His Second Husband 의 모든 챕터: 챕터 11 - 챕터 20

Silas’s pov“It’s okay, Silas,” he said quietly, taking the flask back and taking a sip himself. “It’s gonna happen. You spent the better part of a decade with him. Your brain… it’s looking for patterns. It’s looking for him in places he’s not.” He smiled and leaned forward. “To be honest, Emery would have hated all this moping. He’d have kicked your ass for it by now. He would’ve wanted you to move on. To be happy. However you can manage it.”I looked at him, really looked at him, and… I don’t know how else to describe it but at that moment, he looked human. In that moment he looked like he wasn’t against my marriage.“You think?” I asked. It came out so weak.“I know it. I mean, I’m not just saying it,” he told me. “He was your partner, but he was my friend too. He was a selfish prick in a lot of ways but you know what? He was emery. The best of us. He has his flaws and sometimes he messes up but he would want you to get over his death and stop blaming yourself for what happened.”“

Julian’s povI opened the door and walked out, stretching, as I felt a bit weird walking around in this house in briefs. But either way, I wanted to keep this companionship thing going. I wanted him to see what he would get from me if he played his cards right.I walked down to a makeshift artist room he had made for me. I could see the canvas, the paintings, everything all packed up in a side. I hadn’t opened any one. He called it my wedding gifts.I went to the corner and started to arrange things, and then, when I was done putting everything back together, I stood back to look at what I had done. I was already picking up a brush to draw something when I was hit with an inspiration to do so. I opened the paints and started drawing things that came into my head. I had no idea what I was drawing, but I let my strokes lead me.While I was doing it, I smelled his perfume before I heard his voice. With a smile, I turned to look at him.“How did you know I was here?” he said.I gave a sma

Silas’s povI walked through the gardens with Matilda by my side. It was quiet that evening.Being here brought back a lot of memories that I had tried so hard to suppress over time. She turned to me. “Once again, congratulations on your wedding. I don’t know how you do it.”I laughed, looking around with my hands in my pockets. It was a bit chilly that evening. “What do you mean by that?”She shrugged. “Well, you’ve been married twice. First to Emery, then he died. And then you had to wait. And then you got married again to this ruffian of a guy.”“His name is Julian,” I said to her.She gave a little nod. “Fine, fine, whatever. But all I’m saying is, you got married again. How does it feel?”I stopped, then turned to her. And she did the same to me.“What do you want from me? What do you want me to say?”“I don’t know,” she scoffed. “Maybe tell me that this is just a phase and by tomorrow it’s all going to be some bad joke.”I laughed. “Matilda, have you ever been lonely?”She shru

Silas’s povWe both stared at each other for a while, the entire room blurring into nothingness. In that moment, all that mattered was Julian, I wanted him, I needed him. But I couldn’t do what I had in mind in public. That would be left for home. The drinks, it was buzzing in my head. I needed something to distract myself.I turned to the back door and tilted my chin there.“How about we go out?”“To where?” His brows creased in a funny way.I gave him a small smile. “You’ll see.”With a shrug, he extended his hands to me to pull me up as I placed my hand on the small of his back and led him out the door, opening it for him before leading him out.We walked for a few minutes, looking around, enjoying the scenery. There were couples around doing what couples did best. One couple was kissing in a corner, the next my eyes landed on were having a good time talking, while there was another couple in a dark corner… I think they were going through a sexual time, but all in all, I just want

Silas’s povI woke up with the sound of a lawnmower being my alarm.I turned to the side to see Julian was still asleep, all sprawled out naked on the bed. He looked beautiful.Last night had been crazy. All thw sex and the emotions were through the roof and we had done things that in a normal sense would be considered a sin. Without holding myself back, I slightly grazed my finger against his chin.There was so much I wanted to say to him but there was no need. I swung out of bed and sat at the edge, I staring into space for a while. The events of last night played in my head over and over again.I wondered if I could have handled my outbursts better. Maybe if I had held back on the way I yelled, or maybe if I had decided to come home from the country club, that would not have happened. But I shook my head. There was no need crying over spilled milk. It was done already.I got up and decided to go for my daily routine. I went to the gym, lifted a couple of weights, but didn’t feel li