Lahat ng Kabanata ng ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD: Kabanata 171 - Kabanata 180

STORMThe minute the door closes, I run to a stall and throw up. thank goodness these toilets are fancy and clean because I am on my knees and head bowed on the fucking bowl.When I am sure I will not be throwing again, I slide on the floor, back on the wall, and sit there. I sigh heavily, and I can feel the tears threatening to fall.Nope, I am not about to cry right now, I will ruin my makeup, and I don’t have any to fix it all up.It could be the hormones but I fucking don't know, it's all too much.Could I have wished for things I cannot handle?We are past the honeymoon phase and everything has been so real-life lately that I wish I could run but that’s no longer an option. I am such a coward. Always run when it gets tough, but I didn't know what to do, or how to go about it.I am a girl now with a whole pack to lead, and a soon-to-be mother of four.That does it.A sob escapes my lips and I press my mouth hard to avoid any sound coming out. fuck I am not ready to be a mother, I

LANDON I had known that whole week that she wasn’t feeling great.I thought it was because of school work, she has been holed up studying and going to the pack, arranging and talking to the community leaders of her bloodline.It's all a lot of work especially since her people and mine aren’t officially one so she has a lot on her plate. We all offered to help but she told us she needed to do this. she had all the help she could want, and we were okay with that.But as days flew by, she wanted to be in her room more, and anytime we went in there, she pretended to be fast asleep. Sometimes she was asleep. I didn’t know what was up, that’s why I decided today to bring her out here and have some fun.But it was deeper than that.My own heart is breaking as I look at her right now. She looks sad and fragile, she looks lost.“do you want to talk to me about what is going on in your pretty head right now?” I ask her softly as I hold her hand.She pulls away and looks away, biting her lip, h

STORMMy whole being is cold. My insides are wound tight. I am aware of things that are happening, I can feel everything and I wish I wasn’t.Because tonight is the night all my fears have come true. I have been wishing my life was different for weeks now and tonight, the universe has said yes to them.I just lost my babies, and I know it's all,y doing. It doesn’t matter what they all say or try to tell me, this is my doing. They felt my hesitation, my longing for a different life and they have left me.You know what's stupid, it’s the fact that every time I felt like I was a clown, not being true to the rest of them I would talk to them and confide my true feelings to them.They wouldn’t judge me, they were inside me and they knew what was going on. They had come to be my partners in this ridiculously high life, and now they are gone.To be honest, I feel betrayed. They were here, and now they are gone. It's my fault, and yet a part of me thought that they would never leave.I am so

STORMI find myself at Magdaline’s new house's doorstep.I press the doorbell before I think myself out of this.“come in honey,” she opens the door and waves me in I can feel all the walls drop down and I whimper as she pulls me into an embrace.“I have messed up everything,” I cry as she holds me.She soothes me and takes me to the couch. There is a young girl in the house who has been helping her and she brings me some tea and then leaves.“you have been through so much baby,” she says ss he pushes hair off my face.“I'm so tired,” I whisper as I curl on the couch, head on her lap.“I know,” she validates me. I go ahead and tell her all that has happened and she cries with me, and I feel so sleepy.“I don’t know if they will ever forgive me, but I need to get away.”“There is only one way that you can go away and they remain here unaffected by your absence.”“I will do it, anything. I need to fix myself and maybe one day we will be together again,” I tell her meaning every word.“y

STORMI never thought it could happen, but it is.I am standing by my Impala, looking at Ridgewood one last time before I speed away and I feel like I am leaving my soul and heart behind.This could be one of the things I will ever regret doing. I can't seem to remember why I am doing this because it hurts so much, but it's all for the better.I wipe away the tear sliding down my cheek and get in my car, revving the engine and speeding away.Back on the road again, alone, leaving all that I have ever wanted behind.I open my compartment glove and I find my old burner phone. I flip it open and find the number I am looking for.“hey Stevie, I need a job.”“Long time Cherry, where are you?”I am heading north, can you find me something worth my while?”“anything for you, but aren’t you rusty? Rumour has it-““Are you sending me the coordinates to a good hunt or not? I didn’t take you for a gossip.”“All I am saying is, now you are not as incognito as before, be careful out there.”“I did