MATCH MADE IN HELL.의 모든 챕터: 챕터 21 - 챕터 30

I want to disappear so bad. It's not even more about what is happening, it's that I don't know why it is happening. "Are you okay?" I look up and nod. Kerrick has refused to leave my side since we found the body. I don't really mind him being here, he gives me a sense of security. "Why does this keep happening?" I ask getting up from the floor. "We'll figure it out, don't worry," he says helping me up. I need to sleep, I want to get inside my bed and stay there as long as I can. "You know this is now a crime scene," Kerrick says as I start walking to my room. That's it. I turn and walk out of the apartment. "Where are you going? It's late," he shouts out but I don't stop. There is nothing here for me. I want to scream, I want to cry for myself but mostly for Johan, he was just my patient and after all he did to get better just to end up killed.I stop at the mini mart and buy a bottle of whiskey. There is an abandoned building with an incredible view of the city from the roof top. I

Inside me, I have always felt empty. At first, after the death of my family, there was just pure grief. After years the grief eased and slowly by slowly it disappeared leaving me with an emptiness I have been struggling to fill since then.Now more than ever, I feel so alone. I am the talk of every party and gathering of my fellow psychiatrists. I try so hard to act like it doesn't bother me but it does. I feel like some of them think I am a killer or know who the killer is. "You should get out of town for a while," I look back at the direction from which the voice is coming. I see Avan standing at the door way dressed in a casual official manner. "And go where?" I ask, not seriously considering it. "You could go anywhere you like," he says and starts walking towards me. I should go out of town. I could go out of town. What is stopping me? "I'll think about it," I say to him, standing beside me. We look out the window quietly for some time. "Don't think about it, just do it," he say

As I drive to the cabin, I try not to think of how I left things or who I left behind. The wind feels great on my face. I feel as though my problems are being carried away. This was a good idea.Its further than I thought it would be and I actually prefer it that way. "Hello, ma'am," a guy with a southern accent approaches me as soon as I pull up. "Hello," I say getting out of the car. "I am Garden White, we talked on the phone," he says offering me his hand which I take. "It's nice to meet you," I say."Everything is prepared for you and I will be just a short drive that way if you need anything." he says, pointing to the right. "Thank you," I say as he offers me the keys to the cabin. "I hope you find what you are searching for," he says with a small smile. "I hope so too."The warmth of the cabin hits me as soon as I open the door. I take my bags in and unpack. Everything in this cabin feels understandably strange but weirdly comfortable. The kitchen is stocked, there are enough su

I don't know how long I have been walking. It's still raining but I can't even feel it. My toes are numb from the cold and my hands are all bruised up from falling over and over again. All I can think about is, I need to get far way from the cabin, the further the better.The whole trail is unfamiliar and made worse by the fact that it is dark. I estimate Garden's house will be closer from the cabin compared to the bar.A twig snaps and I hasten my pace. I can't tell if I am being followed or it's all just in my head. I feel nothing right now, just pure adrenaline and an intense desperation to live. In a rush, I had left my phone in the cabin. I had thought about going back to get it but I couldn't make myself to do it. I can't keep walking, I need another plan and just like that I see car headlights heading my way. I stand in the middle of the road. With all that mist there's a high chance the driver won't see me on time. But what is the alternative? If I stand by the road, even if

"How are you holding up?" Avan looks so concerned. It makes my heart break a little. "I'm good given the circumstances. "Please tell me you didn't tell them anything," he says. "There's nothing to tell, I didn't do it," he reaches out and places his hand over mine. I move my hand away. I am afraid the more care he shows me, the weaker I'll get. "I've gotten you a lawyer. He can make almost anything disappear, and I mean anything," I don't want to ask how he knows that. "Thank you." "You believe me though, right?" my voice breaks at the end. "Of course I believe you. Anything you tell me I'll believe," I can't help feel like crying. I hold it in and nod. His face curves into a tiny smile. The door opens to reveal a guy I have never seen before. "I am Alec, your lawyer," he is in an expensive suit. That must mean he is good at what he does or it's just something I desperate need to believe."I think you should leave," he looks at Avan who gives him a death stare. "I am not leaving,"