Fabian I hated myself for causing her pain. I stared at my hands The flare of my ego wouldn't allow me to come close to her. I was pussed and I should have known better than to allow my anger to take charge of my thinking. It was the first time I had laid a hand on a woman. I usually avoid them but this woman did things to me. She makes me lose control and it was the first and last time I wanted that to happen.Meredith made me calm as much as she made me go wild. There are things I would let her in on, Mariana didn't have the chance to be that way around me. Mariana was suffocating but Mergave me that freedom to feel whatever I wanted. She drives me crazy as much as I make her go crazy too. Were we denying our emotions too much that we were fighting and hurting each other in the process? I haven't really given it any rational thought before now but it was pretty soon before someone came looking for her again. I wished she knew how I felt genuinely, maybe it would help see thin

FabianI stood at the other side of the door and heard her cry. I wanted to go in and comfort her because it was hard for me to know just how much pain she was in.This was a big change for her and it was clearly for her own good. mostly mine but for her own good too. There were some certain things she knew that had made this place a danger to her. Just as many before her. Italy was a good place for tourists and it was also a good place for danger to reach its peak. People are being collected in the streets because of what they know. The things that they were involved in. I have lost too many people in my car to be bothered about what she thinks and how her freedom was snatched from her. It was too much for me to handle. I knew that there was nothing that I couldn't handle but I didn't like the fact that she was sad.I have never been indecisive to what I feel before now but who cares about what I think or what I feel?I was leaving the entrance of her door when Imelda bumped into me

MeredithI was infuriated.That was how I felt as I trailed behind Fabian to the dining table. He stopped in his tracks, staring at me, puzzled."Why are you walking so slowly?""I might as well be locked in a high tower, why are there so many stairs and so many rooms? I could get lost here." He stretched his hands, so I could take my hands in his. But I ignored him and walked past him"You might take the wrong turn? You can't be mad at me for a long time." I hissed, taking my left, until he pulled me to the right. "I warned you. You have to behave, I haven't forgotten the ways of punishment." He whispered in my ears. I shuddered as his voice went dark. I quickly moved ahead to the living room before the dining table. I was startled when I saw a full house."I thought…" I couldn't firm the words as Fabian gestured for me to sit. Imelda was all smiles and Giovanni just gave a short nod to me. "I wasn't expecting to see you guys." I was shy, I didn't know what to feel as I saw his sibl

MeredithThe phone continued to vibrate as I looked for ways to answer Fabian who was staring directly at me. "Are you okay?" I'm not. These agents chose this time to call me when you are just a breath away from me. I answered in my head, trying to look for a loophole to the situation. I coughed slightly. "Yeah, I am. jUst feeling a little under the weather." He nodded, continued with the people he was in a conversation with. The phone had stopped vibrating and I exhaled. Suddenly, I fit it again. It was only a matter of time before everyone heard that bass sound. I didn't want to cause suspicion. I had a good number of people who would take me out in a second, if I posed a threat to them. I was indulging in a conversation that might be a secret,I didn't want to add anything else to the mess I was in. I nudged Fabian, lowering my head to whisper to him. "I'm going to the bathroom.""If you go down the hall, you'd see it." It was clear this was his company and through the meeting

Meredith.I was jealous.I was jealous because it was hard for me to stand another woman close to Fabian. I didn't know why I was feeling that way because I still couldn't stand Fabian.I have Damien, why am I bothering over a man that treats you poorly? I know I have spoken to Dakien for a long time and it feels like we were not dating. We were still distant with each other and I didn't think he knew that I wasn't in the school premises again. Zachary, who was standing beside me, tried to stop me when I couldn't help myself. It made my skin crawl just seeing her throw herself at him. I was going to get in trouble with Fabian but I hated her fur slapping me and making me a whore a few weeks back. I wanted to prove myself that it was only a whore that would throw herself at a controlling man like Fabian.Mariana was already fuming after playing nice for a few seconds. I spotted the amusement on Fabian, he was clearly having a good time seeing us bicker. As much as I was jealous of Mar