Ex-fiance's regret のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

DIANA It was harder than I thought. The past five days have been more difficult than I expected. Suddenly I see him everywhere. In the hallway, in my dreams. Anytime I’d enter a room he had been in, I was enveloped by his musky vanilla scent still lingering in the air, probably waiting for me to inhale it and let it settle in my brain - a high I never thought I’d need. Today was not any better. I was walking to one of the conference rooms to have a meeting with the PR committee, to run the designs for the event with her; and then I saw him. He was wearing a grey tuxedo with a black tie, his dirty blonde hair slicked back. He had a smile on his face as he spoke on the phone. I wonder who he was talking to that made him smile that way. Probably one of his many lovers. Did I actually expect to be the only one he kissed? He was probably fucking someone that wasn’t me. His eyes turned to me and winked, and all the seething anger growing in me transformed into a tingling sensati

DIANA As he said those words, it felt like a dagger in the heart, and as he retreated, the ache intensified. So he was fucking other women? Why did a small part of me believe otherwise?How foolish of me. It’s not like there was anything substantial between us, so why was I bothered? Why did the thought of him with another woman in his arms irk me this much? He could sleep with a thousand women for all I cared. It’s none of my business. What we had was fleeting, a moment of weakness. Giving it any more substantial weight than that was stupid.I walked out of the office, blinded by pure anger. I needed to get away from this constant reminder of him in the atmosphere. I found a café some blocks away from the company. I pushed the door open, the jingle of the bell ahead oddly soothing, the whole place was small, but not enough to make me feel claustrophobic, just cool and light, with smooth cream and white walls, and soft golden light fixtures, like a home away from home. The rou

DIANA It hurt. It hurt so much. The flames danced around me like it was listening to a song. A melody I was not privy to. It would have been a beautiful sight, but not from where I was standing. The tongues of fire wrapped themselves around me, their hold possessive. Immediately my skin peeled off my flesh, leaving my bones bare to the flames. But it was cold. So cold, like a glacier on my bones. I began to shiver in the sea of flames, my tears extinguished before they reached the embers beneath my feet. “Look at what you’ve become.” I heard his voice echo around me. “You will always be a monster!” “Please stop.” I whimpered as I buried my face in my hands. “You will burn forever!!!” “Stop!! Stop!! Stop!! - “ I screamed from the top of my lungs, my eyes burning with tears. And suddenly I felt arms around me, a warmth I craved deeply in the midst of the fire. “Princess, just hold on okay?” His voice softly wrapped itself around my heart, shielding it from the blaze within

DIANA.How much farther must you climb till fear settles?How much farther till it disappears?For a moment I didn’t know what to say. I just stared like an absolute fool as they stared back at me. I couldn’t help gawking at the woman he had in his arms.She was beautiful.Drastically so..Her wavy blond hair flowed like honey down her back, bright eyes and a perfect heart shaped face, lips full and red. But that wasn’t what held my attention.It was her skin.Porcelain white, like a perfect Chinese pottery.Not a single blemish. Not a single scar.‘‘Diana.’’ He pulled me out of my thoughts, his brow furrowing slightly as I stood. ‘Is there something I can help you with?’‘‘I-’’ I pulled my gaze away from the woman, and back to him. ‘‘I would like to speak with you, sir..in private, please.’’ He only turned to the woman, letting go of her as he spoke.‘I’ll meet you at the hotel.’ The woman pouted, obviously annoyed but she nodded anyway. She looked at me, sizing me up from my head

DIANA It burnt the moment his lips touched mine, like gold on embers, heating up to the highest degree but never melting away, never scarring. I felt this heat circulate through my body, settling in my belly. It was a volcanic eruption, a force to behold, one I did not have the strength to contend with. My lips parted as his tongue broke through, filling my mouth with the taste of untamed passion, void of any hint of inhibition, a feeling I had never known. His hold on my waist tightened as he pulled me closer to his chest, deepening the kiss. A moan fled from my lips in response, and it seemed to have riled up something in him. He groaned and he placed one hand on my ass, squeezing it hard, and the other hand wrapped itself around my throat, slightly choking me. I gasped as he pulled away from me, his grey eyes locked with mine, wild with desire. In that moment I believed more than anything that he wanted me, badly. No one has ever looked at me in such a way, so needy for me.