I didn't get to talk to Ryu for days. My friends were always around me. If we're not goofing around and listening to Toshiro’s news during lunch, we were always hanging out, watching movies, being forced to accompany the girls to the mall, playing video games and having sleepovers. I realized they were dead serious on hanging out together like old times and I had to admit that it was quite refreshing though I missed Ryu a lot. Like, a lot.Talking to him at school was difficult because we weren't really familiar with each other in public and I just couldn't gather the courage to do it. I know where he lives but I didn't want to go there uninvited. He wasn't making any move either so I was really sad and discouraged. Maybe it was a one time thing to him.With each passing day, I found myself watching Ryu constantly and I found everything about him beautiful. The simple smiles, his reactions to things, body movements, what color and style of clothes suited him best. I payed a lot of at

I knew I was saying trash. I was spewing nonsense faster than I could think but I couldn't help it. I felt angry, jealous and betrayed."Is this why you asked me to help him that night?" I asked. "So you could win his love and he'll let you fuck him?"He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and yanked me close. The package I held fell to the floor. He held up his fist in a threatening manner."One more word like that and I won't hesitate to punch you"I let out a bitter laugh. "You'll hit me for him?"So I wasn't worth much in Ryu eyes. I'm nothing. The fag was more important."What were you doing with Sara then? You accuse me of using people and hurting them but you're doing the exact same thing! You used her...and me" I whispered the last part."If hurting you is what it takes to protect a friend then I'll do it" Ryu stated. "And I never used Sara . We went on one date. That's it". His voice went low. "I never used you too. You're the one who messed up. Besides, aren't you her boyfr

I found Sara speaking to some of her cheerleading friends. She looked so happy that the thought of breaking her heart made me feel guilty but I had to do it. I had to fix things or I'll just continue to be miserable. Besides, she'll come to know that I've just been deceiving her and that would be much worse."Hey Sara," I said as I made my way to them. "Can we talk for a moment?". I gently grabbed her elbow and led her away without giving her a chance to answer. I took us away from the loud music to a semi-secluded area. Just a few people were littered around the place, chilling and drinking."Babe, what's wrong?" She asked, looking concerned.Everything's wrong Sara. It's all just fucking wrong.Now that she was in front of me, waiting, I suddenly didn't know how to phrase my words. I didn't know how to tell her I didn't want her. I kinda dreaded her reaction. The last time I broke up with her for Aera, she went wild. Maybe I shouldn't do this in public.But then, I remembered Ryu ki

"Look we can talk tomorrow Aito. You really should go" Ryu said to me, ignoring her completely.I folded my arms above my chest and stood my ground. "I told you, I'm not leaving""Fuck" he cursed.I knew standing there wouldn't work. He wouldn't listen to me like that so I yanked the girl's arm from his shoulder and dragged her towards my car."Aito, what the hell are you doing?" he asked, confused."Making sure we can talk" I replied. I unlocked my car, opened the passenger door, and shoved her inside. She squealed then burst into a fit of giggles. "Are we having sex in your car?" She asked, giggling hysterically.I scoffed. "You wish". I closed the door, locked the car then made my way back to a stunned Ryu. "Now can we talk?" I asked.He looked at me then the car. I shoved the car key into my pocket and folded my arms again, waiting for his answer.When he saw that I wasn't backing down, he gave up and opened the front door. "Make it quick," he said but I snickered to myself.Once

"Well, I was about to invite you over to my house before she interrupted us" I proceeded to explain. "All was fine until she touched your bare chest. I got mad and jealous so I held her hand to stop her from touching you further. You kept glaring at our joined hands so I thought you were mad that I was holding her because you liked her. That increased my anger so I kissed her to prove to you that she wasn't worth it. That she's just a slut"Ryu sighed. "It's like your brain just shuts down when you're mad doesn't it? You don't even think for a second before doing something. Your actions ended up hurting us all"My head went even lower in shame."You kissing her just confirmed my thoughts of you regretting our night together. I felt used and betrayed. Couldn't you just calm down and think before doing anything?""I'm sorry" I whispered, feeling more tears in my eyes.He pinched my chin the raised my head so he could look into my eyes."Promise me that you'll talk things out with me bef