“That’s special and very cute and attractive.” I lean down and press a kiss on it where it is a little red. “It is, every birthday we incorporate something matching with our symbols. This one is just the most permeant.” She confirms pointing to her jumper with the butterfly in the corner which I remember every girl wearing with a different symbol this morning. “Hey Em you want something to eat?” I get no response and look over to my side and see Em lightly snoring. She must be really tired after being with the girls, her family and me today. I take her jeans off and pull out a pair of sweats that she wears to bed that are mine and put them on. I then lift her up so she is under the covers along with removing the scrunchie from the bun on her head along with taking her makeup off with a wipe and using some of her skincare. I don’t remember every step but I do what I can remember. She sighs and I kiss her forehead and decide to unpack our bags a little before exhaust

It’s been a month since New York which means it’s also the end of October. I’ve been doing really well mentally and physically. I feel better. But King has been distant and pulling away, we still see each other and spend time with each other, nothing has changed in what we do and how we act or feel. But what has changed is the atmosphere everything happens in. I don’t know if this is him slipping away but I want to help but don’t know how and now I know what seeing someone you love hurt and not knowing how to fix it. I know it’s his brother’s death anniversary coming up. 5 years. That hit me pretty hard and I ran, I can’t really blame him if he wanted to do the same. But for now it’s Halloween and we are going to party. After Josie convinced me, it didn’t take much and then Kingston surprised me with matching costumes. Well he told me what to wear for mine since I already own multiple pairs of them. We are a couple dressed in scrubs with our own little Grey’s Anatomy ba

I haven’t stopped crying since I left his parents house and well not really before that either. I sent him that song and that message because I needed him to know I still hadn’t given up. This has been the longest week of my life. And not having him by my side is hurting me so much. My anxiety hasn’t flared, I had a bout of nausea but that did pass. I ended up coming home to the girls after two days. I needed the time away from campus and being home in Willow Falls was nice. I visited them and I knew what they were telling me. That Kingston is my future and that I needed to fight enough for the both of us. Josie comes into my room “you have a visitor.” “Ok.” I don’t know who it is. I come out of my room and walk toward the door and that’s when his familiar scent, the feeling of home and his light wash jeans and white tee shirt fill my vision. “Hi.” he says in a nervous tone. It’s been 6 days since I last kissed him, held him, touched him. “Hi.” I s

She’s in my arms as I wake up like always, I’ve grown so used to it. It’s a habit going to sleep together, wake up with kisses, Em doing her routine, I cook breakfast for us and anyone else who’s home, we get ready for class or to study or we just head out and go on a date. I’m currently flipping pancakes clad in nothing but sweatpants when Austen in the same outfit as me comes out of Josie’s room rubbing his eyes. Josie’s been doing better lately which means Austen is at ease more now. He nods in my direction to say good morning not ready for words I see. “You two want some?” I offer pointing to the pancakes. “Yeah why not. You need help with anything.” “Yeah figuring out their fucking coffee machine, Em normally sets it up but she kind of had other things on her mind when we came home last night.” Meaning I distracted her after coming home from the library after working on our assignment for hours and the craving hit both of us. “Um yeah, it can’t be that hard. I’ve

Coming home from Thanksgiving I felt lighter than I had done in forever and actually happy. Which I didn’t think nor really feel around this time of year. When we get back it’s a hustle of activity in the apartment and on campus. “Why did we sign up for this event again?” Sutton asks as we run around trying to pull together decorations for the end of semester ball at our sorority. “So it’s away from finals.” Addison responds. “Ok right, well now we are on decorations and the event is tomorrow.” Sutton chuckles. “Do we even have dresses?” Sutton continues. “I was just going to wear–” I begin to say that I was going to wear last year’s dress before everyone cut me off with a world of yeah no’s. “Why not?” “Because I got the dresses covered, we have matching ones. The silk slips that we love with a small twist. I had to design them for my end of year project and I named them after you girls. Figured since I had to design and bring them to life it would be a sham