything between us was getting clearer.I sigh as I hold the corner of the bed cover and look at the direction of the door.“He just did something out of way for me, today. Nobody would have been able to do this but he did it. The one who hated me a lot,” I talk to myself.Yeah! He hated me a lot and I hated the fact that he hated me before. But at the same time, I also knew that he hated me because of the strange circumstances between us and

***ESTHER***“I have always loved the back of my mother when she cooked for all of us. I know everyone hates to see the back of any person but it was different in her case. It was the happiest time for me,” he says as he smiles staring the front window of his car.I did that once too. Once when dad had to go through his court trials for that false accusation, I was afraid to face his face. I was scared that I had to see his hopeless and tired face. I was scared his face might be hurting a lot and there might be worse scenario as well.But it was my fear, just fear at that time.And, honestly, I never loved his back facing me. I hated that the most. Though, he had the face that I don’t want to see, I never liked when he turned his back on me.I don’t know how has his past been and what he has to go through but to say that he loved the back of his mother rather than her face means he really might have hurtful memories than I have ever expected to.“Everyone has to go through those things