I had it all badly written in my mind long before about all the flirting, kissing, and screwing thing – until I experienced how it felt to be kissed, which was a whole experience to me. A wonderful experience to be exact.What Lexus and I have done that night was the closest I had ever come to kissing. Parang dinala lang niya ako sa ibang dimensyon ng mundo nang hindi ko alam. I was hypnotized the way he moved his tongue with me and how we did that in a slow pace.I had just stepped out of the shower, clean, fresh, and ready to take another battle in law school. A tremendous sense of motivation to keep going despite adversities pushing through because I still have dreams to accomplish.I toasted a bread and had the egg fully cooked since hindi ko gusto ‘yong malasadong itlog, then nagtimpla na rin ako ng hot chocolate. I enjoyed my breakfast in peace while remembering what happened last night when I stared at the living area.Feeling ko tuloy naging kamatis ako for a minute.When I fi

Since pupunta nga si Lexus doon sa celebration na sinabi ni Conan, kinapalan ko na ang pagmumukha ko kaya nang makita ko siyang papasok sa school ay tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. And because makapal nga ang mukha ko today, I still asked him another favour and of course naiinis siya saglit pero napa-oo rin eventually.I stil have an hour para kulitin siya before my class.I asked him if he could ask Conan about bringing me into the celebration pero sinabi ko naman sa kanya na huwag sabihin na ako ‘yong nagpapatanong. Ang saya ko nang marinig kong sinabi ni Conan sa kabilang linya na pwede raw magsama.As in dinikit ko talaga ‘yong tainga ko sa telepono para rinig ko agad ang sasabihin ni Conan kaya magkadikit ang gilid ng mga ulo namin ni Lexus no’ng time na ‘yon.“Samahan mo ako dali,” sabi ko after niyang maibaba ‘yong tawag. Dali-dali kong niligpit ang mga gamit ko saka inilagay sa dala kong bag.“Where?” he asked curiously while fixing his codal.“Mall tayo,”“Shopping?” I nodded.

For all the times I made myself small during my shortcomings, I was still proud because I made myself conquer that feeling. Law school is hard, and sometimes, I do tell myself that I’ll be dropping my dreams because I felt like it wasn’t for me.But when Lexus said to me that night that there many people who wishes for my success, and he even said that he was and I should count him in. I felt motivated, I felt that the fire against me was able to burn again, and it’s like creating a furnace I once built.Our final’s week ended, and I didn’t feel so bombarded or sorry to myself after I took all of the exam, because I had done my part well. I studied well, and I’m contented to whatever the result would come out after.“Grabe, bakit may ganyan kang nireview?” Tanong ni Kaila kay Cha nang nakakunot ang noo.“Gaga, anong klaseng reviewer ba ang nasa’yo at hindi mo nakita eh pareho lang naman tayo?” Cha uttered. I saw that Kaila brushed her hair.“Kainis ha, bakit hindi ko nakita ‘yan, Tang

That night, the call with Conan was kinda awkward but it felt good, syempre dahil crush ko ‘yon kaya medyo may connection. Medyo nagtagal lang ang pagbalik ni Cha kaya medyo napahaba rin ang pag-uusap namin no’ng gabing ‘yon.We talked about random stuffs lang naman, nothing special kumbaga, pero parang sa ilang minutong ‘yon sobrang sulit na dahil may mga part na medyo fluterred si ateng niyo sa mga pinagsasabi niya. But all in all, nothing more naman sa pinag-usapan namin.Buong Monday, aral lang ako ng aral since papalapit na naman ang finals examination. Usually daw before finals ay walang pasok, but other professors tell that on the last minute. Pero parang hindi rin naman naging maganda ang kinalabasan ng Monday ko dahil parang mas marami pa akong tulog kaysa sa aral.As in 99% tulog at 1% aral siya kung i-base by percent. Ganoon unproductive ang start ng Monday ko.Kaya noong Tuesday, I tried getting up early and decided to review in the coffee shop, syempre sa Osiris ulit dahi

Pagkatapos ng dalawang araw since nagtext nga si Lexus sa akin na dadaan siya ng Iloilo ay hindi na ako magkamayaw na padaliin ang oras. I don’t know kung bakit ganoon ako na-excite sa pagdating niya. And to add from it, ang gulo ng closet ko ngayon dahil naghahanap ako ng dress na babagay sa akin dahil ngayon nga ‘yong dating niya. Diba?! So weird! And 6:30 pa lang ngayon ng umaga!But aside from that, medyo weird lang ako sa part na nagpe-prepare ako ngayon sa pagdating niya when in fact I still haven’t received any texts from him. But why am I expecting him to text me? Girlfriend gano’n?Kaya I stopped panicking muna dahil hindi pa naman sure talaga kung bumyahe nga siya ngayon. So with that, nagpunta na lang ako ng instagram and nag-scroll. I saw a nice post from Kaila who’s wearing her bikini top and her short, then I commented a fire emoji.While scrolling, I saw a notification that Belle was live in IG, I was curious with the live so I clicked it and I saw Lexus’s face right aw