บททั้งหมดของ A bad boy : บทที่ 31 - บทที่ 40

I have always said: things happen for a reason. And since it seems that life doesn't want to see me with anyone, that's why I don't have a boyfriend. It's not that I don't have any suitors, but that none of those who are after me, I like them.I don't know if it's me or what, but there is no one who makes me feel butterflies in my stomach or makes me nervous just by his presence. Maybe God has something really good in store for me. That's why I haven't found that person yet. I want to talk to you. He says in a deep voice.Keneth Williams: sporty, handsome, good body. Any girl would be willing to go out with him.And what could we possibly talk about? I fold my arms. He has nice eyes.He shrugs his shoulders. Anyone would think he's nervous.一I don't know, a-anything一. He stammers.I'd love to go out with him. But I know myself. If I liked him I'd be shaking and stuttering, feeling those butterflies in my stomach. I realize I don't feel anything.一Maybe another day, okay?一. I smiled

I didn't think I would ever feel again what people in love feel: the nervousness, the butterflies in my stomach, even stuttering. I didn't plan it, it just happened. What I would have liked is to have met Antonio before Estefania, but, well, he and she are very much in love. And I'm just an inexperienced teenager who still sleeps with a teddy bear and is even afraid of the dark.Love is about accepting yourself for who you are, I mean, how are you going to love someone else if you don't even love yourself? Sometimes I don't think I'm ready to love yet, that's why I haven't fallen in love yet, time is giving me time to prepare myself, to prepare myself for when it's my time, for when that person comes, for when I don't have that shame, that embarrassment that I always have when it comes to a guy. I am not ready yet and, I am thankful that the right guy has not arrived because then I will not be ashamed of myself.About three minutes ago Antonio and Estefania came out. They don't even m

As I grew up, my life became more and more complicated: the stage of adolescence, my first period, mood swings, feelings for a boy, dissatisfaction with your body. I went through many things, my first love was my worst mistake, I was devastated by him, but those are things that today I don't want to remember; I made several mistakes, yes, but that's what life is about and I don't want to live my whole life with fear, because otherwise, I won't enjoy my life; I will grow old and I won't have adventurous or crazy memories, I want to enjoy my youth, but in a healthy way, of course.In a few months I will enter university. I will go far away, I will only come for vacations and Christmas; I will leave this, my friends, my mom, Antonio, it will be good to get away from him, the change will be good, I hope so.At this moment, I go to Taísa's house, my best friend. She lives a little far from my house, but we are always in contact; she visits me, I visit her and so on. I'm walking too slowly,

In the course of the days, I have observed that Antonio is avoiding me. I can’t help but feel a void within me, pain, disappointment, hopelessness. When I feel like I like someone, I can’t be with that person. Love is very complicated. I hate love. 一 And then he told me we’re going camping...I’m with Taísa and Clarisa in my room. Let’s just say I’m not paying much attention to them. 一 Fabiana! 一. Taísa took me out of my trance. 一 Sorry, I didn’t hear you... What were you saying?She glared at me. Clarisa was smiling and looking at her phone. 一 I was telling you about how my boyfriend invited us to go camping.Go camping or something? 一 Where? 一. I frowned. 一 Somewhere in the mountains... can you imagine? It would be amazing. It sounds excited. Mountains? Will there be bears? Wolves? Oh, God. 一 Are there wild animals? 一. I hurried to ask. She shook her head. 一 I don’t think so. Clarisa stopped texting and joined us. 一 Who is Iran? 一. Clarisa asks. I looked at Taísa, who h

6 hours later..."Oh my God, my butt hurts," Clarisa complains.We had arrived, we parked the truck in a store where the cabin was rented, Zac went down to get the key and buy a few things to eat. Jason fell asleep on my shoulder. I did not dare to see Antonio these last 6 hours, he went down with Zac.一Are you okay?一Tai asks me.一Yes, of courseHe faked a smile. I'm really not okay. I want to go home. My mom comes to mind, I have to call her, there's no signal to the cabin we're going to, it's better to do it here and now. I pull my phone out of my front pants pocket, punch in Mom's number, and put it to my ear. It doesn't take long to answer.一Say...一Mom, it's me, I'm talking to tell you that we're arriving, alive.一Thank God, how is it there? it's nice? Fabiana, ask if there are no wild animals... They have to be careful.I smile at the crazy things mom says.一Everything is very beautiful, it's a bit cold. I don't think there are any wild animals, and when I'm in the cabin I won't