Lahat ng Kabanata ng “Daddy, Will You Ever Love Me?”: Kabanata 571 - Kabanata 580

I was sitting at the bar at Vinnie's nursing one of the "cokes" that Jack had made for me hoping that it would sooth my nerves enough to get rid of that twisting feeling that I'd had in my stomach for the last few days. I knew this was the last thing I needed, that drinking was a big part of how things had gotten so bad in the first place, but what I really needed I couldn't have. What I needed was my brother, to have him hold me, to feel him next to me, and to have him inside of me. I heard a clinking sound and realized that my hand was shaking, causing the ice cubes to rattle. Putting the drink down I glanced over and saw that Jack was busy. It was the lunch rush, and as always I was amazed at how many people had drinks then went back to work.I put my arm on the table and rested my chin in my hand in an effort to keep my head up. I was totally exhausted and had barely been getting through the days, but when night came I couldn't sleep worth a damn. That's part of the reason I neede

I hung up the phone and sitting down grabbed a couple of napkins and after wiping my eyes, put my head down and took a few deep breaths to calm down. Mark was coming and everything would be okay even if it were just for a little while. What we were going to do I wasn't sure yet but for all I knew It could be the last time we... I forced myself to stop thinking like that even if Mark had to leave it's not like I wouldn't see him. But how would we sleep? Who would be there when we needed someone? Who would make it okay? Mark had Krissy for now anyways, as something told me she was not going to deal with Mark's growing darkness for much longer, but she wasn't the same as his big sister. I had promised Mark when he came to live with us that I would protect him, look out for him.The last few months however had been more like my little brother looking out for me. Even at the hotel it was Mark who had drawn most of Dad's anger keeping him off of me. Then of course at the end when I melted d

"I'm scared okay Doug? I'm fucking scared. I have fucking nightmares every goddamn night and I wake up screaming and shaking. I have to sleep with candles in the room, that what you want to hear Doug? That I'm afraid of the dark? That I'm so fucking pathetic that sometimes the only time I can sleep is if my big sister lets me in her bed. That I need her to tell me it'll be okay?"Mark was shouting this, but rather than sounding angry his voice was breaking with emotion as if he were ready to cry in frustration."Easy Mark," Dad said trying to put his hand on my brothers shoulder as he spoke, Mark pulled away from him."Yeah you were right Doug. It's all me. I come into my sister's bed sometimes and ask her if she'll hold me because I'm scared and sometimes she rolls over and I curl up behind her because I need to be close because I'm such a fucking loser!""What the hell is going on in here?" Mom demanded as she came running into the room. "There are people out in the damn hallway and

"Okay." Mark said. Then pulling a u-turn drove back the way we came. I didn't ask where he was going I was just happy to be with him. Reaching down I grabbed his hand and squeezed it tight. Mark drove through Cranston to an old mill complex pulling around back he drove up to a set of rusted metal gates with a pad lock. Mark hopped out quickly and grabbed the padlock which fell open in his hand. After pushing the gate open Mark hopped back in the car, pulled it through and closed the gate behind him replacing the broken lock. I realized where we were; the flats it was called, a notorious make out spot for teenagers and where I'm sure Mark had brought Krissy before dad let him start "sneaking" her in.. "I'm sorry this is pretty sleazy." He said looking genuinely upset.I smiled, my brother was so sweet sometimes, but we hadn't been together since the hotel and this nasty girl needed her little brother's cock in the worst way so I didn't give a shit where we were. I leaned over and kiss

"Me too little brother that's why I had to call, Mark I had to. I needed you bad.""Yeah well this feels great but we gotta get dressed." Mark said pulling himself away from me.As much as I hated to let him go, I certainly wasn't going to argue with him especially after last weekend's scene at the hotel. I was pretty much still dressed so it only took me a minute to pull my bra back over my tits and button my blouse.I watched shaking my head as Mark opened the car door and stood out there completely naked on a twenty degree day and slowly got dressed. I have to say the steam coming off of his powerful body looked amazing. I would have to use it in a painting sometime. Mark finished dressing and after tossing my panties and stockings back to me reached into the glove compartment and removed something I couldn't see. Mark climbed into the back seat with me."I'll tell you what I think I missed more than that," Mark said. As he spoke he put his back up against the back window and after