To have and to Loathe

Mia 

“What!” I exclaimed in shock. “What are you saying?” I asked the man sitting behind his table, his handsome face stoic and emotionless. 

“I am not the father of the child you are carrying.” Killian stated curtly.

“Well, I haven’t been with anyone in months except you.” I retorted

He just looked at me blankly. “Do you expect me to believe you didn’t have a boyfriend or whatever before this happened?” 

I did have a boyfriend but we had not been intimate for some time before I caught him in bed with his childhood best friend and not about to tell Killian that.

“I have the doctor’s report with me here with me.” I said as I immediately pulled the papers from my pocket and placed them in front of him.

He eyed the paper boredly but didn’t pick it up. “This could be fake.” 

“Did you think you were the only one who walked in here and claimed to be pregnant?” He asked, looking up at me.

“I…I just…” 

“Many have tried but none have succeeded. You want to extort money from me.” He said cutting my words short.

“Even if the child were to be mine, you should get rid of it.”  he stated coldly.

“What!” I ask in shock.

When I stood in front of his home office, I didn't imagine that this was how this conversation would go. I mean I didn't expect warmth but this monster is outright cold and ruthless. 

“You heard me, I don’t want any fucking child tied to me right now. Get out of my office and you better don’t run your mouth to the press.” He said bluntly.

I stood there embarrassed, my vision blurred with tears before they streamed down my face. I couldn’t move.

“And your service to my grandfather is no longer needed. Your check will be mailed to your address.” He said.

His words rang in my ears as I immediately fell on my knees. “No! Please, don’t fire me. I swear this will not come in the way of my work. Please!” I pleaded.

“ Miss Lester, I don’t like to repeat myself.” He said before returning to his desktop, completely ignoring me.

Seeing that his mind is made up, I stood up and looked at him quietly. 

“I didn’t come to cause trouble. I just wanted to let you know of the baby’s existence but since you don’t want the baby, I will go.” I said and quickly ran out of his office, tears running down my cheeks.

As I passed the sitting room, I saw his grandfather where I had left him. The man liked me immediately and thought it was a good thing to introduce me to Killian.  

He was so condescending, rude, and cold— God! I hate him so much. 

I never imagined that he would turn out to be the stranger that I had a one-night stand with at the bar when my ex-boyfriend cheated on me— the world is just too small.

“Si..sir.” I choked out as I reached his side, catching his attention.

“Mia dear, what is the matter. What is making you cry?” He asked.

“Nothing sir, I just wanted to tell you that I will no longer work here. Thank you for everything you have done for me. Bye, Sir.” I said and immediately ran out of their home before he could say anything.

As soon as I boarded the cab, I let myself break down.

I am pregnant and jobless, I can’t afford to keep it— I just can’t. My phone rang immediately disrupting my train of thought.

“Hello Sandra," I said immediately as I picked up the phone.

“Mia!” Sandra exclaimed. “Where are you now?”

“Sandra, he didn’t want it. He said to get rid of it.” I said into the phone, still sobbing.

“God! He is such a bastard.” She said angrily.

“Please come home. Let’s talk about it. I will be waiting for you.” The line went off.

When I found out that Killian was the father of the baby, I was afraid to say anything but Sandra said that he at least deserved to know he had a child— but look how it turned out. 

When I arrived on my street, I rushed to a drug store and bought flushing pills before I went home.

“Oh mia!” My best friend, Sandra, said immediately I entered my apartment as she stood up and wrapped her hands around me.

“Sandra” I muttered weakly as she squeezed gently before letting me go.

“Killian is such a monster. Why would he tell you to do such a thing?” She bellowed in anger.

“I don’t know what to do. I am unemployed and pregnant Sandra. This is not the life I want for myself.” 

“What do you mean you are jobless?” 

“He fired me, Sandra.” 

“What! That bastard doesn’t have a conscience at all. I wish I could just strangle him.” Sandra said angrily as I reached into my pocket and brought the flushing pills.

“Jesus Mia, don’t tell me you listened to that Idiot!” Sandra shouted.

“You are far gone, this could harm you!! You could die Mia.”

“Then what do you have me do?” I shouted back, looking at her intently.

“I don’t have a job, how can I take care of a child?” I asked as fresh tears streamed down my face.

“You have me. And you have your mom and sc…”

“No! Please, not Mom and Scott. I don’t want them to find out about this.” I pleaded.

“Taking that drug is not an option either, I cannot allow it.” Sandra said defiantly.

“But I can’t depend on your generosity forever. You can’t take care of me and the baby forever.” I said

“We can think of something, please don't do this.” She said, her eyes begging.

I looked at the drugs in my hands and back at her. I know she would be disappointed in me, even my mom and Scott would be too if they found out about this but I can’t live like this.

“I think I have made my decision”