All Chapters of The Cursed Alpha : Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

VIOLET I'd not seen Brian in days.We had settled into a simple routine. He would leave the cabin long before dawn and arrive way past sunset. I always heard his heavy footsteps, going past my room, never hesitating, never stopping.It hurt. My heart twisted in pain every time those footfalls came and it was never for me.If he didn't want me, why not reject me and end this cruel silence? His rejection would be more welcome than this—this pretense that I didn't exist.I should never have let him kiss me, it was a mistake that haunted only one of us. Harriette was a bright spot in my dreary days. We spent most afternoons together and I finally met Keren. Keren was a dumb middle-aged wolf. She had kind eyes and a comforting smile, and she could listen and make food per my requests, but she wasn't much for conversations. She also left immediately she was done cooking, probably had somewhere else to be, unlike me.My days would be hollow without Harriette; I was guessing she found it a

VIOLET On that night when mom was brought back, almost dead and bleeding out, it was pitch black, but I remembered the colour of her eyes—gray like the rain clouds, and I remembered her trembling hand lifting to clutch mine.That whole day was a haze but I could never forget those moments when her hand held mine. She lay there on the verge of death and her gasping words to me were ‘I’m sorry, Violet’ It was the last words I heard my mother say as life drained out of her, and her spirit left to join my dad's.‘I’m sorry, Vi’ were Hunter's usual words to me as he took away another pleasure that wasn't appropriate given the state of my wolf. I hated those words; they signified loss. Why couldn't my loved ones be less sorry and more giving?I wanted Brian's sorry to mean he was willing to give, not take away from me. Yet even here, I knew I sailed the same turbulent seas.Brian had spoken my name for the first time, and it had those dreadful words. I wanted to scream—to demand he take

VIOLET Brian's steps paused at my door today. Like I'd always wanted. But when his knuckle landed lightly above my bedroom door, I pretended to be asleep, even if sleep had been far from me since the night before. He waited for moments before his steps continued into the corridor until I couldn't hear them anymore.The shame from the night before had been relentless, clinging to me like a new, uncomfortable skin. What had I been thinking, doing what I did? He was the Alpha, and regardless of what the moon goddess intended, I was wolfless and weak.The day had dawned on a new reality between Brian and me. I was even more confused about our relationship now, but the one thing I was certain of was my shame. I stayed indoors for as long as I could before I summoned the strength to face the day. Maybe I would be lucky and Brian would be long gone.My wishes were granted, and when I strolled into the central area, the packhouse was empty, but it didn't give as much pleasure as I expected

VIOLET Everyone soon left, and then Brian and I were alone. The soft atmosphere from earlier was gone and I couldn't help but blame everyone else for that.Nighttime had come, and he was quiet as he heated up, and served me dinner: leftover rice and broth from earlier. It was still nice but it was impossible to enjoy it.Brian's eyes avoided mine, and a heavy awkwardness clouded the air as we ate in silence.It continued until I couldn't take the deafening silence anymore. “Will you stop me from going outside?”“The food is nice, isn't it?” he said, his eyes still averted.“Yes, it is lovely. Do you plan on keeping me indoors, Brian?”He finally lifted his head and I wished I could erase the answer in his eyes. “Aliya is right, bunny. You will be attacked.”A huge moth had somehow gotten in, and it flicked around the orange bulb, disturbing my thoughts. “I can take care of myself.”“You cannot, you are fragile.”He only thought that way because I had no wolf. This would work like ba

VIBrian wasn't easily deceived. He was plagued by guilt—yes. And while that affected his reasoning, his eyes still washed over me curiously. Each step forward had to be carefully and deliberately taken.“How soon can we start?”“I don't know, Violet. How soon do you want to start?” “Today seems fine.”A heavy silence reigned for a while, framed by the awkwardness that was now us.“About last night,” he began, but I cut him off before he finished the sentence.“I'd prefer not to speak about it Brian,” I said with a raised hand.“Violet,” his letters bled with regret and guilt, but I needed none of that. If this was his idea of an apology, it was sorely lacking.“It is fine. I forgive you.” All lies. “I never wanted a mate, but here we are.” More lies.He seemed conflicted but his mouth remained shut.“What happens if I do not pass the trials?”“The winner gets the right to challenge you. You will fight at an unfair disadvantage. It is akin to death.”“Has any of the previous Lunas fa