Lahat ng Kabanata ng Mate or God?: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

ShawnI watch her for the third time leaving this town and me behind. I wanted to break the window and shift into my wolf form but I keep holding back myself. Jenna waved goodbye to me but I am too deep in my thoughts to even bother.Precisely I am hurt by her leaving me. Even if she is a nun now but still she is my fucking mate. The Jenna that I desperately want to be with. When the car left, my wolf let out a howl of agony and suddenly I feel dizzy. My head started to ache a lot that I fail to move but only to stumble back and fall on my bed. I lay flat down there without moving. The pain is too deep. It's keeping me paralyzed. I close my eyes and take a nap for a while. When I wake up again after a while I don't feel the dizziness anymore. I can move my body around. I remove my clothes then threw them in the laundry hamper and grab my towel.I turn on the shower letting it cool for a while. I step inside and feel the cold splash on my warm body. Relaxing every knot and muscle of

Jenna/Sr. Claire"I am not Jenna" I whispered still trying to deny the fact about me. "Take her away" order Ambrose. The two guards came inside and pull Lucia away from me. I shake my head no. I try to reach out for Lucia but Ambrose pushes me back to the ground. Lucia looked at me with tears in her eyes. She mouth 'I am sorry.'"Lucia" I try again but Ambrose intervenes and pushes me back. "You cannot go, Jenna. Unfortunately for you...you are to stay here until he comes" he said in a serious tone. "Jenna is not here" I deniable reply to him. "Jenna, even if you want to deny it. You are still that man's mate. Trust me, he will come for you and it's why I am patiently waiting for him," he yells at me. I laugh at that like a crazy maniac before letting out a shattering scream. "So, what if I was Jenna?" I glare at him. "What are you going to do about it?" "I want Shawn's head but I can't have that bastard's head if I don't have you." I let out another mockery laugh. These peopl

ShawnThe truth was out and I can see that it has hurt Jenna deeply. I sit down on the bench at a park staring at a blank space before me. I feel like a sore loser with the way I sit here. Back in the room, I wanted to stay by her side when she told us off but I know that Jenna needed a space. It had been a week since she fell into a coma. I was excited to see her when her mother link us she was awake but I guess she wasn't so excited to see us. "Shawn she left" Hannah cry to me through the pack link. "I don't know where she runs off to" she added. "I will look for her," I told her and closed off the link. I stood up to go when I see Jenna running in my direction. This cannot be real, right? I try to slap myself as I watch her running towards me. I shake my head and take a step forward. "Jenna" I whisper waiting to welcome her in my now spread arms. "It-"She runs past me and straight to the riverside. She didn't see me. Am I invincible now? I thought the moon goddess is sending

Jenna/Sr. Claire"Forgive me, Lord." I kiss my cross tied to my necklace and place it in the top drawer. After another breakdown, I never bother to show my face at lunch or dinner. It is another day and I have been sitting here thinking of what to do until I made up my mind. And what I am going to do may sound crazy. However, for once I want to go crazy because I am going crazy of what had happened to me in the past. These people who claim to love, to know, and to say sorry to me are making me unstable again. I need to breathe. I need to live a little and just forget everything. I look at myself in the mirror once again. "This is it," I said to my reflection. Taking a deep breath I check my skinny jean, spaghetti top, and my two-inch heel. "It's time for Jenna to let loose" I mutter and grab my purse from the nightstand. I slowly close the door behind me and about to walk through the hallway way when a voice stops me. "You're going somewhere?" I turn to find Colby standing at the

Shawn"Dad where is mo- aunt Sr. Claire?" asked Hans. I know my son is struggling between his biological mother and Jenna. I've seen him with her and sometimes I may have caught him in his room, wishing for Jenna to be his mother. I don't want him to have false hope because my relationship with Jenna is still questionable. "Dad, where's aunt Claire," his question snap me back from my trance. When my son arrived home he wanted to meet Jenna but I told him that she was a bit busy. Now I can't lie to him anymore. This has been going on for days and I didn't want to disappoint him by telling truth. After all he is just a child. My child. "She's in her room. why?" I ask him. "I miss her," he sadly said to me. I look at him sadly remembering that I have to win Jenna's heart again. I smile at him and bend down to his level."Okay, why don't we surprise her for a day out" I suggest and Hans jumps to his feet in excitement. "Dad, let's get ready" he drags me to the shower. After we get re