Walking back to my apartment having watched Gabe walk away from me knowing that he had basically told me he didn’t want to see me again was one of the most painful things I had done. I know I can’t have him, but I don’t want to let him go either. I thought maybe we could still chat or occasionally meet up, I guess. As spending time with him today has been good, I love being around him, it just feels right, so natural and like it is meant to be. Which I know is stupid, as I know it is technically meant to be as it is what the Moon Goddess has fated, she has fated for Gabe and I to be together, to be a couple, so it should only feel right for us to be together, to be in one another's company. Yet there is too much at risk for us from being together. I thought when he kissed me he wanted the same thing, hoped perhaps he would consider being together, but not as mates, as selfish as that may be. So when he uttered the words he thought it was better we didn’t see each other or speak

I am lying in bed, my arms wrapped around my beautiful mate. Where I imagined I would feel happiest. But right now, I feel like my world is crumbling around me. It is already the early hours. We returned home from Lilah and Knox’s home having heard the news and discussing the final arrangements for tomorrow. Lola and I ordered in a pizza and watched a film, as neither of us could be bothered to cook. Our cases for tomorrow were now sat by the front door, everything ready to go. But in truth I did not want to go. I was terrified. I was unsure what tomorrow and this trip would hold. Would I be coming home with my mate? Would I be coming home heartbroken because she had chosen to stay with her pack and her family because of the punishments her Alpha has chosen for her for breaking their pack rules by allowing me to mark her? We had had a soak in the bath together to relax, and then headed to bed in the hopes of an early night. Having some fun before sleep, which was difficult to

We are sat in the car heading toward my pack, Crimson Night Pack. Hell on earth….. And things were going to get a whole lot worse when Alpha Jace realised I had allowed my fated mate to mark me without me even asking him or letting him know….. Manny is driving, and I am in the passenger seat. I feel sick with nerves quite honestly and would like nothing more than to get straight back onto that plane and go back to Midnight Forest Pack. I felt safe there. They can protect me there, right? Jake was sat on the back seat, he seemed like he was a mixture of nerves and thoughtfulness. I wonder if he is going over the plans again and again in his head? Manny has said he is one for planning and preparation, so maybe he is just wanting to make sure they are well prepared? It is a bit hard to be well prepared when the Alpha you are coming up against is pretty unpredictable though. When he changes his mind more than time changes…. Alpha Jacob, Javier and Mateo were in the car dri

I feel my body tremble as my Alpha looks at me, his voice reverberating through the car as he demands an answer “I said she did what?!” Manuel was showing no nerves and neither was Jake, but I saw Manuel take a deep gulp, so perhaps he was just good at hiding his nerves. “We already completed the mating and marking process.” Manuel says. “I fucking heard that, I want to know why” Alpha Jace has not taken his eyes off me and his voice is full of venom. “Well you didn’t really clarify that, you asked what she did, so I was telling you” Manuel says with some sarcasm to his voice. I can see all over his face he does not like this man, and that is not unexpected considering the things he has heard about him. “Don’t get smart with me fucker” Alpha Jace leans into the car, his face inches away from Manuel’s. I don’t like him being that close to him. What if he tries to hurt him? I quickly press on the button in the centre of the car which closes the window without th

“Right Bitch, Want to explain why you thought it was ok to break our pack rules?” Alpha Jace’s voice booms from behind me. I turn, feeling myself shaking as I do. Knowing that all hell is about to break loose. I see the group of men I had travelled with all stand up, looks of shock and anger on their faces clear to see. All looking ready to defend me. Not to mention feeling Manuel’s fury through the mate bond. Hmmm I have a feeling him hoping to stay calm and focused was going to prove difficult…… “Alpha Jace, is there any need to be talking to Lola like that?” Alpha Jacob speaks up on my behalf before I manage to defend myself. “And who the hell are you? Another one she is opening her legs for?” Alpha Jace snarled. “This is none of your business. She is from my pack and I need to talk with her, so all of you can fuck off” “I am former Alpha of Midnight Forest Pack. And I think you will find this is our business as Lola is part of our pack now, she is official