I came off the phone to Rose with a smile on my face and Jaxx purring in my mind. He seems happy to know that his mate is close by, yet unsettled too that she is not by his side. Ok, she is not with us, and this is definitely unsual circumstances, but we are working on it. I am hoping to sort that with time.I guess listening to everything she said I can only agree that she deserves a little time to take in what has happened, and get her things under control and in order before making any commitments to being with me. Especially when being with me means moving to a different country. It is a big change to expect anyone to have to take on, especially a young woman that is a successful business woman.So I am willing to give her that time. Give her that space and that freedom to do what she needs to get everything in order, ready to come and be my mate. Or that is what I am hoping anyway. She has not exactly agreed to that as yet, but I am hoping that is what she will do. And I am reall

I finally let Jaxx out through the forest at the top of the packland, up near the borders where I know I won’t be disturbed. Needing to feel the pain of pushing myself to my limit running up there, loving the sensation of the breeze through Jaxx’s fur as he paces through the trees at speed. I could still sense he was on edge, but allowing him out to run helped. He could let some of the unused energy up speeding around the forest, and in hunting small prey within the forest too. The fact he was not doing well with this showed how distracted his mind must be, as normally he was a refined hunter. Meeting Rose had clearly affected him. Clearly playing on his mind. Though it was still playing on my mind, so it is understandable.This was not how we had thought meeting our mate would be. This is not how it is supposed to be. Though I know you can't plan for everything to be perfect, this was beyond strange and it has really set me on edge. Something told me it didn't feel right, but I was t

I pace the footpath outside the coffee shop nervously, having arranged to meet Rose here. Should I really be nervous coming to meet my mate? This all seems so foreign and strange to me. I don’t know what to expect or what I should be feeling. I am almost certain it should not feel this difficult and awkward though… my doubts nag away at me.I don’t know why but my mind has been nagging away with doubts and questioning over whether this feels right since she said she needed space and time. The fact Jaxx feels on edge over his fated mate and her actions too, is only adding to these doubts. This is not how I envisioned meeting my mate would be, but I am too embarrassed, I guess, to tell anyone. I already know what Knox thinks about it all, going off his initial reaction. So, no doubt the others would be the same.If I go along with what she wants, are they going to see me as letting her walk all over me? But then, if I want to make a go of things with my fated mate like I should try to,

Well, we had managed to sit and have some breakfast and chat a little. She did not seem willing to give much away. I had not really learned much more than I already knew. Did not know whether she wanted me or not. Jaxx was just as unsettled, if not more so, which is making me real anxious, which is not a sensation I am massively used to, and I have to say, I do not like it, not one little bit.I truly thought talking to her would help. But it hadn’t. We had spoken, she had told me bits. Until her phone had rang, that was. She had walked off to answer it. I have sat at the table since, waiting patiently for her to return.Though my patience was beginning to wear out now. She had been gone fucking ages. She had gone to stand outside to answer her call, which yeah, I get, as the coffee shop had music playing, but I can't even see her now, she is not anywhere to be seen. I have long since finished my coffee. The food is cold and drying up. I am beginning to wonder if she is even going to

I had to flee from the coffee shop. Anthony was in the country! He had travelled to see me! He had surprised me, that is why he had not been contactable. So, the moment he told me that I was not going to hang around to chat and make polite conversation with a "maybe mate" any longer. So I simply left and found a taxi back to the hotel to pack my things, asking Anthony to book me a flight to meet him. I would spend the last few days here with him, before heading home together.That would also mean I get to stay in a decent standard of hotel too, thank the lord! It was only when I got back to the hotel and was about to leave that I realised that I hadn’t even said goodbye to Jake. Haha, how rude of me! But, he completely slipped my mind the moment Anthony said he had come to see me! I could not help it. I didn’t do it on purpose. My mind was just so focused on Anthony and getting to him as soon as I could. Not to mention so touched by the fact he had gone to so much effort to surprise m