Fire のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 71 - チャプター 80

I drove home slowly and parked in the garage again. I sat in the car thinking to myself when Adara opened my door and climbed on my lap, hugging me tightly. I hugged her back and my heart sank.I closed my eyes and I wanted to stay like that forever. I blocked out her emotions because they hurt too much. Her guilt was overwhelming but so was her love. I didn’t want to feel it because I was going to break her heart.“Aren’t you coming inside?” she asked with a smile as she hopped off and walked to the door. I unfastened the safety belt and climbed out. I leaned against the car and took a deep breath as I walked inside.Malachi and Jessica were sitting at the kitchen table and I pulled a chair out for Adara. “Sit,” I said and walked back to the kitchen.I placed the bottle on the table and got four glasses. I poured drinks for all of us and sat down at the head of the table as Adara frowned slightly. I always sat next to her. Malachi was also looking at me oddly and only Jessica was unf

Malachi watched Kiran’s retreating form. He had no idea what to say. They were all shocked as they remained sitting at the kitchen table. The previous night when Jessica had found the ring on his nightstand, she looked at him and slid it on her own finger.They’d discussed him finally moving in with her and he’d already packed all of his clothes. He’d planned on telling Kiran just before James had called and they’d all gone to the hospital to celebrate the birth.Now, everything just seemed confusing and not at all what he’d expected. This was a different Kiran than the one he’d embraced in Mauritius. Kiran’s eyes were cold, his mind empty and Malachi knew he’d been blocked out.“Okay, I’m just going to say it. What the hell just happened?” Jessica asked after ten minutes of silence.“He’s hurt and angry and I’m sure whatever he was going through these past two days has something to do with it,” Malachi said. He felt frustrated because Kiran was blocking him out.“I don’t want a divor

At 6 p.m., Malachi drove home and sighed when he found the side door unlocked. She never locked the doors, no matter how many times he told her to. He stopped in the kitchen and looked at the empty sink and frowned.He hadn’t washed their breakfast dishes that morning and he headed up the stairs towards their bedroom where he found Jessica in front of her vanity where she applied a coat of mascara to her eyelashes.“What’s going on with you?” Jessica looked at him in the mirror. “You did the dishes.”Jessica sighed and turned on the vanity chair to look at him. Her mind was closed off once again as Malachi tried to search it. “I don’t see why you want to do the whole traditional wedding thing.”“You should have the big, fancy, white wedding.” Malachi sat down on the edge of the bed facing her and searched her eyes instead.“Who says I haven’t had the big, fancy, white wedding?”Malachi laughed. “You haven’t. Are you having second thoughts? Is this moving too fast for you?” Doubt had s

Time passed slowly and Adara hardly spoke to me anymore. We skirted around each other in the house and around the children's schedules. It had been three weeks since that family meeting and I hated the silence in the house. I didn’t blame her though, the chaos around me was of my own doing.I kept to myself and I didn’t speak to James or Malachi a lot. It killed me, but it was safer. I had never before felt so alone and even Death was keeping his distance. I wallowed in my own self-pity and I took it because I deserved it.During the fourth week, my office door at the hotel was flung open and James stormed inside. He glared at me as he sat down in the chair in front of my desk. I had wondered when Adara would tell Shoran everything.“Explain yourself,” James said with a heated tone and I looked at him in surprise.“Excuse me?” I almost chuckled with the force of his aura that he tried to push over me.“Divorce? What’s wrong with you?” James asked.“Why are you angry? I’m not divorcing

I sat in the kitchen for hours, playing our conversation over and over in my head. She was going through something and for the first time, she didn’t want to share her concerns with me. It was my own fault though and I wanted to be mad at her. I wanted to share her concerns but she was right, it wasn’t my business anymore, except that it was, it always would be.I loved her more than I loved myself, everything about her that pissed me off now were things I loved about her. Frustration was getting the better of me because patience was not a virtue I had. I wanted Vincent dead but he was stubbornly staying away.Upstairs, I stopped in front of the nursery and checked on Kai and Saga. They always seemed so at peace when they were asleep, that also calmed me. I breathed in their baby scent and headed to my own bedroom to sleep.I woke up with a start, my heart beating wildly and I tasted bile in my mouth. I ran to the bathroom and threw up as everything came up. The last time this had hap