Lahat ng Kabanata ng Unsavory Redemption: Kabanata 51 - Kabanata 60

Rebecca POV:-I felt extremely depraved, my heart felt ashamed that I wasn't able to tell Ryan why I did it. My heart is filled with fear and anxiety. I wanted to hold him and called out to him but I couldn't. For the sake of the secrets which would be burned; the better. For the hidden truth which can't be revealed at all cost. For Marianne...“Please… I didn’t cheat…” I whispered, falling on my knees when he left.My soul is giving up on me, my heart is cursing me for remaining silent. I felt immersed in extreme agony, feeling utterly broken desiring purification. “You have disappointed me, Rebecca.” What I was dreading happened. Ryan will leave me too like Jane. When I thought we could be one, something came and shattered everything. My last ray of hope blew out right in front of me. “Please… don’t go. Don’t.. Leave me in the dark…” I cried, curling my hands in a fist. The redemption I finally thought I had found was taken away from me and the most heartbreaking thing was th

I don't want to lose Ryan. My heart is filled with extreme distress and apprehension just by thinking about it. I have done it for Marianne but still... “Fuck, fuck fuck!”  Pulling my hair in distress. The regret ate me up from inside. I felt like crushing under the weight of my deed. The feeling of repulsion for myself is so strong that I want to rip off my skin.  I let out my loud convulsions of misery. Losing myself in the anguish, I cried my heart out. Utterly deprived of energy, I was turned devoid, nothing came to my mind, I was lost in the abyss. My despair got the best of me.  My heart seeks only one person who is not here; Ryan. So that he can hold me and tell me he is here for me. That he can giv

“There..  On the roof,  stood Jane in the corner and Rebecca trying to reach out to her..  Calling to stop, promising that she will never do this again, she will leave everything but Jane was blind..  She.. Jumped out of the roof.” When Marianne began to cry, a tear rolled my cheek, the compassion emitted from my heart was intense for Rebecca. She bore all this alone.  She was so afraid to be saved, she kept this pain inside and when I tried to help her, delusions and insecurities led to this. “We were late. Rebecca witnessed it. Jane died and blamed Rebecca for it, which made her who she is today.. After that, she began to fear loneliness, darkness.” “She began to hate herself, she became void. To punish herself, she didn't go back to Cairo

We both began to cry as I whispered, "Please. Don't leave me again papa... "I cried, holding Papa's hands like there is nothing more safe than this for me.  "I promise. I won't, I am sorry I am sorry." He cried. He pressed his forehead against mine as we remained like that. I felt paradise to have the support of my father.  I feel like I can achieve anything now. Our cries came.to a halt. We pulled away, Marianne was also crying looking at us.  I held my hand out to her as she came and hugged me. We hugged each other after years but I felt incomplete. I turned my gaze and saw Ryan smiling at me.  My heart. Just can't be convinced that it locked me. I moved my hand and held his. He looked at me hesitantly. 

Ryan POV:- My mind is lost in the depth of misery, I cannot comprehend anything around me, my soul is burning in a fiery fire of penitence.  Back then when I heard the clicking sound, I unintentionally locked the door, I was so lost as I couldn't apprehend anything back then.  It’s all my fault, I couldn't be able to tell Rebecca we had lost our child.  ‘I am so sorry, what have I done?’ My heart is hurting so much, the pain inflicted on me is crushing me helplessly as I am losing myself in the abyss where the echoing sound of dread is everywhere, calling me a murderer.  My mind lost its ability to think. My breath lost itself, my whole being stopped, nothing