My defenses crumble one after another just like how a rocky ice melt under the heat from the sun. His lips is warm and soft against mine too much from my expectation. He is unexpectedly gentle, the way he moves his lips feels like I am some kind of a delicate glass that he needs to hold carefully or else I breakdown into pieces. The tender pleasure is too good to be true and it feels like this is my first time. I have been kissed before, not just once but countless of times but this is the first time I felt something like this. An emotion I couldn't name, a tingling sensation that makes me crave for more, ask for more because I want more of him. Oh no... This is not good, this is getting dangerous.I was about to push him away from me but Sain pulled away and took away his mouth from me which is surprisingly sweet and addictive. I breath heavily while looking at him with my slightly parted lips. I am still taken aback with his sudden kiss and my grip on the fabric of my clothes tight

"Disturbing me at this hour, Licciardi?"There is a hint of restrain annoyance that can be heard in Sain Czar's voice. It's too visible to the point that he can't no longer hide it from Nicolai."This is urgent" Pierro interject.I could feel the sudden cold and menacing air that filled the whole room. The atmosphere changes and that gives me a goosebumps but I keep my eyes close pretending to be asleep but my ears are attentive to every words they say even to their every move. If I am not mistaken, Pierro and Nicolai is facing on my direction while Sain Czar's back is facing me. That is just how I picture out their seating arrangement base on the direction and sound of their voices. Sain is much more closer to me that's why I could clearly heard him even if he is whispering. While the two is sitting a little farther. "To the point you barge in my room while I am with my wife" Sain stated in a controlled tone."We didn't mean to disturb your peaceful sleep with your wife , but this

"Or else..." I bite the inside of my mouth when I couldn't think of something to threaten him. I didn't know that it would be struggling to think of something to come back to his question. "I'll sleep on the guest room tonight"I said lowly that end up like a whisper, embarrassed with my lame threat.Where the hell did I get that? I mentally smacked my head. I sound like a bossy wife trying to manipulate my hardheaded husband. And that's gross. My goodness, Herravie. I shut my eyes close and look away while waiting for his response. But it already took a couple of seconds, the replied I'm expecting to Sain didn't happen so I shifted back my gaze at him.I caught him staring at me with his serious face earning a frown from me."What? I'm serious" I said adapting his serious expression.I thought he will laugh at me but then he suddenly get up and stretches his arms while towering me with his tall and powerful frame. "That's a serious threat, darling" he commented and tilt his head.

Trust? After what his father did to me and to my family, I don't think I would dare to trust an Ildefonso. I loathed them, I curse them to death and I hate myself for feeling something strange to this man when I know to myself that affection has no room to my heart and mind that is filled with anger and vengeance. I must kill him, I can't get attach to him. I was never been attached to anyone before. Everything that I experience right now is new to me. Most emotions are foreign and some are familiar yet I keep it unknown. This was the first time I become a wife to someone that I need to kill. And I am adjusting because I was threw away from real things when I become a Costello. It's been fifteen years and yet I am still stuck on that moment, on that night when I saw how fire swallow our home. Even with my blurry eyes that are filled with my tears, I saw Cesar Ildefonso chase me and my nanny. I saw it with my two eyes how he mercilessly killed my nanny in front of me. If not because

"Celeste Astraea Cortezi, I want you to continue finding her" Sain voice is calm yet serious. I could see him through my peripheral vision but I couldn't read what's on his mind. I couldn't see anything in his eyes, all I could sense is his eagerness to find Celeste Astraea Cortezi. Why? What's his reason for finding her? He is not even related to that name. I tighten my grip on the cup of tea I am holding. I keep my eyes focus on my plate pretending that I am not interested with their conversation, by my ears are attentive with their every word. I need to know the reason why he wants to find that Celeste Astraea Cortezi. "I assigned that task to Colesio" Sixto started and lean on the chair. "You're aware how long we been finding her but we didn't find any trace that will lead us to her. It's been fifteen years, but we didn't find any clue about her wherebouts"Sain's jaw clench and his brows furrowed. "You're just basically telling me that she's already dead" I bit the inside