Semua Bab Once Her Bully, Now Her Beggar: Bab 51 - Bab 60

We were at the dinner table having dinner when it struck my mind. I had thought about it well enough to be sure that was what I wanted and it wasn't just a reckless decision. I looked around for a moment before speaking“I would return back to school” I mumbled very lowly“What did you say?” my mom asked this time both their eyes were on me“I would return back to school” I repeated“For a week to see if I want to continue” I added“Are you sure about that?” Ricardo asked and I nodded“That's so brave of you honey,” my mom said“Moving schools, especially during your senior year isn't a good look for your college resume. I just didn't want to mention it not to put any pressure on you” she added and I nodded with a lump in my throat“It is just for a week Mom” I reminded her“Think about it well so it wouldn't affect you,” she saidI stared at her dead in the eye hoping she would stop but she didn't and went on and on about it, I had to bite my tongue from saying anything that would ru

I said my goodbye to May and headed for my first class, I sat in corner with eyes glued to my desk but that didn't help I could feel the eyes thatfollwowd me as I took a seat and their whispers clouded my mind, I tried to block the voices out but it was got louder and louder. I kept tugging at the sleeves of my sweatshirt to avoid any peeking of the scar left on my wrist.The bell rang and more people rushed in their eyes traveling in my direction as they trooped in. Some looked surprised to see I even showed up at all. The teacher walked in and stood in front of the class, his eyes scanned the class for a moment then landed on me“Welcome back” he simply said making the whole class head to turn to my direction, I cowered where I sat hoping the chair would swallow me.Even when the teacher started taking the class, some people were still taking peeks at me and whispering, not paying mind to what the teacher was saying. I couldn't even bring myself to focus when my heart was racing a

I didn’t wait for May to catch up with me. I didn’t even look back. My legs moved faster than my thoughts and my heart was pounding like it was trying to get out of my chest. My hand was shaking as I raised it to wave down a taxi and when it finally stopped in front of me I yanked the door open and got in. I could hear her voice calling out to me from behind but I didn’t answer. I just slammed the door shut and mumbled my address to the driver. I curled into myself at the back of the cab, my fists clenched on my thighs so tight my nails dug into my skin. My eyes stared blankly out the window but all I could see was her face, her voice, the hate and anger in her eyes, the way her words pierced through my heart. It repeated over and over again they echoed in my head until I thought I would lose my mind. There was a tightness in my chest like something was pressing down on it and I couldn’t breathe properly, I kept staring at the window to distract my mind but nothing was working. I di

NOVAI spent the weekend locked in my room, I didn't want to see anyone or speak to anyone. May kept blowing my phone off and also Kelsey, it got so bad that at some point I had to turn off the phone. I was so overwhelmed with a lot of emotions that I couldn't process. I shouldn't be mad at Kelsey . She didn't have anything to do, it was her mom who was mean to me not her but I still didn't want to say anything to her and that made me feel like a horrible person.I got ready for school, the week ran by really fast and the Monday that looked so far away was finally here. I decided to keep going, I havent gotten a reason to call it quit just yet. I was optimistic about the day, I decided to lock my mind and thoughts out and just go on with the day, put everything behind me and act like they never existed. I cried and cried and nothing changed. I couldn't keep wallowing in it.“Morning Mom” I greeted not looking her in the eyes as I walked out“Nova” she called my name, I turned to look

DYLANAfter partying all through Saturday night that still didn't feel enough for me I was aware of what was going on around me no matter how much I drank and I wanted the opposite of that, I wanted to be knocked out cold. So Sunday night we went to the club, we were underage but that has never stopped us before. We had girls surrounding us on our table, and the night was such a blur that I didn't know how I ended up back home. I woke up to find myself naked with a girl wrapped around me. It was a fucking wild night exactly what I craved for.I was so hung over, my head felt like it was going to split open, and the reflection of the sunlight in my room made me wince in pain. “You are up” the girl wrapped around me smiled snuggling closer towards me, I couldn't remember from what part of the night we ended up together“Get up I have to go to school?” I told her pushing her away from me“School? What school?” she asked “School” I repeated fishing out my wallet from my pants that were