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Chapter 7 (Anastasia's POV)Sharing the good memories with Benjamin was not as bad as I thought it would be. What I expected was to feel pain at reliving all those memories but instead, I felt real happiness and relief in a way. I felt good. Because I reminded myself that there was more than just pain in my life. There were good memories as well and they had a special part in my heart just as all those ugly painful memories did. Some memories taught me lessons of endurance and forgiveness while others taught me how to love and care for someone even when that someone might not entirely deserve your love.You might find it weird but I did not hate my father for what he did to me. I did not hate him twenty years ago and I did not hate him now. Sure, the absence of love made me fear him, but that was not the same as hating someone. All I ever wanted was just to get my father back the way he was before his brother died in a car accident and before our mother died from the illness. And with

Chapter 9 (Anastasia's POV)"Benjamin! Can you come down, please? I need help!" I shouted from the kitchen. Sometimes it really was not good to be a woman on the shorter side.Especially when you need something from the upper shelf that is completely out of your reach and yes, that was my situation at the moment. But luckily for me, I had a boyfriend who was more than a head taller than me, and for the first time, I was glad he was so tall. And yes you read it correctly. He was my boyfriend. After the day we spent alone with our horses we kind of bonded and those kisses just sealed everything and made our bond stronger. Since that day our relationship did not progress in any physical way. But as I said our bond becomes stronger and stronger every day. And I guess I should also mention that we received amazing news a few days back. Looks like Benjamin's mother beat cancer's butt even though she only had slim chances, but she grabbed those chances with both hands and beat the illness th

Chapter 11 (Anastasia's POV)You want me to answer honestly, I bet. Well to me it does not really matter what Benjamin's answer would be, it was so worth it to see him squirming and being confused. But I knew Benjamin and he always gave me an honest answer, and I had no doubt he would give me an honest answer now as well."I have o idea how you came to this question right now since we have not even slept together yet, but since you asked already, yes. I still want to have babies and be a father, maybe because of the whole fucked up experience with the crazy ex I want that even harder." See? Honest, no matter how weird or ugly the truth may sound to someone. And actually could understand his reason for wanting family even harder than a man at his age usually would. He was mentally already prepared to be a father but then he realized not everyone was as honest as he was. And to top it off he was not alone in this shit hole.Instead of pushing him for more unpleasant answers or being a s

Chapter 13 (Anastasia's POV)Oh my freaking God! I made it! For the first time since I can remember I asked for something that I wanted and it looked like I was going to get it. Benjamin was still kissing me while he was pushing me to the bedroom but I had no patience to go that far. Nope. The living room would have to do for today, "No! Here! I need you like yesterday!" and what did the asshole do? He chuckled at my impatient ass. But I didn't care as long as I get what I wanted, and I was determined to get it, so I grabbed his belt and undid it before he could object and pulled it out of his pants, what I did not expect was that his jeans would literally fall off his ass and pooled around his feet. I moved away from him in surprise and just kept looking at him and back down to his jeans that were around his feet, and back to his face and back to his pants…after a few times I could not hold it in any longer and I burst out laughing and surprisingly Benjamin joined me only a moment la

Chapter 15 (Anastasia's POV)Packing my stuff was hard, knowing that I am leaving this ranch and the happiness that it brought me behind was hard, but facing Benjamin and intentionally aiming to hurt him was harder. And when he said he loved me, well, that was the thing that broke me in the end. He finally said those words that I longed to hear my whole life and unfortunately, I was in no position to say those words back, all I could do was break his heart in pieces by telling him the feeling was not mutual and that was the biggest lie that ever left my mouth. Now I am sure the obvious question was why I did what I did if it hurt me so much. It is pretty obvious and easy though. I had to, I had no other choice.Remember how I told you people were after me because of my father's debt and other people wanted to see my father walk free after all these years because they still had some kind of thing to get from him? Whatever their reasons were I was just an obstacle in their way so it was