Trauma "What the hell?! What happened to you?!"  Miya was hysterical when she fetched me. Claus left me crying inside the car. Someone picked him up and that's just it. He left me...alone...crying. I don't think that I can even drive in my state so I called Miya. The service van took her here, which immediately left after sending Miya here.  "Beautrin..." she held my face and tried to wipe my tears but they were still dripping. It just won't stop falling! I've been trying! I've been trying so hard to contain my tears but it just won't budge. I could see Miya's face with intense sadness as she looked at my whole face. I know. I know that my face shows how hurt and broken I am right now. There are no enough words to describe what I am feeling right now. This is just too much for me to handle. "M-Mi..." I cried louder. She did nothing else but

Never again Has someone already told me that my life would end up being this hard? I bet no. Because I wasn't prepared. I... No one is prepared. B-but I never thought my life would be this difficult. I never thought that the day would come when I don't even want be alive...that I would rather wish be gone. I didn't think I would choose to be selfish on this. I just want to disappear from the world because of what is happening to me. I know how much my mother and father are angry with me. I know that. Ever since I was a child, I could feel it. I was never the priority. It was always my twin. But even so, I still understand them. I tried to understand them from the very beginning. I...took my time. I took my time and did everything for me to be noticed by them, so that they could acknowledge me, that one day they would remember that their daughter has a twin and isn't alone. I took my time. I was living not for myself but to satisfy my family. But it was never enough. I...was never e

For goodLeaving may be the hardest thing to do for many. Who would want to leave the place you grew up in, right? No one wants to leave and go somewhere unfamiliar to you.But now, that is the easiest way for me to finally let go of everything. The easiest and the most practical way to do. Leaving is the easiest choice for me right now. Not the easiest escape, because everything won't be easy for me, that's for sure. I guess I've been through all the hardships in life that I am somewhat feeling calm. I don't know. Maybe I'm not yet saddened by what I'm going to go through in the future.nBut at least, now... I can finally be free.Free from pain, from hurt, from all the shits that I've been through, from the people who caused my life so much...pain."Are you really serious? Are you really going to leave? The Philippines?" Tammy asked me one question. I don't exactly know how many times did she asked me that. She looks like she's not convinced yet. We're both leaning on her car while

Little Fashionista"Yes, I'm already here, Raf. You should actually arrive by now because your condo is nearer to the building. I even arrive earlier than you, what the hell? Did you overslept or what?" I irritatedly asked the person on the other line. I am frowning, a little irritated that Raf isn't still here when he is really needed here. I heard his faint voice on the other line. "I had some...fun last night, Trin. Come on." My jaw dropped. By 'fun', it's not a normal fun It's the other kind of fun whenever he speaks that! "Rafael Del Rio! You just got laid again?!" I rolled my eyes. Ugh! This gay! Yes! He is very much gay...but I am not really sure, I don't know. He keeps on telling me that he is but still...I have doubts since I really saw how he looked at my friend, Miya. And if you're wondering who he is, well, he is Rafael Del Rio. Yes. The guy who carried me out of the restaurant when I was in labor. The guy who I thought will just be my business partner, but turns out to

Change of VenueWe did the usual things that we always do inside the mall. All eyes were on us. Of course, I know now that Indira and I can no longer walk without the eyes of the folks following us or maybe the cameras. While we were playing inside the arcade, there were people who has their cameras pointed at us, mostly young people.Nevertheless, even though many people were looking at me and my daughtet, I was thankful that no one approached us. They still value our privacy, and they know that this time is not the right time to approach us. Because of that, Indira and I enjoyed our bonding. We were both sweating when we're done so I changed her with a new pair of clothes. I packed her one pair because I know how she always sweats like crazy everytime she feels a little bit of heat. "That was fun, Mommy!" She exclaimed with a smile on her face but the tiredness was already visible. We had just finished lunch when she requested that we go on the rides. And now, we're both so exhau