While Jax's face is filled with satisfaction at my request, Drake looks up at me with disbelief. I could easily force him to kneel, but that’s not how I want this to work. Today I’ve presented him with the power I have, that I could make him do anything I wanted. Even with his strong Alpha powers, he wasn’t able to go against my order.My intention when I came here was to humiliate him, take everything from him, get answers to my questions, and then make him beg for his life. The deep betrayal he had inflicted on me, causing so much pain and hatred, was asking for revenge.But the longer I’ve been here today, the more I feel totally in sync with my wolf. The less hatred is left. For the first time since forever, I feel a calmness inside of me, which seems to be out of this world. I’m not saying my temper is totally at bay, and I’m going soft. But my former way of thinking has shifted. My thoughts drift off to what Tristan told me about the nature of the Queen they look up to. I think

For a moment, I think about drawing back again, but the last weeks have been too much of a struggle to fight this small but immensely important gesture. So I decide to let him take hold of my hand and pull me a little closer to him.Intertwining our finders, I can’t help but notice just how perfectly they fit into each other. Simply standing there, looking into each others eyes, while the snow is starting to fall stronger, we share a special moment. No words are needed. It's like in one of these cheese movies where everything is romantic and perfect just for the moment. The longing to kiss him grows again, and his free, very warm hand cups my cheek. Closing my eyes, I want to revel in this moment and lean into his palm. Suddenly, I feel his warm, soft lips land on mine. This time, I don’t fight it. Letting go of my hand, his arm wraps around me, pulling me flush against him, while the other hand is still cradling my jaw. Feeling his warm body pressed up against mine feels sensational

Rushing into the main pack house, I don’t take notice of anything around me. Perhaps it's childish or selfish to run. But I just want to get away as fast as possible and drown in my misery and own stupidity.I run to the only place that has always given me some sort of comfort, the library. It’s dark and slightly secluded from the rest of the house. Slamming the door shut behind me, I let myself sink to the ground with the back against the door. Burying my face into my palms, I start to sob in the most ugly way. The thick tears streaming down my cheeks start to fill my hands and run down these, too. The hoarse sobs fill the entire room. Still feeling the cold right down to my bones, I start to shiver and curl up on the floor.There’s a couch and an old winged chair near the window, but I can’t bring myself to even move that far. A loud knock at the door causes me to shriek. “Go away!” I call out with a broken voice. I just want to be left alone while my heart shatters all over again.

Jax’s POV:"....how fucked up is that, Jax?" His words repeat in my mind over and over.Any other time, I probably would have snapped at him for talking to me like that, but I totally deserve his harsh words today. Maybe he's the one who has to punch some sanity into me.Until last night, I hadn’t even thought about the kiss with Tiffany or the circumstances. I barely saw Tiffany ever since Amelia came here. It was only a very short encounter, short enough to have totally slipped my mind. It never meant a single thing to me anyway. “Actually it was Tiffany who kissed me. I just let it happen, and now I know how wrong it was.” I don’t want to tell him just how fucked up and twisted my mind got, thinking about Amelia with Drake."How is she?" I nearly whisper, scared to hear the truth.“She’s an emotional wreck right now and has a sprained arm. But she’s acting really tough today, as if nothing could keep her down.” I can hear the admiration for her in his voice. How much things have sh

My heart beat speeds up immensely entering the Blood-moon pack grounds. It’s been over two weeks that I haven’t been here. Initially, I had only wanted to stay at the Black-moon pack for three days, but things didn’t work out as it seemed.On day two, we had a minor vampire attack, which led to Alex coming back a day earlier and helping us out. Luckily, not much happened, but it was enough for the people to realise something is truly wrong, and it wasn’t just empty words of mine to scare them.Everyone noticed that we needed to stick together if we wanted to fight this.After Alex was back, we set up plans for the future of the pack. There was a lot of protest on day four when I declared one of the new rules. As from now on, rogues will no longer be hunted or tortured if they get close to the premises. Alex explained to them how the Blood-moon pack welcomes rogues.From now on, rogues will also be welcome to join the Black-moon pack. Their reason to be a rogue shall be investigated an