I hated him, I hated him so much. Yet I matter how much I scream and punched him, the bastard remains unchanged absorbing every blow. Why? Why was Jax like this? Why would he do this to me? I could only imagine Kate right now, internally laughing at my idiocracy. She was able to read me like an open book, placing all my selfish desires before me. I had failed myself coming here. Thinking I had the strength to confront him, but not thinking of how seeing and interacting with her might make me feel. I hadn't thought about whether she might be the one to confront me about my feelings towards him and her mentioning that I was only a fleeting thought, that cuts me to my core. But what did I expect? Jaxon wasn't going to make her uncomfortable on my behalf, the less of me he speaks the better. Even none at all. Hence I'm the one that's left hurting. In fact, this was all my damn fault. Placing all my eggs in one basket and hoping a rogue would do the right thing. "Moi."Jax's voice is

The sun was barely above the trees and already my head felt as if it was going to be split in two. Last night I only held on to my sanity by a string. Neither Kate nor Moi understood how I wanted to bite both their heads off for no reason. Well not for no reason. I had every reason to be furious with Kate and every reason to beg Moi not to leave. But she had every right to. Last night I knew those people weren’t hunters. I knew they probably wouldn’t have hurt her but I had to hold on to her little longer. If even just a little while. I missed her bear hugs. The small ones I used to get whenever I manage to pop up. The little way she would attempt and fail to hide her smile. The trust and absolute security that she saw me as. All of that was gone now, everything I was , was replaced by betrayal and sadness. Those were the things that bonded me to Ammoy. The fact that she saw me beyond a wolf, an Alpha. She only saw a man. Even when I lost everything, being around me didn’t faze her be

I stay huddled in my corner, Kate in hers tapping her nails against the adjacent wall as if willing the night away. My anxiety is at it's highest even as I watch in terror as Jax awakens, his head lolling around before his eyes open, this time completely black. A smile spreads against his face as he takes both of us in, a predator stalking prey. I've never felt this petrified in my life, I couldn't stop myself from shivering as if we were the ones bound and at his mercy. Would the ropes even keep him? "Boo! " he teases and I yelp, rushing further away from him, Jaxon's callous laughter booming around the room in violent echoes. "Ah, such good entertainment. ""Ha, ha," Kate cackles and my eyes bug. Why the hell would she attempt to frustrate him? Jax glances at his mate from the sides of his eyes, contempt written in his disposition as a scowl crawls to his face. "I will kill you." He growls. "I'm doing you a favor. " She responds. "Untie me and I might forgive your insolence. "

Enzo was nowhere to be seen when I descended the staircase, after taking my beloved nap. I will admit, not within his hearing- because he'll just tease me about it, but I did miss Halie and the house felt lonely without her. Last summer was the first and only time Halie had visited my home physically. We had spent so many other summers elsewhere and together like a detachable trio. Halie had always been like a sister I never had, bossing me around and standing up to Enzo for me whenever he became agitating. I'm sure it's the same for Enzo. Halie is the wild one, always racing everywhere, procrastinating then cramming for exams, and hopelessly stubborn. She made me feel a little more confident, always reminding me that my flaws were my unique points. It was that wild side that led us behind my house in the wee hours of the morning. I would not have ventured out any other way. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever done, recalling the night Alpha Ragna had found us, it also turned

Ammoy did the worst f**king thing to me. She ripped out my heart and stepped on it, splattering it out against the muddy ground with her feet. I know she is petrified, I know leaving me, running away from me had not been an easy decision. She had made up her mind that she had to go, that this was the only way to save me. Or us by extension.This little human that had stolen the most precious and guarded thing to me, left me reeling and feeling more abandoned than anything else. It did not matter that I had lost my pack months ago, nor even that my best friend would have my head the moment he caught up to me. Moi was everything I needed to keep me from drowing in this darkness. She was the one thing that held me together, now she was gone. But against all that I might have thought or wanted, I had to let her go. I couldn't keep her here and I have nothing to offer her. I've lost my pack, my mind, and total control of every damn thing around me. The last thing I should do is demand that