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Never again

Has someone already told me that my life would end up being this hard? I bet no. Because I wasn't prepared. I... No one is prepared. B-but I never thought my life would be this difficult.

I never thought that the day would come when I don't even want be alive...that I would rather wish be gone. I didn't think I would choose to be selfish on this. I just want to disappear from the world because of what is happening to me.

I know how much my mother and father are angry with me. I know that. Ever since I was a child, I could feel it. I was never the priority. It was always my twin. But even so, I still understand them. I tried to understand them from the very beginning. I...took my time. I took my time and did everything for me to be noticed by them, so that they could acknowledge me, that one day they would remember that their daughter has a twin and isn't alone. I took my time. I was living not for myself but to satisfy my family. But it was never enough. I...was never e