Vanilla のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

The first person to ever know what I really was, was my Ma.Alistair Montgomery was many things, and one of this things, was her ability to read people. It helped her in gossip groups, rising in fame—Helped her in handling me."Are you alright?"I look up from the book I was dawdling in. Doctor had given me saying I could write whatever I wanted in it, that was if I did not feel okay enough to talk to her myself that was.But I would never write what I felt. What I thought.It didn't help anyone.Kai is sitting some feet away from me, a look on his face that reminds me of how Lily looked at me when Mother Superior brought me out of her basement.I hated it.I chuckle, closing the book "Yeah. My shoulder still kinda hurts though""Wanna go to the clinic?" He asks.I give a brief shake of my head "No. It's just a light bruise, it'd go away"I try to reach out for it again, wincing one more time. I think I hit the handle of the locker and hurt something, I don't even know anymore."Um,

For as long as I can remember, I have never been brave.I always tried to avoid trouble, always tried to make sure no one got into trouble because of me. Most of the times, I would rather make myself suffer for as long as I could if it meant no one would get hurt.I didn't want to be a burden to anyone anymore.It was why the first time I met Chocolate, I kept running away from him, but he was the most persistent person I had ever met.Sure, there were days he terrified me but instead of me to be scared of what he was, it only made me want to be by his side and help calm him down as much as I could.That way, it would be like an equivalent exchange right?He protects me, and I care for him.But Chocolate was never the type to show emotions, and when he did, it was like he made an enormous mistake and he would replace it with a laugh and a grin.I never told him, but he always made me feel useless.Cream and Strawberry as well.When I tried placating Ber, it always ended up with me alw

The next two days pass so fast and I really hated it.Due to the fact the handle of the locker I was shoved into it before had bruised my shoulder and Strawberry slamming to the wall, it had practically shifted a bone out of place and I had to wear a sling all the time.I mean, I didn't even know how bad it was till Doctor found me on the floor of my room, grasping my hand in pain and she checked it for me and took me to her room which was different from ours and yet, still the same.Her walls had a dull yet cool colour to it, but around it was a white bed with two white comforters and a white duvet, a caramel coloured vanity desk and wardrobe, a chocolate coloured couch, armchair and chaise lounge, red curtains—And a yellow grand piano. It looked like it was just newly painted anyway. She never told me what the significance meant but I could tell a bit. The room looked like a black and white scene from some dreary movie but when you saw the colour around the place, it gave a calming

"Babe? Are you okay?"The pet name had me pulling myself out of my trance, a small smile coming on my lips as I remembered it had been so long Strawberry had called me that "Y-Yeah"We are in the car to school, Cream and Strawberry in the front drivers seat while I stay at the back of the passenger seat.Usually, I stayed with Chocolate who used to always talk about things I never really understood but ever since he began taking Vanilla home, their ride had been quiet.So quiet that even I was becoming slightly uncomfortable.I mean, it meant that I could read my books without worrying that Chocolate would be shrieking along with a song playing from the radio but still.Strawberry had his lips in a straight line as he looked at me through the mirror, voice soft "Sure? You've been looking outside the mirror as if you want to fly out the car"I give him a small smile, sitting up so I could try to put more strength in my voice "I'm alright. I just—"I didn't like the fact Vanilla called

"Two days, Vanessa. Two whole days and no texts, no messages. Not even a letter to tell me you were alright"I grumble as I take my seat next to him "I wasn't alright though"Ever since Kai spotted me in school after two days of my absence, he at first did a show of being upset with me, refusing to even look at me as I followed him around like a sick puppy but eventually he caved.Now I'm not sure if I preferred him ignoring him to the scolding I was getting."I mean, it's oksy to want space, but not too much space" Kai emphasizes now as I try not to let put a dramatic sigh "I was worried for heaven's sake"I look at him. Noticing that his glasses are about to slip down his nose before I help him push it back up and rest my head on my desk "I don't mean to make you worry again but I'm like extra sleepy"If looks could kill, I'd probably be dead "Seriously?"I nod, letting out a small yawn "I got attacked mid morning by this vicious gorilla and there was this puppy yapping at my face w