JEREMIAH “It can’t be possible. It can't happen…” It can't... No... All this time while my son was growing up, living in a world without his father, I had been alive, somewhere, hating his mother and my life, not knowing what I was missing. My jaw tightened as I forced myself to stay where I was, even as everything in me pulled toward him. He stood in front of me, real and alive, and yet feeling impossibly distant like a stranger. Like a dream. I refused to look at Nina again, maybe if I stayed still I will wake up. This was a dream. It could be nothing else. Because how could I accept that I lost a chunk of my own baby’s life that I will nevrr get back. I can't. “Jeremy.” I lifted my blurry gaze to Lachlan, he put his hand on the boy’s shoulder as he said, “This is Juhan. Your—” I held up my hand, noticing how terribly it was shaking. I didn’t let him finish. And despite myself, I looked for answer from my wife. A moment ago, I didn't want to.
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