All Chapters of To have and to Loathe: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

MiaI walked silently towards the kitchen, my mind reeled with a million and one thoughts—especially with ways to end Killian.“Aw!” Imelda squealed as I bumped into her but she was able to maintain a strong hold on the food.“Sorry ma’am,” I mumbled out as she stared at me with concern.“I was just coming to serve your food.” “Oh, thank you.” I tried to muster up the enthusiasm but I really couldn’t. “Let’s go to the dining room then.”Immediately after we arrived, she served me some white mushy food with a banana that was too brown for my liking with fruits on the side, and a full glass of cream colored liquid. Ewww!“This looks so..” I trailed off as Imelda laughed heartily. “This meal is healthy for pregnant women.” She explained as she gestured towards the glass, “especially this.”I couldn’t help but squeeze my face.“This looks too healthy, no life to it,” I remarked as we both burst into a fit of laughter. I dug in immediately, and the food didn’t taste good or bad. But it w

Mia“How are you feeling now?” Fabian's soft deep voice said from the other end as I washed my mouth.I’m not feeling okay. I feel nauseous and I am supposed to go to antenatal today. “ I don’t know. I’m feeling a little bit under the weather.”I still shuddered yesterday from Killian's threat, his whole body was shaking from anger. The portrait was his mom’s. I ran my hands down my face. I feel so ashamed right now and a little regretful. “So sorry, Mia.”“I will survive” I assured him but myself more. “Don’t you have this business conference thing today?”“Yeah, I have actually prepared. Just wanted to hear your sweet voice.” The damn butterflies damn broke again making me giggle. “Well, I will call you later so you can tell me about how it went.” “Okay, take care.” He said before the line went dead. I don’t feel like soaking in the bathtub right now and my lavender oil is finished. I took a quick shower and dressed in a simple pink sundress—my mom bought it for my 22nd birthday.

MiaI smacked my lips to blend the lip gloss well. My skin color is beginning to darken and these pimples won’t stop coming out on my damn face. God! and it only gets worse. I went into my closet and wore the outfit I had specially selected for this dress for today. I promised Sandra we would dress up— looking pretty and all. I look into the full-length mirror. The black shiny dress hugs my body tight, it has tiny sleeves and a deep V cut, showing a lit cleavage. It stops mid-thighs.I feel so soft and pretty. I double checked myself in the mirror. Everything looks good—at least. I grabbed my purse and headed downstairs.“I’m going out,” I announced as I spotted Imelda in the living room. She looked up, her eyes ran all over me and a small smile lit up her face. “You look beautiful dear” “Thank you so much. Where is Killian?” I asked, I rarely see him— not that I am complaining. He can leave and never come back.“He left for the office early.” “On a Sunday?” Imelda didn’t say anyt

MiaI felt the water drowning me, taking me deeper, and I had the urge to let myself go and embrace it. No, I can’t allow Killian to see that he had gotten to me. I resurfaced, sucking in all the air in the bathroom—shit. I don’t know how long I have been in the water but my water had turned cold. I got out of the tub, dried off my body, and walked—more like limping, butt naked into my closet. I still feel a little tingle in my pussy from Killian’s brutal thrusts. I feel my heart drop in the pit of my belly as I remember the way he dismissed me last night.I didn’t expect him to be lovey-dovey but at least a little politeness would not hurt. I dressed up and applied a little lip gloss on my lips before I headed downstairs, holding my head high. I didn’t see Killian in the dining room so I guessed he had left already.“Imelda!” I shouted as I headed towards the kitchen but received no answer. I guess I’m the only one stuck at home. It sucks that I can’t work anymore, I am not used to

MiaWe are right back to silent treatment not that we progressed anywhere before. Seeing him rage yesterday, was unnerving. I will try my best to stay out of his way—-I will try. Killian was lounging around the daybed, watching a video as he ate a strawberry from the plate beside him. He was wearing only grey shorts, his shirtless, his tanned skin so flawless and smooth. The sun kissed his skin, making him look hotter.“The weather is nice today,” I said as I sat on the daybed beside him. He just glanced at me briefly, running his eyes over me before going back to his video. Great! He is still ignoring. I’m tired of living like this. We are basically like strangers. “Hm,” I huffed before facing him. “Aren’t you tired of ignoring me all day?”I was met with another silence. The man from the video chatters incessantly filling the awkward silence. “Killian, I would like..”He slammed his phone on the table, cutting me off. He looked at me blankly. “Do I look like I wanna talk to you?”