Lahat ng Kabanata ng Second Chance: Kabanata 51 - Kabanata 60

I have had enough with the bad things happening in this town. There is no way that someone from Chance would have spray painted my dad’s car. It was one thing for someone to mess with my car, but when they mess with my parents that’s a whole different story. If someone is pissed at me or about the project, they need to take up their grievances with the board. I am going to do what I can this weekend to put that aside. I am moving in with Holden this weekend. A couple of nights without him next to me was more than enough. I missed him so much. Holden gets to the house way too early for me. Daddy has been up since six which is normal for him. Unless he is sick my dad is up at the crack of dawn. I can’t function until I have had at least one cup of coffee. Mama is neither an early riser nor late sleeper. She lays in the bed for a little while after Daddy gets up so she can let him do his morning routine. “Good morning, sweetie. You learned the getting up early for Daddy. You know I n

I have been keeping a close eye on Amelia. She has been on her best behavior. She chewed my ass out when we got home after the ground breaking ceremony. She had walked in when Mayson was hugging me. I got in trouble not only for Mayson hugging me, but Amelia said I was hugging her back. It was a few days of tantrums and me buying gifts to try to pacify her. This was getting old. I have finally made the decision that marrying her would be the stupidest thing I have ever done, and I have done a lot of stupid things in my life. I was having a difficult time even trying to have sex with her. Her behavior and attitude lately has been a huge turnoff. Never thought the day would come with Seth Davis would have trouble getting hard. In college, it didn’t matter what the girl looked like or how drunk I was, I would be getting laid just about every night. Amelia is a beautiful girl on the outside which is a major turn on. Unfortunately, she is an ugly person on the inside which is the biggest

Holden and I had been back together now for three months. He said he had a surprise for me and said he wanted me to get dressed up. I had no idea of where we were going so I settled on a simple white dress with small flowers on it. I always kept one in my wardrobe because it reminded me of the night that Holden had given me the engagement ring at Antonio’s in Clinton. It was the most romantic night we had ever had together. Antonio’s Restaurant (eight years ago) I could never imagine that Holden would have bought me an engagement ring. We had been saving up for the last year to pay for rent on the apartment we were going to live in while he was at Penn State. His family was well off, but his step father wouldn’t allow his mother to give him any extra money. He would save the money he earned working with my dad to get the things he really wanted. I was so proud of becoming his wife. It was the most beautiful ring that I had ever seen. It was a Keepsake Diamond setting. They didn

I don’t remember a minute of the drive back to the house. I thanked the driver and walked up to the front door. I was hesitant to even walk inside. I had finally stopped crying. I am worried I may start all over again. I have so many questions that I do not know the answers to. Do I really want to move back to my parent’s house and not see Holden? I lived eight years without him before, but did I want to live that hollow life again. Since I had come back to town I feel like I am whole again. The piece that was missing from my heart was back. I am faced with the fact that Holden could have been lying to me about the use of protection. If that is so, can I forgive him. He has a baby on the way. I wanted to be the one that was carrying his first child, not some ex-girlfriend. This baby will bind him and Jennifer forever. Do I want to live my life as a third wheel? Will our children suffer because of this unplanned pregnancy? And the biggest question, do I still want to marry Holden?

Before heading home, I rode by The Cole’s house to see if Mayson’s car was there. I praised God when I saw that it wasn’t there. I have to hope though that she was at our house and had not left town again. I need her more than I think she realizes. I cannot live without her, not again. These last eight years have been empty without her. We belong together no matter what. I was so relieved to see her car still in the driveway of our house. I hope she is still awake. I really want to talk to her before this night is over. I hate how things were when she left Antonio’s. The hurt in her eyes ripped my heart out. I take in a deep breath before I open the door, because I am not sure what I might be walking into. Mayson is one of the sweetest people I know, but when she is mad, it can get ugly. The redheaded being hot headed saying is very true, especially when they are angry. She was pretty upset when she left the restaurant. Hopefully, she has cooled down some so we can have some type