บททั้งหมดของ Delusional Jane: บทที่ 11 - บทที่ 20

“Well, it’s just my mother. I told her we were getting married,” I said, afraid to complete the sentence, scared of what he was going to say or how that day was going to turn out. At that point, he was already unpacking his grocery while I stood by the kitchen counter, fiddling with my top. That used to be my favorite top at that moment. But it quickly became the most disgusting thing I’d ever worn because of the memories that came with the top.“Okay, great. What did she say?” He asked, kind of excited and I felt bad for what I was about to say but I had to say it anyways so I took a deep breath and out.“Well, she doesn’t approve,” I said and held my breath for a moment, waiting for a reaction but I saw none. “Did you hear me?” I repeated to know if he was actually listening.“Oh yea, I heard you, baby,” he said absentmindedly as he still rummaged through the grocery as though he was searching for something. “Shit! I forgot the sardine,” he spat but I was concerned that he had nothi

Remember when I said I was going to allow the future to decide how chaotic my life choices would be? Yes, I did.“I got it!” I said, staring into my laptop that rainy afternoon. I had finally gotten to my house. I wasn’t in the mood to interact with anybody. “Eeww what happened to you?” I jammed my sister in the lobby. Of course, I completely ignored her. However, I shot her a very stern stare before I opened the door to my room and shut it behind me. “Weirdo,” I could hear her curse me from outside my door. I dropped the bag I was carrying like I was helpless and slid down my door with my face cupped in my hands. I couldn’t let tears stream down my face again because I was really cold and I cried all through the walk home. I was shivering yet I really couldn’t do much about it because the pain I felt in my heart surpassed all kinds of feelings. “Jane, are you okay?” I could hear my mom knock on my door from outside. I immediately got alarmed and shot up from the ground where I sat,

“Thank you,” I said to the doctor then went ahead to stare into an empty space. I had tried so hard to remember but how was I supposed to remember what I never knew existed? It was a whirlwind of emotions for me. The doctor sent the nurses to get my family. So after all this time, I’m finally married to Rick? How? How did that happen? How’s this even possible?I questioned myself in so many ways more than one because the last thing I remembered was preparing for an exam in France so I could get in and be close to Rick. Did that actually work? Did I pull that off? How did it all happen? Poof! It was gone from my memory like it was never there.“Here’s some aspirin,” the doctor handed me the pill alongside a glass of water and I accepted it with a smile. Rarely had I seen doctors who were so nice and so handsome at the same time. If I didn’t know better, I’d say that doctor was hitting on me. But I would blame that insane thought on my health condition.“When will they get here? I’ve be

I stared at my empty phone. I sat opposite it and spoke to it like I would a friend. Of course, it didn’t reply back, what was I thinking? Every beep and every slightest sound the phone would make made me jump up and open the phone in anticipation. What was I anticipating you may ask? I left Rick dozens and dozens of calls he was supposed to have returned but he didn’t return any. I even told him I was on the verge of dying but he still ignored me. How heartless could he be? Or maybe he knew I was definitely lying. Somebody tell me why I was sitting there and anticipating a call from somebody I knew wasn’t going to call me back. Speak of boredom. “Jane we’re going to be late!” My sister often yelled at my door just to get me to come out and go to the counselor. Oh, how I despised going to meet her. My mother never failed to meet her every month to update her on our life and get the best advice from her. She started doing that ever since my father died.She noticed she started making

“You are here but this isn’t you. You’re half here and half of you is gone,” she said and it absolutely broke my heart.“When will I see Rick?”……………..“You’ll see him soon,” she responded and I nodded. I was waiting patiently, anticipating his arrival. I wondered how he looked now. I wondered if he still hated me or how we would react when we see each other. Well, my sister did say that we were on the verge of a divorce so I didn’t expect a nice, warm welcome either.“When will he be here? I mean, I’m so anxious to meet him,” I tucked my hair behind my ears and moved my hands slowly to my chest, my heart rate had increased and so has my breathing.“I’m right here baby,” I heard a voice coming from the door, I shifted my gaze from my sister to the door, and oh my days. “Rick?” I muttered to myself, moving my hands to my lips, I noticed they were chapped and dried. I tried adjusting myself to make sure I looked presentable to him but I already knew that no matter what I tried, I still