It was so awkward to go back to Jack and sit down with him. I didn't know what to say or do but thankfully he just hugged me. And even though I felt like crying, I didn't. I just dived deeper into his hug. That moment really made me realise how important Blake and I need to draw up boundaries. Which is why I'm standing outside his hut and taking deep breaths in.You can do this Aria, it's just Blake...I recite the words over and over in my head.Finally knocking on the door, Blake doesn't waste time opening it and I thank God that this man is wearing a shirt.He lets me in, closes the door and sits on his bed looking at my every move while I inspect his given room."Your room is nice." I blurt out the words before I could even hear how they sound in my head, way to go Aria."It is." Blake answers, still looking at me."So, what happened to Mirella's school?" Once again I avoid the real reason I am here."One of her classmates was involved in a car accident with his parents and sadly p

"How are you?" Mirella asks, her foot twirling around.Her father dropped her off but luckily he did not try me by getting inside my hut…I’m not ready to deal with him."I am fine, sorry for spying on you with dad.""It is not fine but I forgive you. I missed you." I pull her for a hug and she wholeheartedly hugs me."I missed you too mommy." "Aria? Oh hey you two." Miss Katy walks over to us."Hi Ms Katy.""How are you?""Good, you?""I am good too, I actually want to borrow your mom, is it okay?""Sure, I have to go to the playground. They are serving ice cream.""Don't eat too much!" I shout after her but she just smile mischievously. "Where are we going?""We were thinking of having a party.""Really? That sounds nice, where?""Here, come on." Katy pulls me by that arm.I've only been here for ten minutes and to say I'm bored will be an understatement. "A tea party? How old are we?" I put down the tea cup on the table."I don't know but what are we supposed to do? We can't go to

One thing I love about today? It was God given. That is the only reason because other than everything else is a mess. Here I am stuck in traffic, going back home with Mirella and Blake in the car because of:1)The bride and groom to be cancelled everything after the accident since Ms Katy was shook up from it so we are all going back home. I decided to travel close to midnight.2)Jack was my transport so since he left I had no other choice than to ride with Blake.3)Mirella invited him over for the night, as if my rules and voice don't matter.Meaning I will be under the same roof as Blake for the whole night, what could go wrong?Leaning my head against the car window I start to think how this year has just been a rollercoaster. With Blake and Mirella sleeping, it's so much easier. The first question to pop up is why? Why is it that when I finally tell myself that I've found love something, well someone, has to waltz their way into my life and ruin everything. Every single day after

Walking towards the library shelf Jack had told me to meet him, I feel my body refusing to allow air in. Should I start by apologising? Should I push him away or pull him closer? Should I initiate a relationship with him or not?Confusion fills my head and every step I take carries another question. Finally arriving, I spot Jack standing next to the shelf holding one of the books. His outfit burns my soul, not helping with my need to breathe. A white golf shirt tucked in nicely into his scotched powder blue pants. He looks up from his book and does something I wasn't expecting from him, he smiles."Hey." I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. With nervousness rocking my ability to walk straight, I fail to make my way to him in my usual walk."Hi, how are you?" He leans against the shelf, his arms folded whilst still holding the book."Good, you?""Fine...why did you lie?" He asks, not wasting any second."I...I never lied. I believed what I told you too, I believed that nothing was h

How would life without Blake be like? Splendid! I can tell you this confidently because it has only been a week without him and everything is going well. No guilt, no temptation, no lust, everything is going accordingly. The best part of it all is the bond that Jack and I have. It's so crazy how within a week a person can know so much about another person. It really feels as if I've known Jack for a lifetime. Even though work comes in the way sometimes, we are always together when we have free time, like now."No, if you put the marshmallows on top now they will melt and probably ruin everything but we can place them on later after taking the cake out." Jack says to Mirella and Calvin.Both of them agree only because they see this as an opportunity to eat some now. Their smiles remind me of how this beautiful Saturday morning has been and baking as the four of us is calming. Mirella and Calvin have been getting along great but Mirella is acting up towards Jack here and there. The f